I think I'm gonna go with option one.  I've always wanted to visit Europe, this would be the perfect time.  Only bad thing, I know for sure I would never see them again. 

Suddenly it hits me. 

Don't do it for your relationship with Key, do it for the friendship with those boys.  Which are probably standing outside at the door and trying to catch the conversation. And lets face the truth. How big is the chance for me to emigrate to Europe, huh? 

I sigh. 

This would be a perfect time to ask him all my questions I made up in my bed all these times. But to my surprise there are no questions in my head left. Embarrassing.

"So, uhm... How are you?" Key asks me.

"Uh, good, what about you?" 

Oh yeah, small talk rocks! (Catch the sarcasm)

"I'm fine" 

Liar. 

Okay I'm not better, but who cares!?

Normally this conversation would continue with 'what are you doing right know?' but this question seems unnecessary to me.
 

Silence
 

......



Still silence

..... 

It seems like he would think for a good question. 

Like me.



But he remains silent...
 

......



"How is this Baro guy?" 

What the?! Why would he come up with Baro?! Why does he even remember him?!

"Uh, good... I guess" I answer.

He looks at me.  "You guess?... You don't have contact anymore?"

That's not what I said!!! 

"No, we still have contact. I think this question just hit me of guard."  I try to explain.

"Oh"  He nods.

I know that it's now my turn to question him, but there is just no question left in my brain. Like all my questions went away with this one Nicole question. 'What happened with Nicole?'

"Did you miss me?" I ask.

No! No! No!!!  

How do I delete this question?!  

No don't answer that!!!

"Honestly?" He asks. 

That's the chance!  Shake your head 'No'. 

I nod my head 'Yes' 

What the hell is wrong with me?!

"No" He answers quietly. 

BOOM!!! 

Did you hear that?!  That's the sound of my heart exploding in millions of little pieces.

"Did you miss me?" He asks back.

Say 'No'! Just say 'No'!  Show him this feeling of heartbreak.

"Yes, I did" 

The .

"Oh" He looks down.

Don't 'oh' me!

"I'm sorry" He says quietly again. 

Huh? 

"What for?" 

This question totally serious!  No sarcasm!  No joke!

"I don't know... I'm just sorry"

"You can't be sorry for something you don't even know, Key!" I scowl at him.

"I'm sorry for leaving you, okay?!!!" He screams. 

He really screams. 

He doesn't scream quietly. He screams. At me.

Wow. This outburst was unexpected.

I feel how a tear slips out of my eye. Do I wipe it away? Do I let him know? 

If I don't wipe it away he will know that I'm weak. But maybe he will feel pity. 

Too late. It already rolls down my right cheek.

"I-I am sorry, I didn't mean to scream at you" He seems pitiful.

I shake my head.  "It's okay"

"No, it's not"  He says quietly and moves to sit next to me.