Paparazzi weren't a big theme as Key and I got together. He wasn't that famous then.
But he gained a lot more fame as we broke up. 

Headlines like 'Key's Single again' and Shinee Breakup – Key ditched his girlfriend' broke my heart. 

I seriously wonder how he kept Nicole a secret. 
Probably also one of the reasons I'm scared to be with him again.


Hyera comes in my room, holding my phone in her hand.

"Onew for you" She whispers, aware that I'm still half asleep.

How late is it?

"Hey" I greet Onew half asleep.

"Wanna hang out?" He asks.

Just like this? Huh?

I look at my alarm. 
Jeez. 
Already 12.23 PM

"Uh... sure." I stand up. "Where, when?"

I hear Onew chuckle. "How about 3 PM? My house?"

"Hmmm...... okay!" I laugh.

"Cool! See you then"

"See you later........... Dubu" I grin. Proud of my own funniness.

Onew laughs. "Now you're proud, aren't you?"

"Yup." I'm chuckling.

"O kayyy..... see you at 3" Onew laughs.

"Bye" I hang up and make my way to the bathroom. 

As I come in the living room with a PB&J toast, Hyera's sitting on the couch and reads a book.

"Whatcha reading?" I ask her.

"Something about a girl having cancer"

"Oh, sad books are so........ sad" I chuckle. 

I kinda have a good day today.

"Yess" Hyera looks at me weird. 

"What did Onew want?"

"Wanted to hang out" I shrug.

"And did you say yes?"

"Of course" I grin.

I don't have any classes today because the professor is sick. Flu or something. 
Hyera's shift starts at 2 PM today, mine at 8. That .

"Tell him I said Hi" She says and gets up. Probably making herself ready for work.

 

....

I ring Onew' doorbell. 
Some seconds later he opens with a big grin. 

I grin back. "Hey"

"What's up?" He says and gives me a hug. 

I missed this dude.

"Nothing much, you're lucky that I had no classes today" 

I grin.

"I know I am lucky. Wanna come in?" He asks gesturing with his hand inside.

"Sure" I step in.

Onew has a huge house. Pool. Big kitchen. Giant living room. I dunno how much bedrooms. Must be a lot. 

We sit down on his black couch.

"Want a drink?"

"Uhm.. sure"

He walks to the kitchen. How long is it ago that I was here. It seems like a half eternity. 

He comes back with two classes orange juice.

"Here you go"

"Thanks" I smile at him as he sits down on the other couch.

"By the way, Hyera told me to say Hi"

"Tell her Hi back" Onew grins.

"Did you see the article in this magazine?" I ask him.

He starts laughing. "Oh yes. The dumbest bull I've ever read"

I giggle.

"Uhm... [YN] listen..... Because of last Sunday......."

I look at him confused. 

"What about Sunday?"

"Is there something going on with Jonghyun?"

"huh?!"

"You seemed quiet good with each other... too good."

Too good?! 
What does that mean.

"What do you mean?"

"The hugs, the flirting, the laughing with each other..."

"No, no, no, no, no. There is NOT something going on. Jonghyun and I are just friends!!!" I almost scream.

"Good" Onew breathes out.

"Good?" I look at him confused.

"Yes" He simply answers.

"And what would happen if I said there is something going on with Jonghyun and me?!" I narrow my eyes.

"Not good. Listen (YN), I know you and Key are not together anymore but-"

I interrupt him. "So this whole is about Key?!"

"You need to give him a second chance!"

"Why?"

"Jonghyun's gonna play with you [YN]"

"Doesn't matter what Jonghyun's gonna do, there is no reason to be worried! Like I said we are just friends!"

"And you sure Jonghyun sees it like that too?!" 

I see this is going to be an argumentation.

"Well, if not I'm going to tell him how I see it... Do you really think I'm that stupid and date one of the band mates of my ex?!"

"No. But-"

"No buts! There isn't a thing going on and there won't be a thing! Alright?!"

Onew sighs. 

"Well, why don't you give Key a second chance then?"

This question throws me off. 

Why? 
Why shouldn't I give him a second chance?

"Why should I give him one?"

"Because he misses you! He is all depressive and . He even wrote a song about missing you!!! Please (YN)! You were such a cute couple. Sometimes I even was jealous of you two... Please."

I imagine Key all depressive sitting around. No face expression. 
It hurts to imagine him like that. 
I never liked to see him hurt. Confused. Depressive.

"Please (YN)! As he saw the article, which actually was about me and Hyera, he totally went postal because he saw you hanging out with us. He didn't speak with us since then."

 
Am I destroying the band?! 

"I knew it would be a bad idea to hang out with you guys..."

"Oh no, no, no! I didn't mean it like that!!! I meant it like you should give him a second chance. Please (YN)! I'm begging you! Do it for Key!"

Do it for Key? 
Should I give him a second chance? 

I saw how hurt he was as I left the Dorm. 
But at the same time I'm afraid that he will destroy my new build world again. 
I don't know if I could take that again. 

And what if I can't fall in love with him. What if I try and can't. It wouldn't just break Key's heart it also would break mine.

"I don't know..."

"Please (YN), it's worth a try!"

"Actually..... Why are you asking me?! I think Key has his own mouth." I snap at him.

"Because he's shy, scared, I don't know! All I know is, that he misses you!!!"

"Please! Key and shy!! Since when is Key shy?!"

"Come on! You should know Key"

"I used to know Key"

"What do you mean?"

I narrow my eyes. "Like you wouldn't know. He changed. He isn't the shy guy anymore. He's got tons of girls screaming after him. Who wouldn't get affected by that?!"

Onew sighs.

"Onew, look. I'm not mad at Key for changing. I don't care. I don't blame him. It's okay. But I'm afraid that I......"

"That you what?" 

Onew looks interested now.

"That I-"  I take a deep breath. "- that I can't love him anymore. What if I give him a second chance? What if I want to fall in love with him again but can't?! That wouldn't just break my heart...." 

I feel how tears are building in my eyes. I don't want to break Key's heart again.

"That's what this is about? You are afraid that you can't fall in love with him again?" 
Onew expression is soft.

"I guess"

"Oh,.." He comes over to the couch where I am sitting and takes me in his arm. 

I know this argument is over now. His embrace is warm. I feel safe.

"I promise you, that this won't happen" He softly says.

"How?" I sob in his shoulder. 

Not really caring what he promised.

"I'm gonna talk with him, okay?" He my hair with his hand. It's soothing.

"Hmmh" I nod so that my head is rubbing against his chest.