BII - I know; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TC-oVvXgoOg (okay okay, I know this song is Chinese but it's a really beautiful song and I hope you guys will understand the meaning of the song too. The artist self is half Korean and the other half is Taiwanese. oh and doesn't he kinda resembles Luhan ? Hope you guys like this song ><)   Luhan POV   is it wrong of me ? Loving her, missing her, to the content that I called her over to meet me ? I thought she would decline, saying ''mian oppa..'' but here she is, standing in front of me, looking at me with so much worry in her eyes that it made me smile sadly.   After all, the pain inside, it is all because of her. The girl who I love so much, the girl I still can't forget but yet forgive. Why is it like this ?  I questioned myself a lot, coming with questions like Am I not good enough or Is it because of my background ? I would throw away everything just only for her, that is how much I love her...but she, she just doesn't love me. Why does it have to be like this ?   I was staring too long in her eyes that I didn't realize I was crying, not until I felt her soft fingers on my face, wiping my tears away.  ''Why did you come here ?'' My voice cracked and I probably sounded so pathetic, but I don't care. I already know her answer, though, it's not her real answer. She came here because she cares about me and not because-   ''because you asked me to.'' She said, finishing what I was thinking.    Why can't she just admit that she cares about me ? I know her, I know her so well that right now I can see clearly through her white lie.  ''I look so pathetic Haejin-ah. A man's pride will decrease, seeing that the woman he sees, sees him in this state. Because of you, I've become pathetic. Because of you, my pride decreased. What are you going to do about it ?'' I looked at her stunned expression.    I stared at her lips for a moment, I just couldn't. I just can't. It's her doing without realizing. It's like she put me under some kind of spell and now, I'm trapped like this.    My face inches closer and closer, though she is backing away. I placed my other hand on her other cheek so she couldn't back away from me.  Our faces come closer, closer, closer and closer until there was just a small gap left, I closed my eyes, the tip of my nose touched hers and when I was about to kiss her, I got pushed back.   I looked up and saw Lay with Kris. I let out a small chuckle before I looked away.   ''Haejin, let me bring you home safely.'' I heard Lay saying to her, my gaze shifted from where I was staring to her and I saw her back facing me.  She was walking away with Lay, his arm protectively around her shoulder. I balled my hands into fist, though...when she turned her head around to look at me, she gave me that look. That look as if she was sorry.    I heard Kris' cough and my eyes shifted to him. I could tell he was dissapointed, dissapointed in me, in what I just tried to do. I know him so well, that there are no words needed, I know what he is going to ask next.   ''why ?'' One simple word, that came out of his mouth. Why ? He asked me why. Me too, I'm wondering, why. I just can't answer this question, to why I did almost kissed her. Maybe because I love her that much ? That I couldn't forget her. Why ? Maybe because I want to be selfish this night, to have her here, right next to me.   ''Forget it, let's go.'' Kris said while dragging me up and walked with me to his car. I looked around and saw that Kris's car was gone, well he would come here with his car right ? I looked at him and he could already sense what I was about to ask.   ''I lend Lay my ca