Jay Park - Can't be without you (acoustic version) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QA0YBM6UeRk   _______________________   Your POV   There were still six month left before we will go back to South Korea. Yes the two years are finally over. Over six months I will see him again, although I am excited to see him, something felt not right.   On the day when Kris held a small party where he announced that he won’t be spending his time this year in college, that night when I came back home and went to my room the picture frame with me and Kyungsoo which I hid in my desk drawers with a lock had a burst.    We were smiling happily but there was a burst on his face and I grew worried, so that same night I called him but I couldn’t get rid of it.   Many times I tried to call the others since then but their numbers aren’t available so they probably changed their number.   The only thing I had in my mind was sending them letters and even though I wrote them each week a letter, I wouldn’t receive one back.   I felt an arm on my shoulder and looked in the eyes of Luhan, my heart giving those flip flops. We kissed already, but after the kiss things just remained the same.   We were comfortable with each other and he would make me forget about Kyungsoo and the others. I felt guilty about it, but I couldn’t get a hold with any of them.    Luhan told me the same day we shared our first kiss together that he won’t give up on me, even though he knows I am waiting for Kyungsoo.   He told me that I didn’t push him away during the kiss and that was when I also started to think. Am I falling for Luhan ? I had no answers, he didn’t confess his love for me, but it felt like a confession.   ‘’something is bothering you babe, I can see through your eyes.’’ he said looking back at me and I felt his thumb caressing my cheek.    I still don’t know why my heart would react every time he touched me. every time I am near him. I always felt this warm feeling but it wasn’t as strong when I was in Korea. When I was around Kyungsoo.    ‘’I don’t know Luhan. All I know is that my heart reacts every time I am with you.’’ I said honestly and he smiled. He kissed my forehead and I closed my eyes for a brief moment to enjoy the moment with him.   ‘’that’s good..’’ he said softly. Indeed it was good, for him. But for me ? I felt so guilty. But then again, the burst on the picture frame of me and Kyungsoo got me also thinking. What if he got tired of waiting for me and started to play around with girls ?   He used to play with each of them. He also told me that he lost his ity when he was seventeen. I sighed and felt Luhan pulling away and looked concerned at me.   ‘’hey, what is bothering you ? Tell me ?’’ I looked down but he lifted my chin up so I would look back in his chocolate big brown eyes. He got me in awestruck, why is god so unfair ? He is the perfect boyfriend and son-in-law material for me and my parents, yet I am here, doubting.    ‘’I don’t know, I can’t contact my boyfriend and his friends.’’ I said honestly and he nodded.   ‘’don’t worry babe.’’ he said, hugging me. I hid my face in his chest and felt him tightening the hug. It felt so wrong but good at the same time. Guilt is washing over me but at the same time joy ? I just hope once we are in South Korea that he would go back to me. It’s like god is testing me. If I am really the right person to be with Kyungsoo.  I wrapped my arms around Luhan’s waist.    ‘’Luhan, this is wrong but at the same time good. I feel guilty inside but also that feeling of joy in me. I don’t know what to do anymore.’’ I softly mumbled and he rested his chin on my head.   I heard him sighing and I can imagine him closing his eyes.   ‘’I don’t care Haejin, right now I want to know what you really feel ? Are you really feeling guilty because someone is waiting or are you joyful because were hugging ? I know you are taken but understand I am not forcing you to stay by m