Don't go

In the eyes of a dongsaeng

Sandeul’s P.O.V

“No-one likes you Jung-Hwan.” Jinyoung seethed, walking towards me, the knife still in his hand. “You do know that they’ve never liked you. They just pretended to.”

I opened my mouth to speak, but no words came out. I was too shaken by what was happening here, Jinyoung was standing right in front of me, holding a knife and telling me how much everyone hates me.

“Everyone wishes you weren’t here. Everyone wishes you were never born.” He went on.

“I don’t like you either. So don’t think I do.” Baro added, walking into the room. “I just felt sorry for you, that’s why I was nice. I pitied you. Because nobody actually cares about you. We wish you were dead.”

“I’ve been waiting ages to do this.” Jinyoung breathed as he inched closer to me, his breath now on the side of my neck.

I was petrified; I could feel my whole body shaking and I was coming out in a cold sweat.

My eyes travelled down to the knife that was still in his hand. What was he going to-

My thoughts were cut off by a sharp pain in my side. I screamed out and clasped my hand over it when he pulled the knife out, falling to the floor and letting the pain and tears take over.

Then I out.

 

Baro’s P.O.V

Deullie had been asleep ages, yet I still couldn’t seem to drift off.

Scenes of everything that had happened today raced through my mind. I didn’t dare ask him about the marks on his face. I’m a terrible friend.

I should never have left him alone with Jinyoung, maybe none of this would ever have happened.

Sandeul must really hate me now.

I suddenly heard a moan come from the other side of the room.

The poor guy’s life is horrible right now, but on the bright side, at least he’s having pleasurable dreams.

 

Sandeul’s P.O.V

As I opened my eyes, all I saw was white. Was I dead?

Is this heaven?

A familiar scent of cleanliness filled my nose, and I looked down to the green curtains around me. I was in a hospital?

Jinyoung hadn’t killed me?

I turned my head to the side and saw something I never thought I would see.

My father.

Why was I in the same room as him?

I knew he wouldn’t want me to be here, but I feel as though he should know I was sorry for being gay. I never wanted it to tear our family apart like it has done. I can’t help my feelings.

Standing up from the bed, I made my way over to my father, who was laying lifeless on the bed, the little machine next to him going beep~ beep~ beep~

“I’m so sorry Appa.” I whispered, clasping my hand over his own.

Of course, he didn’t reply. He couldn’t.

His hand was cold, and as I ran my hand across his pale skin, I felt the gold ring on his finger.

When I was a little boy he promised me that when he died, I could have his wedding ring. To show that his and my ummas love would never die, but would forever live with me.

That wasn’t going to happen now.

He didn’t love me anymore.

Beep~ beep~ beep~

His heart didn’t have me in it any more.

Beeeeeee~

Why had it stopped beeping? Why was it making that noise? What the hell is it doing?

I turned to look at the machine. The line that had been beating in time with his heart was flat.

My sadness turned to shock, I didn’t even get chance to tell him I loved him. And I couldn’t even remember the last time he told me he loved me.

“I’m so sorry Appa.” I whispered again.

Then the whole room faded dark and when I opened my eyes I was back at home. In my bed.

Had that all just been a dream?

There were tears rolling down my face and I was completely soaked. I’d either wet the bed or I’d been sweating with fear. A lot.

 

Baro’s P.O.V

I'm still laying here. Wide awake. I don't know why I can't sleep. I’ve been laying like this since Sandeul fell asleep. That was hours ago. I could still hear him and gasping softly in his sleep. At least he can sleep; at least he's at peace for what could be the first time in weeks.

As I laid there I heard his gasps turning into soft panting. Sounds like a very interesting dream... Hope he's enjoying himself, it certainly sounds like he is. My thoughts were soon interrupted when I heard a loud gasp and then complete silence all I could do was pretend to sleep.

I saw Sandeul roll over onto his back and look directly at me. I hope I look like I'm asleep, as I’ve been facing his bed like this for about an hour now. Just staring at him, wondering if there was anything I could possibly do to make him smile again, even if it was just once.

He looked away from me, not noticing I was still awake, and let out a sigh of relief before he turned back onto his side. Not making any noise. Is everything okay? I rolled over so I was facing away from his bed, if he caught me watching him he'd hate me. I was finally starting to drift off when I heard a small sob.

Is Sandeul crying?

My question was soon answered when more sobs filled the silent room. I could tell he was trying hard not to make too much noise.

What's wrong with him?

I couldn't help but feel heart broken when I heard him bury his face in his pillow to muffle the sobs. What do I do? It’s probably his back hurting. I pulled back the covers and got out of bed and made my way to the kitchen to get him some pain killers. Poor Deullie must be in agony.

 

Sandeul’s P.O.V

I'm being stupid.

It was just a dream.

Appa isn't dead...

No one’s dead.

It was just a dream.

I sobbed into my pillow in an attempt to keep quiet. It didn't work; I must have woken Baro up. I heard him get out of bed and make his way across the room and out of the door. Great. He thinks I'm annoying. I woke him up and now he's gone to sleep in the living room.

For a moment I thought at least one person cared. I was wrong. He doesn't care. He has no reason to. I could feel myself sobbing harder into the pillow. I feel pathetic, crying over a dream.

My thoughts were interrupted when I heard the door open and the sound of a spoon rattling on a tray. I was still sobbing. I heard the tray being placed on the bed side table next to me and felt my bed dip.

“Shh shhh Deullie... I got your cream here; the pain will go away soon.” I heard Baro say and he my hair lightly. Pain? Cream? What is he on about? I felt my covers being pulled back and my shirt being lifted up at the back. What is he doing!? I spun round as fast as I could and regretted it straight away. A jolt of pain ran up my spine as my burned and blistered back hit the mattress, causing more tears to leak out of my eyes.

“Ow!” I choked out, squeezing my eyes shut. I opened one eye to see Baro looking extremely confused, with his hands above his head in surrender.

“What... What did I do?” He asked sounding concerned.

“N-nothing just... Why did you...” I stuttered.

“Why did I what?” He asked looking even more confused.

“Why did you lift my top up?” I asked, blushing as I realised how childish I sounded.

“To put your cream on.” He smiled, picking up the cream for my back and wiggling it slightly. I nodded a little before I turned back over and allowed him to rub the cold cream into my heated back, every so often wincing at the pain, when I did he would apologise and stop till I said he could carry on.

After putting the cream on, he pulled my shirt back down and helped me to sit up, before handing me two small tablets and a cup of tea.

"Here, this will help ease the pain." He said as he handed me them.

Baro’s P.O.V
As I massaged the cream into Sandeul's blistered back, I couldn't help but wonder if the pain in his back caused him to sob like that, or if it was something else. I tried my best to be extremely gentle, but my touch caused him to wince every so often when I touched an extremely sensitive area.

Once I finished, I pulled his shirt back down and helped him to sit up, before handing him two small tablets I had got from the kitchen, as well as the cup of tea I made for him.

"Here, this will help ease the pain." I said gently. He took a small sip of the tea and slipped the pills into his mouth, swallowing them. He pulled a face as they went down his throat and then smiled innocently. He is so cute.

I couldn't take my eyes off of his perfect features. He noticed me staring at him, and looked away awkwardly, before clearing his throat.

"Thank you." He said, his voice almost a whisper.

"It’s fine, you needed my help and I'm here to give it to you." I replied as soothingly as I could.

It was easy to tell by his eyes that he was getting sleepy again, so I gently helped him to lay down into his mattress, being careful not to hurt him, and then pulled the covers around him, tucking him in as gently as I could.

I got up off of the bed to go back to my own, when I felt Sandeul grab the hem of my shirt.

"Don't... Don't go... Sleep here." He mumbled innocently, his eyes wide and pleading.

I sighed and got back into the bed, only this time covering us both with the covers. He s his arms around my waist and placed his head against my chest. Couldn’t he hear my heart pounding?

"Goodnight." he mumbled, before he fell back asleep. I placed my arm lightly around his shoulders, being careful not to hurt him, and soon, I fell asleep as well.

 

Ahhh! The fluff!!!! :) Sandeul was only dreaming! Thank goodness!!! :3 I hope you enjoyed this one, the ending of this chapter is one of my favourites :3 Awww Baro!!! You're falling for Deullie!!! :3

I hope you didn't forget about the text Sandeul got from his mother in the first chapter ^^

hmmm I wonder what will happen next week? Will Badeul get together soon? Or not... :/

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Myungyeol_lover #1
Chapter 38: I'm a new reader and saw this because of the trailer, and I swear... THIS SHOULD BE A K-DRAMA WITH THE TRAILER. I love it~!
Crayong
#2
Before I start reading this, can someone tell me if it's really angsty? 'Cause I'm not to good with angst, so I'll need to mentally prepare myself... >_> (But I really want to read a longer Badeul story, so please help me out!) (Fast!) (Please!)
China801 #3
Chapter 32: What is panual?
China801 #4
Chapter 8: Did Jinyoung actually killed him? Of course I'll keep reading but I feel like badeul is never ever gonna show. This Jinyoung is very new I like how u changed his personality but he would've actually killed Sandeul. The only thing I don't like is that Gongchan and CNU did NOT do a single thing to help Sandeul I'm sorry but WHAT THE HECK?! Are they just gonna watch Sandeul die? Sorry I'm bursting I should keep reading but I feel really hurt.......
soojinnie-3- #5
Chapter 40: Ooh yay!
I'd love to talk more but I don't have a younow.
I'll try and download it but I'm at my aunt's house because my house doesn't have wifi..
Her house has wifi but we're leaving in about thirty minutes or so and I won't have wifi until Monday.
inspiritdawn
#6
I liked this :3
SimplySami25
#7
Chapter 39: Cny is mine es XD I love you guys you guys are so pretty :o Jealously XD But I ING LOVE YOUR BIASES AND CNY IS MINE *SOBS*
soojinnie-3- #8
Chapter 38: ok i read this really late but wow.
that was one..uhmmm..nice.chapter