Sang Hee's POV

As I went back to school, everything returned to their normal, grim, grey state. I was teased constantly, as always; I would often hear some people calling me, but as I turned, everyone pretended and were trying not to laugh. The only reason that made me go through the day without crying were the memories I held deep inside my heart of the meeting last Saturday and the hope that beamed inside of me. A hope that continued to grow the more I had occasions to meet SHINee. A hope that, the more it expanded, would eventually be able to shatter my very soul, once reality'll get a grip on me.

As the bell rang, I quickly packed up my things and went out. The sky was clear of any clouds and radiant. A perfect weather for a perfect event... A perfect event indeed, because I was going to go to SM Entertainment's building to get my cellphone back. My heart quivered at that thought; I tried not to be affected by this, but it was almost impossible not to be. It was Jonghyun I was going to meet again... Why did it happen to always be him? I felt my cheeks starting to feel warm. Gah, why am I blushing now...

I walked along the street and made my way towards the bus station. A few students were already waiting there; some were from my school while others weren't. They looked slightly at me when I walked past them to wait, then continued on with whatever they were doing. They had only stared at me for a few seconds, but their stares had felt intimidating. I stood awkwardly, not knowing where to look. One of the students had earphones on and had the music ; I could hear a familiar beat bursting from out of them... It was Lucifer from SHINee. This made me smile a bit; I felt just a bit proud to know that other people were listening to SHINee.

Two girls from a different high school were looking at texts on their cellphone. They were giggling and talking, smiling in a way I couldn't. It was hard for me to understand how people could be so familiar with each other; I almost envied the two girls. Somehow, this made me miss Stephy. Although we haven't talked to each other since the fan meeting, I felt a little sad and wondered what she was doing by now. Was this how it felt like to miss a friend?

This made me even more anxious to get my cellphone back. Contradicting feelings were swirling in me though. I couldn't wait to get my cellphone back, in case Stephy called or texted me, but I wished I wouldn't, since I knew this was the very last thread that linked me to SHINee.

I sighed and looked up to the sky.

How long will this luck last though?

Jonghyun's POV

I was in the vocal training room with Taemin only: I was helping him practice his vocal stability. It might be a surprise to certain people, but he's always worked on improving his vocals just as much as with his dancing. We usually used the piano present in this room to play the diverse notes and to remember its sound. As he struggled with a note, I gave him some tricks to keep it steady. As he still couldn't get it, I felt frustration slowly rising to the surface on Taemin's usually gentle demeanor.

"This is no use, hyung..." he said, demoralized.

"Don't give up now!" I replied, encouraging. "I've noticed your ability to keep notes has improved by alot."

"It doesn't matter. Whatever I'll do, I'll only be considered the dancer of the group. My vocals were never praised in the first place."

I took him by the shoulders. "This isn't like you, Taemin. We both know just as well that the fans are supporting us. We have to do our best for them."

"It hurts to know I can't live up to all these expectations..."

"The moment you accepted the contract, it would be an eternal struggle with their expectations and our abilities. You know this just as well as I do, Taemin."

He didn't say anything for a while, then broke free of my hold. After some years spent with him, I knew all too well that he needed time alone. I felt just like an older brother, the way I worried over him. He walked over to the door and made way for the elevator.

I sighed and sat at the piano. It was a concert piano, in pearlescent ebony.

It's been a long time since anyone used this piano for anything else than vocal practice... Taemin used to love playing piano before his trainee days. It makes you wonder how much everyone has given up to pursue this dream, huh...

We used to have someone who would regularly come to train our ability to discern different notes by playing different pieces, but they left not long ago. Ever since then, this piano has never filled the room with anything other than plain notes. I used to play the piano as well, but time has made my agility on this instrument quite rusty.

All this was making me nostalgic. I couldn't afford myself to start regretting my decision to become a singer.

Not when I had finally reached it.

Sang Hee's POV

There it was. SM Entertainment's official building. I felt just like I did in front of the building of the fan meeting: nervous, trembling, anxious but giddy at the same time. Some girls were staring at me with a suspicious eye; therefore, to my reluctance, I entered the building, my heart pounding in my chest.

The lobby was full of various people: there were some who looked important, some who seemed to be fans and some whose eyes were filled with hope. It was noisy and confusing; the front desks were overwhelmed with people. The chaos filled me with fear and uneasiness; I walked into the line, right behind a thin, good-looking girl. She was wearing stylish clothes and had a picture of Super Junior and a pen. Was she planning on giving it to Super Junior so that they could sign it?

As the line advanced, I got more nervous by the second since it meant that my turn was nearing. The girl in front of me had no expression whatsoever.  She even looked confident, actually.

With her looks, it was understandable though.

As the receptionist called to her, she walked calmly towards her. I kind of envied her confidence and, somewhere inside of me, wished to be more like her. She set her paper on the desk calmly and smiled.

"Annyonghaseyo, I only have one request," she said politely. "Please give this to Super Junior so that they can sign it. Don't worry about the details. I'll come back next week to take it back."

The receptionist's eyes wavered from the girl to the picture, then back to the girl; she sighed, as if this was part of her daily routine. She pushed the picture slightly back and looked at the girl with pity.

"I'm sorry but we don't accept these. If you want to get pictures signed, you'll have to go to a fan meeting."

The stylish girl did not seem disturbed in the least. Instead, she leaned on the desk and pouted.

"I'm no ordinary fan~," she said with puppy eyes. "Just by looking at me, you should know I'm a trainee for an upcoming girl group."

The receptionist, at those words, chuckled.

"Look," she started with an impatient and cold voice. "If you were in an upcoming girl group, shouldn't you be training instead of asking for Super Junior's signatures? And I thought you were normally supposed to keep the fact that you're a trainee a secret."

The receptionist then smiled... in a hypocrite and disdainful manner. I got scared; my confidence started to waver.

I'm going to look like such an idiot...!

Maybe I shouldn't have come...

What was I expecting?

The girl didn't say anything and just stood, frozen. The atmosphere was awkward; I was starting to pity the girl. After she took her paper, she walked quickly out of here, looking at the floor, humiliated.

As she left, the receptionist turned to look at me with a welcoming smile; I was starting to doubt my right to be here. Reality seemed even more present than ever; I was only a fan. That was all what I was. What gave me the right to talk to any idol? My heart dropped at that thought. I walked without confidence towards her; she only looked at me, waiting.

"Annyeonghaseyo," I said, trying to sound as calm as possible. "I'm... here to get my cellphone back. Jonghyun must have... advised you?"

Fortunately, she did not seem surprised and smiled kindly at me. My nervousness seemed to disappear instantly; my shyness remained though. She took the phone and started to dial a number.

Jonghyun's POV

It's been 25 minutes since Taemin left. I was starting to get bored; I got up from the piano and stretched.

He probably really left this time. Ehh~ Guess I'll go back to the dorm and sleep. Hopefully he'll be in better spirits when he comes home.

As I made my way towards the door, the phone in the room rang.

... I'm supposed to pick that up right?

I sighed and walked over to get it.

"Yobeoseyo?" I said simply.

"Jonghyun, the girl you mentioned has just arrived," the voice said; it was probably the secretary. "She's currently in the lobby. Do you want me to tell her to come join you?"

"Nah, it's okay," I replied. I was going to leave soon anyways, so I might as well give it to her on the way. "Tell her to wait in the lobby."

At those words, I hung up and took my bag. I closed the piano, properly placed the seat under and made my way towards the lobby.

As I exited the elevator, there weren't many people; it was around the time when things were the least busy. Some fangirls were standing in front of the building; they started shrieking as they saw me from across the window. I waved at them and smiled.

Busy or not, there was bound to be some of the fans around.

I looked around the lobby for Ms. Clumsy; for some reason, I was expecting to see her in that same one-piece dress again.

When I finally found her, she was in a Seoul High School uniform.

So she attends high school... I hope she's fitting well with the other students.

She barely had any contacts in her cellphone though...

Oh, there I go again.

This is really none of my business.

She wasn't wearing her skirt at an exceedingly short height and her uniform was well worn. I felt a bit relieved that there were still girls like that; nowadays, girls were starting to act all the same: always flirty and loud-mouthed.

I waved at her and smiled; she smiled back in her shy manner. I walked over to her calmly as she sat up. I noticed that her legs were trembling slightly.

"Annyeonghaseyo~," I said as I arrived in front of her. She greeted me back in a slightly nervous voice. "Thanks for taking some of your time to come here."

"No, I should be the one saying that instead," she replied shyly. "Sorry for making you come out during your schedule."

"Don't worry~," I said, laughing. I searched in my bag for her cellphone, took it out then handed it to her. She took it with her fragile-looking fingers. "I just finished what I was doing so it's no problem."

She smiled at me and her cheeks reddened slightly.

She's just like a shy kid. What a cute Shawol~.

"Well, I need to go now," I told her, smiling in a sad manner. "Maybe I'll see you at the next fan meeting?" I winked at her then walked away, towards the parking lot.

I think I'll treat myself to some kogee tonight. Bling Bling Jonghyun helped another Shawol today~.

Sang Hee's POV

As I looked at him walk away, I could feel my heart pounding loudly in my chest. I knew I was blushing again; my cheeks felt hot.

I was incredibly grateful to him for holding onto it and actually meeting me to give it back. I was so proud of being a Shawol, a fan of SHINee; they have been so kind to me, although they barely knew who I was. Soon after my heart sank; there was nothing now that could let me meet SHINee once again. I'll remember these events, but they'll probably forget, on their side.

So these were going to be one-sided memories, huh...

As I started walking home, heart sinking in my chest, my cellphone rang slightly; I had received a text.

Huh?

Who could've sent me a text?

"Hey Sang Hee~ <(^-^)>

It's Stephy! I hope you had fun at the meeting last Saturday! I really respect SHINee as a group now~. They're so kind! How have you been? I'm fine, thank you! Let's be good friends from now on, okay?

-Stephy o(^w ^)o "

At the sight of the bunny at the end, I laughed slightly. Maybe I could trust her; she seemed genuinely kind and she had helped me so much last time at the meeting. I started writing a reply:

"Thank you for last time! I'm very grateful for your support. You'll never believe what happened to me the past days though!

-Sang Hee"

A text soon came after.

" Oh really~? Try me.

-Stephy  ^ w^ "

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Hey guys~! Sorry for the lack of updates these past weeks~. I just came back from vacation, and I was busy writing so have no fear! I have alot of things to retype, but I'm pretty proud of the storyline~. I hope you guys'll enjoy it! <3 If you have any questions, comment and I'll answer them in upcoming chapters~.

PS.: That picture of kogee made me hungry... Did it make you guys hungry? ;~;