Time flew by, but at the same time it felt like it hadn’t been a day since I caught Nichkhun cheating on me. When I was at the company practicing, everything was fine, but the second I walked through the door to my shared dorm with 2PM all the pained feelings I had felt that day came back to me.

Nichkhun was still trying to make me forgive him, but I couldn’t. What he did was unforgivable. It didn’t seem like he got that though, and I had started to avoid him, because everything he said to me was “I’m sorry” and “please forgive me”.

Despite my depressed mood I tried my best to smile and be happy around the others, because there was no point in drowning myself in sorrow. So when I came home one Friday afternoon (more like evening, maybe even night. I didn’t really know) I sighed before opening the door and putting up a smile as I walked in.

“You home already?” Junsu said as he came to see who had come home.

I nodded. “Yes. They gave us “homework” instead. Saying that everything should be perfected by tomorrow.” I took off my shoes and went to the living room, slumping down in the couch. “And why are you home? Taking time off when you don’t really have the time?”

Junsu chuckled and sat down beside me before answering. “No, just got nothing to do for once. Doesn’t last for long though seeing as we start early tomorrow.” He switched the channel a few times before turning to me again. “Chansung and Taecyeon is home too, by the way.”

My mood was lifted a little at that. At least Nichkhun wasn’t home yet, and I could relax a little. I didn’t sit still for long though. I had a few lines to practice and make it perfect. I sighed and stood up from the couch again, walking to my room so I could have some privacy.

It hadn’t even been half an hour before someone knocked on the door and walked in. When I looked up from the manuscript in my lap, Taecyeon sat down beside me.

“Want to get out and do something? Only you, me, Junsu and Chansung?” he asked, sounding really hopeful. I looked down to my manuscript, then up at Taecyeon again. “Please? Itæs for your own good. You need some time away from practice and this dorm. Come with us just to clear your thoughts a little.” He sounded a little concerned now.

I looked down at the paper in my lap, read over a few of the lines and decided that what wasn’t perfect now could be perfected later. So I put it away and got up off the bed.

“Fine, just let me change into something else.” He smiled at that and stood up too. “Where are we going?” I asked as I started rummaging through my drawers looking for something presentable to wear.

“Just out. Try to keep away from fans as we walk through the streets or something, most likely stopping by a stand to get some food,” he said and shrugged his shoulders. “We’ll just take it as it comes.”

“Okay. Just wait in the living room, I’ll be there soon.”

-

After changing into comfortable but still nice clothes and putting on my shoes we went out of the dorm, walking blindly down the street from the building with no exact destination.

As we noticed that a few people started glancing very often in our direction, Junsu started looking for a hideout to make sure no one would start wondering if it really was them. It didn’t take long before he pointed at a sign blinking on a wall two houses down from where we were. I didn’t really get what the sign was saying, but the two other boys seemed to agree and we all walked a little faster to get there as soon as possible without directing too much attention our way.

When we entered the building I soon figured we had entered a karaoke bar. This could be interesting.

We got a room, a VIP room to be precise to make sure we wouldn’t be disturbed by crazy fans or anything like that. We settled down on the couch in the little room, looking at each other, trying to decide who would start just by reading the expressions on the others’ faces.

“Okay! Then I’ll start!” Junsu said after a minute or so, standing up and walking over to pick up a microphone and chose a song. He was secretive about what song he chose and we were all curious to hear what song he would sing.

When the music started everyone cheered. Me included. I may have been in a bad mood but Jay Park’s Carefree always did the trick and I was soon alot more happy.

I ended up just sitting there, grinning like an idiot and singing along til the end. This song was only the start of the evening though, and my mood got better and better as the number of songs raised.

“Christine! It’s your turn now!” I didn’t hesitate to stand up and take the microphone from Taecyeon, who had just rapped a something I didn’t understand a word of because of the speed of the rap (and because it was Korean, duh.) As he handed me the microphone our hands brushed and I could feel the heat from his fingertips. There was a tiny voice in my head telling me that he brush our fingers on purpose, but I shoved it away and didn’t think more about it.

Once up on what you could call a stage I chose an English song I knew well. Better to play safe. There was no rap in the song either that I had to be concerned about getting right. I didn’t have as good of a voice as Junsu, but hey, his profession was singing, what did you expect?

I went through the song without my voice cracking, and I was very pleased with myself when the last tone of the song stopped. I looked expectantly at the three boys sitting in the couch, waiting for their response. Their faces looked surprised and I wasn’t sure if I should take it as a good or a bad sign. I never came to an assumption though, because they were suddenly smiling and giving me applause.

“Wow! I thought you didn’t know how to sing, seeing as you never have in the time you have been here,” Chansung said as he walked up to me and gave me a hug. And did I see Taecyeon glaring, or is it just me? “But you are actually not so bad,” he added when he let go of me.

“Thank you.” I gave the mic to Chansung, jokingly telling him to impress me before I sat down in my previous spot on the couch beside Taecyeon.

As we watched Chansung sing (first time he had sung instead of rapped that evening) I could see Taecyeon glancing at me from the corner of my eye. Halfway through the song my curiousity got me and I turned to him.

“Something up?” I asked Taecyeon. He looked a little surprised when he turned to me before his expression morphed into a confused one. “Since you were glancing at me so much I mean,” I then explained to him. His cheeks turned slightly pink at being caught in the act.

“It was nothing. Just making sure you’re having fun,” he said with a reassuring smile, although his cheeks still stayed a little pink.

“I’m having a great time,” I said at that. And I really was. I had always loved singing, never being embarrassed when singing in front of people. When I was driving with my family, when I was visiting my grandparents, or even in school, I would always start singing and trying to get everyone else to join in. It usually wasn’t a great success, but that didn’t really stop me.

“I’m glad,” Taecyeon said, sounding relieved for some reason. “Does anyone want some refreshments?” He then asked when Chansung was finished singing a song I had never even heard of before. Both of the other boys agreed enthusiastically and I had to chuckle at them. They were kind of cute in real life, despite their beastly image.

“I’ll go get it with you."

-

Taecyeon and I went to the little snack bar in the entrance hall in silence. While we walked through the corridor that lead back the said bar our hands brushed a few times, and our shoulders bumped more than once. The same thought  from when our fingers brushed earlier in the evening about Taecyeon doing it on purpose came back to me. The same little tiny voice in my head saying that Taecyeon had reasons for doing it. When we arrived though, I once again ignored the voice and turned around to Taecyeon to ask what we should get.

“I suggest lots of beer and maybe some potato chips or something,” he answered. I nodded approvingly.

“Are you paying or should I?” I asked when we took the suggested items to the counter to pay.

“I’m paying, don’t worry,” was his response. I didn’t argue with that. Money saved! “Come on, let’s get back,” Taecyeon said as he took my hand in his after paying. I was startled by his actions and my eyes widened a bit at the sudden interaction. At the same time my inner fangirl was squealing like never before. Oh my god, Taecyeon is actually holding my hand!

Taecyeon seemed to notice my reaction though, and probably took it that I didn’t like it so he quickly let go again.

“Sorry! I didn’t mean to do that,” he said, like he really hadn’t meant to but rather doing it instinctively, and his cheeks got a rosy colour to them. “We should go.” And then he just went back to the room, without waiting for me. I stood there a bit dumbfounded. Christine the fangirl being in control at the moment and numbing me. Taecyeon just held my hand! (Even though it was only for a second or two.. But it still counts!)

I got my head back on earth and feet moving pretty fast after Taecyeon had walked off and I was back with others just a few seconds after him.

“Did something happen?” Junsu asked, obviously confused when we didn’t go through the door together.

I shook my head. “Nothing happened. Should something have happened just because we didn’t come back at the same time?” Junsu shrugged at that and let it go with an “I guess not”.

As the evening went on I caught Taecyeon glancing at me now and then, and our fingers always brushed when I was the one to hand the mic over to him or when he handed it to me. By the end of our little outing Taecyeon had started to hold his hand over mine for a few seconds when he had the chance to.

When the time was nearing midnight we decided to go home. We all needed some well deserved sleep. But when we finally were home and in bed I couldn’t help but the feeling that what used to be a celebrity crush might have developed into something more without me being aware of it. Taecyeon had always been my bias (after Jay Park had left the group that is), and I had thought that the admiration I had for him was nothing more than me loving my idol. But after tonight I was starting to rethink that assumption.

I had been in a relationship with Nichkhun, and was I even in love with him at all? Because the feelings I had for Taecyeon was something totally different than what I ever had for Nichkhun, and they felt stronger and different in some way. But I had no experience on that area so in the end I decided to see what the future would bring and take one day at a time and just get some sleep for now.

Put the three parts together to the
chapter it whould be ^^