He pulled me so close to him that there were only a few centimeters between our faces. I started to realize what he was planning, and I got a little nervous. ‘What if he really does it?’ I thought, but before I could analyze the situation more I felt something soft and warm against my lips. It was Nichkhun’s lips, against mine.

It felt so good and... Right? But at the same time not right. Still, I couldn’t get myself to break the kiss, and I ended up kissing him back instead. I don’t know how long the kiss lasted, but when Nichkhun finally broke the kiss to catch his breath, I had closed my eyes and put my hands around his neck. I opened my eyes and gave him a slight smile.

We stood there looking at each other in silence, but it wasn’t an awkward silence. Then Nichkhun suddenly pulled away and looked away. “Sorry,” he said lowly. I lifted my head up to his face and turned it to me so I could look him in the eyes. “Don’t be,” I said softly.

I didn’t know what was going on with me at the time, but it felt like I actually was falling for him. Even though I only wanted to be best friends with him from the start, I couldn’t help the butterfly-feeling in my stomach when he kissed me. It was quite confusing, but I didn’t want Nichkhun to be sorry for it. I didn’t try to stop him in any way so he shouldn’t feel guilty.

I then started to think about something. What if someone saw it? It was a lot of people there, and it couldn’t miraculously be only me and Nichkhun there. I looked around to check out who was there. There were only a few people from the crew that was caught up in their own world, doing their own things. I hoped that they hadn’t seen it.

“Where are the others?” I ask him to ensure myself that they hadn’t seen it. He shrugged. “Last time I saw them they were by the pool over there,” he said pointing to a pool on the other side of a short stone fence. They couldn’t have seen us from there unless they knew exactly where we stood, so I guessed they hadn’t seen it.

Other thoughts slowly s their way to my mind: Why did he kiss me? What was his reason? Did he like me, or did do it just for fun? No, he would never do it just for fun. I thought about asking him, but couldn’t get myself to it. Then it would sound as I didn’t actually like it, but acted like it instead. No, I would rather wait and see if he wanted to tell me himself.

“Are you finished or are you going to film it one more time?” Nichkhun suddenly asked, a little awkward by the happening just now. I shrugged. “I don’t know. He didn’t say anything. I think...” We both laughed a little.

Nichkhun said he would go and ask the camera man for me, since the man probably wouldn’t understand that much English, and I didn’t understand Korean. I just stood there like a statue and thought about the happening. Nichkhun was my best friend here, and I didn’t see him as a boyfriend, but that kiss still felt good. What was going on with me? Wasn’t it Taecyeon that I had wanted to be my boyfriend for so long?

I really couldn’t understand my brain at the moment and tried to get the thoughts out of my head. It didn’t work. All that came out of it was more thoughts. I looked in the direction where I had spotted some of the guys earlier and noticed Taecyeon at once. He was so handsome, and hot, and y, and cute, and just everything at once! How was also always kind to me, but I had noticed that when Nichkhun said he could do something instead of him, he didn’t protest. Something I always wished he did.

I was in deep thought when Nichkhun came back. He started to talk about something, but all I could think of when I saw him was the kiss. The soft kiss he had given me just a few minutes ago. “Earth calling Christine!” he said, waving his hand in front of my face to get my attention. I shook my head out of the thinking world and looked up at him. “What did he say?” I asked and looked him in the eyes. After the kiss they looked more beautiful and deep.

“He said that the shooting of you was perfect so he only needed that one take,” he said with that blinding smile of his. I had seen that smile so many times this past three days, but it hadn’t ever been as beautiful and breathtaking as right then.

I had probably been staring at his lips for a long time, because his smile went into a smirk and he looked at me. “You want another kiss?” he said teasingly. I closed my eyes for a second and when I opened them again, my mind was back in normal focus.

“I’m okay,” I said and tucked the towel tighter around me. The water had started to cool down on my body and I was starting to get cold. Nichkhun noticed and pulled me into a hug. A quite warm and comfortable one. “I have a hoodie over there,” he said and nodded in the direction of the guys. “You can wear that until we get other instructions.” He let go of me and took laid his arm around my waist instead, leading over to the others.

He handed me his hoodie and I didn’t hesitate to put it on. It was a simple grey one and a little too big for me, but I had to say it was very comfy that way. I went to the others who were comfortably sitting in the sun beds by one of the many pools.

“Hi Cissie!” Wooyoung said as I approached them. I went over to the boy sitting on the edge of the pool, splashing his feet in the water. “Hi Wooyoung,” I said and sat down beside him and splashed my feet as well. I looked down to the water, and my mind suddenly went back to thinking about the kiss. ‘Damn you brain! Stop thinking about it! It wasn’t like I would ever get the chance to date any of them anyway...’ I tried to get the thought out of my head by hitting myself in the head.

“Are you alright?” Wooyoung asked hesitantly and looked at me a little worried. I looked up at him and shook my head. “Everything is completely fine,” I said and put on a smile to hide the confusion in my head. He didn’t look like he was convinced, but let it pass anyway.

“Is that Nichkhun’s hoodie you’re wearing?” I heard a low voice ask from behind my back. I turned around to see Taecyeon starting at me as if he didn’t like the fact that I was wearing the hoodie. I nodded as an answer. “Why don’t you wear mine instead? It’s warmer and more comfy,” he said confidently. Was he jealous about me wearing some other boy’s hoodie? I could only wish that my assumption was the truth, but it most likely wasn’t.

I chuckled. “Because you were too late with the offer,” I said and splashed some water at him. He pouted, but soon after he had sat down beside me and splashed back at me. I could feel someone looking at me, but ignored it. It was probably just my imagination anyway.

All the guys had gathered around me in the end and were splashing water at each other. I felt like a star, the center of attention with all the six boys around me. Each and every one of them fighting each other to get my attention. Nichkhun suddenly dragged me into the water, and I started laughing. What else could you do when you saw the cute face he made when realized that I still had his hoodie on?

“! Now I have to get my hoodie dry before I can put it on again,” he pouted. I laughed at him. “Think twice next time.” I ruffled his wet hair. He looked just like an innocent puppy that had just rolled around in a mud pit with the expression he made by the touch. Right then it felt like I was the oldest and most mature amongst them, when I in fact was the youngest.

We had gotten up and out of the water and were lying on the floor to get the sun to dry us up. I had taken the hoodie off and hung it over a chair to make it dry faster, but without it I started freezing again. We were lying beside each other in a line, and I lay between Nichkhun and Taecyeon. Not bad at all in my opinion. Rather nice if you ask me.

I looked from one to the other, trying to figure out which one of them that was the warmest. After staring at a sleeping Taecyeon for a good two minutes I decided to creep in closer to him to warm up. I don’t know what passed me by right then, but I actually did it. I laid my head on his arm and cuddled closer to him, hoping he wouldn’t wake up and notice me.

I almost jumped up when Taecyeon suddenly spoke. “Want my hoodie?” he asked satisfied. I felt my cheeks heat up and instantly turned around and hid my face. He then started laughing and patted my head. “I’ll get you my hoodie.” He stood up and went to get his hoodie.

The kiss scene had found its way back to my mind. ‘Is this thought haunting me or something?!’ I thought to myself and started to wonder about something. Was the feeling I had when Nichkhun kissed me love? Was I in love with Nichkhun? ‘I guess it’s impossible to be a couple anyways... I’m not in love with Nichkhun because it’s a forbidden love if I was.’ I was discussing the theme with myself until Taecyeon came back with his red and white hoodie. I put it on and went over to a chair to sit. It was starting to get uncomfortable to lie on the hard floor.

“Nichkhun, Taecyeon and Chansung! We’re going to take some shots by only you three before continuing with the filming,” one of the many people that were there said. I saw the three take off their shirts that they had been wearing to keep themselves warm. I felt my jaw almost drop down to the ground.

‘Am I dreaming?! Is this the cute and funny guys I had been with the last three days? Impossible!’ My eyes didn’t analyze what was going on, and they definitely didn’t understand what they saw.

I know that something of this makes no sense, but I tried my best for you guys ♥

Still hope you like it ^^