troubled...

My Dying Love


Kyuhyun checked his watched and saw Sungmin walking towards the bench in the small hill. He has received his payment so it
means he needs to work harder to earn more. He breathe in first and ran towards the older man.

"Hey!" Kyuhyun said as he sat down beside Sungmin who was just about to bring out his notebook. The older smiled at him and kept
his notebook immediately. "Still memorising?"

Sungmin nodded his head and kept his teeth showing an embarassed smile. "I'm not really that good in memorising."

"You know what I usually do?" Kyuhyun asked as he look at his lover. "Everytime I memorise a line, I will erase it right after. It's
because our brain relies on the thought that we can always look back on the notes if ever we forget it."

Sungmin nodded at the explanation and smiled. "Soon you'll realise that you're not relying on your notes anymore." Kyuhyun
finishes with a smile.

"Thanks." Sungmin said. He looked at Kyuhyun and the young man immediately knows Sungmin believes him.

"Since you know the technique..." Kyuhyun said. "Let's go." he took the older man's hand and lead him away from the bench.

They stood up in a newly cut grassy area of the small hill. "Where are we going?" Sungmin ask.

"I've seen you sitting down on that bench for most of the times. I bet you haven't really tried this."

"Tried what?"

Sungmin asked excitedly. Kyuhyun gave him a meaningful smile and lied down on the grass. The older widened his eyes and looked
around the area. "Yah. What are you doing?" Sungmin would look down when some other students would eye on them and whisper while
smiling as if they are thinking Kyuhyun is crazy.

"Don't just stand there. Come here." Kyuhyun said as he pulled Sungmin to lie down on the grass beside him.

Sungmin wanted to sit up as soon as he felt his back on the grassy ground but... "Don't mind them." Kyuhyun said. The older
turned to him and saw Kyuhyun looking up in the sky. What is Kyuhyun doing? Why does he look so peaceful? Why is his eyes
looking from afar? As if searching for something that only the sky can give.

Sungmin turned to the blue sky and soon enough he find himself hearing the sound from underneath the ground and he cannot see
anyone around him except for Kyuhyun, he chuckled. Now he knows why Kyuhyun is having that kind of expression in his eyes.

"Wow." he said while smiling widely. He stretched his arm and chuckled again. "It feels like I can touch the sky like
this." he felt good as if there was only him and Kyuhyun in the world. It would be nice if it'll be like this everyday.

Kyuhyun turned to him as he placed his hand down and giggled. He was quite glad that he has been doing this even before. Not for
dating purposes but for escaping his own world, when he lies down like this, he cannot see anyone around, he can just see the sky
and sometimes, no one would even notice if a tear or two would fall down. Right now, lying together with Sungmin is for business
purposes as well.

Kyuhyun knows why he needed to do this to Sungmin. He needs money to pay off those freaking debts his parents left him. He
shouldn't harbour any feelings for the older, he knows better he shouldn't feel anything for him. Sungmin is just a tool to keep
himself away from his personal troubles.

A side of his mind told him he is doing a good job because Sungmin seemed to be so naive about the harsh reality of
Kyuhyun's sudden existence in his world. This man is too easy for him to handle and Sungmin would fall for him more. If he does
this, they could date for at least a month and maybe by then he can save enough money to pay some debts. He mentally cheered for
himself.

However, the other side of his brain told him Sungmin's eyes from a closer look is not magical at all instead, they are mystical.
The way it twinkle differs from other's he had seen and the way those small crinkles form at the side of his eyes when he smiles
is even more lovelier than anything he had seen. His straight nose is admirable and those soft lips are the sweetest thing he has
ever tasted. A taste he would want to remember for a long time.

Kyuhyun leaned closer as he eyes on those closed lips. Sungmin saw him and his heart started beating like crazy again. He gripped
his clothed chest and closed his eyes when he saw Kyuhyun seemingly wanting to kiss him. He anticipated the same feeling he had
that night when Kyuhyun took his first kiss.

When Kyuhyun saw Sungmin closing his eyes, he was shocked because of what he was about to do. He can't believe he wants to kiss
Sungmin again. He swallowed and reminded himself why he is with the older man. He closed his eyes and breathed out lightly. Calm
down, Cho don't let your guard down. You're not here for romance and stop doing too much skinship!

Especially on the lips!!

Instead of kissing Sungmin on the lips, he placed a light kiss on the older's forehead instead. Sungmin opened his eyes and saw
Kyuhyun smiling gently at him. He was a bit disappointed but better have something than nothing at all. He smiled at Kyuhyun and
took the courage to wipe some of the younger's fringe away from his face. When can that face stop making Sungmin's heart race? It's
not even the most handsome face he has seen but seeing those dark mysterious eyes on him, the older knows he would want to be with
Kyuhyun for the rest of his time in this world. He'd be willing to love and be loved by this man for a long time.

Kyuhyun took Sungmin's hand as he lied back down again. He straightened the older's fingers and looked at them.
"Your hands are beautiful." He opened his own palm and placed it next to Sungmin's palm before slowly interlacing their fingers
together. "It looks perfect next to mine." Kyuhyun mentally thank some drama actor he had seen in TV doing this to the leading
lady; whatever the title it is, who cares? It seemed like it worked perfectly.

Sungmin looked down keeping a shy smile in his lips. Whether it is just a sweet talk or real, Sungmin knows Kyuhyun is taking big
steps in his heart and that he is falling for the young man even more. So this is how it feels having someone to love. He'd like to
keep close to him, this kind of feeling is something he had always dreamed of.

Kyuhyun noticed the shy smile from the older and couldn't help but feel happy. He cannot believe Sungmin can make him smile like
this. Why? Of all people? And for Pete's sake he haven't even stayed with this person for a long time yet he cannot deny that
Sungmin gives him different kinds of feelings. A minute ago he wanted to kiss the older and now he just saw Sungmin smiling and it
made him feel happier again.

"Why are you smiling?" Kyuhyun asked. Curiosity forced him to asked. He thought he wouldn't really care and by rightly, he shouldn't
really care but... it's a tough job.

Sungmin turned to him. His bright eyes made Kyuhyun jerked for a while. How can those eyes be so beautiful? Kyuhyun thought. It's
so close to perfect. "I'm just glad I said yes to you." Sungmin honestly said making Kyuhyun fall back to reality. He saw
Sungmin's eyes looking down shortly. "I've always wanted to fall in love. I'm happy that I chose the right person." Kyuhyun saw
his guilty self in those eyes. Sungmin's eyes are like mirror that reflects everything he feels. Kyuhyun can see in that pair
of eyes that Sungmin is being sincere with every word he says.

Because of this, the more Kyuhyun felt guilty with what he's doing. What is this? It's not really like he hasn't fooled other people
before. He would often give out answer to exams in return for money. However he does it, only he would know. He has even put his
homeworks on sale and he has even agreed to become a boyfriend for a day to those desperate girl's who wanted to bring a boyfriend
along when meeting a friend.

"Kyuhyun ah..." Sungmin called him still with the same smile. "Thank you for coming to my life." The older hesitated for a while
but gathered his courage to lift his head up and pressed his lips on Kyuhyun's. It was a swift kiss that was done even before the
younger blinked. Sungmin bit his lips and smiled at him shyly as he remained sitting up. He was quite glad he didn't miss Kyuhyun's
lips, if he wasn't able to aim on the younger's lips well, he knows he'll die in embarassment, how old is he that he still doesn't
know how to kiss well? Shameless, really shameless.

Kyuhyun swallowed and wasn't able to answer. How could he become unprepared with this kind of thing? Well, for one, he didn't expect
Sungmin to kiss him on the lips. Second, he didn't know Sungmin can be vocal and honest with his feelings. He knows the older is
quite shy but because he said those words, Kyuhyun doesn't know what to say or at least how to react. Third, he felt like he
shouldn't really be feeling what he is feeling now; the swift touch of Sungmin's lips to his made him received thousands of electricity
from his lips down to his throat and to his stomach down to his feet. Exactly how much voltage does Sungmin's lips has?! Lastly,
why can't Sungmin be a little bit predictable? He can be naive and transparent with his body language but the way he thinks is
something even Kyuhyun cannot predict. 

There was a slight kick in his heart. Sungmin is innocently believing everything he says and does, is his conscience
bothering him right now? Kyuhyun thought for a while. Yah! You're suppose to make Sungmin fall for you... not the other way around!

 

 

Wait.

 

 

 

What?

 

 

 

Kyuhyun's heart started beating too fast...what was he thinking? He looked at Sungmin still carrying the same bright smile. He
swallowed yet again.

 

 

 

 

 


Cho Kyuhyun, you're in trouble.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*Author's note: I noticed that most of you are looking forward
to the time when Sungmin will find out the truth. Hmm... let me
see...
NO SPOILERS!! >.< but we'll get there.

I'm hoping this fanfic can break FTR haha. so far it has the most
number of subscribers altough I'm quite thankful for those who
has been coming back to that page to re-read it. I appreciate that
you still go back and enjoy it. Hope you will do the same to the other
stories including this one ^_^

Have a good night everyone!!!

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LeeLenaMx #1
Chapter 39: I knew just from the title, that if I read this story I was going to cry and I was so right..
Why a beautiful story you wrote, even is sad They made each other happy while it lasted.
Thank you for sharing your stories!
LeeAlyn
#2
Chapter 39: I'm here again, and this made me cry again.. why, why this story need to be so freakin' great? I'm crying a lot today.. TT_TT
kyuichi91 #3
Chapter 39: Finally... finished
I wonder why you can write so well.
I really dont know what to write but promise i'll read your another fanfic later
kyuichi91 #4
Chapter 7: I love this part afffffff♥♥♥♥
My english was so bad, i can't even make sentence properly. I'm so sowwyy
But i enjoy reading your story
kyuichi91 #5
Chapter 7: I love this part afffffff♥♥♥♥
My english was so bad, i can't even make sentence properly. I'm so sowwyy
But i enjoy reading your story
kyumin1115
#6
Chapter 39: I don't know how many times I have read this already but.... I still always end up crying :( I miss KyuMin! I miss your stories too. I hope you'll write again, authornim. :)
LeeAlyn
#7
Chapter 39: i read this again and i cried again. stupid me haha :'D
oshxlh96 #8
Chapter 39: I CANT STOP CRYING ASDFGHJKL
why you do this to kyuhyun, minnn ;__;
what a beautiful story, thankyou this is so heartbreaking TAT)
EXOholic-itine #9
I am guessing you like suju songs so much.. As what I've noticed on your other fics you like to use their songs as bgm and I must say it's really effective and it encourage me to listen not only suju's popular songs but also the great once.. And I'd like to say thank you for letting us know the title in each lyrics you are using.. First I have read your fic bcd and it was magnificent.. I am a reader who also read a/n and comments and even then I always read bcd being compared to mad so I also always take note to read it after bcd.. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to read it after bcd because after I read bcd, I promise myself to let the bcd feels subside first, I might not handle another angst stories so I read first minderella (also an amazing fic of yours) then finally read this one.. What can I say to this fic?? Really I might not shed a single tear in this fic but you successfully clench my painful heart.. These three fics I've read and I must predict and say, you have angst style of writing skills.. Anyways this is getting longer and I want to read more of your fics so CIAO for now.. See you in your other fics.. I hope I can also comment on each of your fics.. Ciao!!
Krisyeolsdaughter #10
Chapter 39: Damn you i cried. Itshogud