"I was 12 when my parents died." Kyuhyun found themselves sitting on his bed, his head resting on Sungmin's shoulder, the older
listening while brushing the back of Kyuhyun's hair. How they ended up on that bed is as simple as there is no room in that
apartment other than the bathroom and there is no chair other than the bed they are already sitting on.

"I thought the burden I would be facing is not having anyone to guide me as I grow up. But it was only then that I find out that
they were chased by those people they owe money and that was the reason why they have to die early, they had an accident while
trying to run away from the loansharks." Kyuhyun sighed deeply before continuing.

"I was forced to work by those people who looked after me. I am still my parents' child and I should be responsible for paying
those people back." he looked down as he recalled the times when he would starve himself up to save money. How he endures sickness
just to be able to work. He was able to pay most as he grows up, he used his wit, his intelligence, his talent to be able to
pay those people. But at tough times, he still does receive some beatings and threatenings because he needs to skip some months
before he could pay a certain amount.

"As I grew up, I promised that I will make myself rich to be able to pay them. I studied hard to enter schools without paying
school fees. I want to be a singer like my mom." Kyuhyun took the only family picture he had and showed to Sungmin. The older smiled
as he saw the picture, the young Kyuhyun seemed to be so innocent and happy with his family around. A poor innocent kid who has
no idea what the family is going through.

"I told myself that once famous, no people can look down on me and I won't ever have any debts."  He's quite proud to say that
his debts are halfly paid, all because he worked hard on it. But the rest is still a problem. The interest and the amount itself
is not really an easy amount to fill up.

Sungmin nodded and smiled. He's happy that Kyuhyun opened up this chapter of his life to him. He felt his importance in Kyuhyun's
life, he felt the younger trusts him. "It must be hard for you." he said as he held the young man's cheek and carressed it with
his thumb.

Kyuhyun turned to him and smiled. He looked down and thought for a while before he slowly pushed Sungmin down on his bed and
rested his head the older's shoulder. "It feels so serene when you're around. I want to stay like this for a while." Kyuhyun said
as he hid his face at the crook of Sungmin's neck.

Sungmin's heart beats fast and his eyes never stopped blinking. He did, at some point, imagine a scene like this with Kyuhyun. He's
quite shy to admit that he has these kinds of thoughts as well but right now this is reality. It scares him. What if Kyuhyun ask
him to do it now? It is something beyond his capabilities, he doesn't know whether he'll give in. His heart races like crazy; he
doesn't have any experience yet, what if Kyuhyun expects something from him? What if he fail to satisfy Kyuhyun's needs? His
thoughts were cut when he heard soft and seemingly trying to be kept in silence kind of sobs. Is Kyuhyun crying? The older turned
to him but he kept his face more in between the pillow and Sungmin's neck.

It's been 12 years since Kyuhyun had someone to lean on. Sungmin's existence felt like someone familiar is there for him to lean
on. Umma, Appa, I miss you, he thought. Sungmin's heart soften even more as he heard Kyuhyun's sob. It's not easy being sick, but
it's not easier being alone for along time. He felt sorry that he actually had those dirty thoughts earlier on.

Kyuhyun tried to breathe in through his mouth to prevent the sound but the latter carressed his hair making him look up. Sungmin
saw tears falling from the young man's eyes. He has seen Kyuhyun happy, jealous, upset but never in tears. He must have been
keeping everything inside. Sungmin felt bad for the young man; how long has he been pretending to be strong for everyone to see?
This man, he has faced triumphs and failures on his own, how lonely could he actually be? What else can Sungmin do to make him
feel better? Sungmin felt like crying as well, but he wouldn't want to because Kyuhyun needs a pillar right now.

Kyuhyun chuckled while crying obviously embarassed that he is becoming too sissy. "I'm quite sissy, isn't it?" he chuckled yet
again and tried his best to stop his tears from falling, but it's really tough "Sorry, Sungmin ah... you shouldn't really be
seeing this."

Sungmin looked at him seriously. "Don't say sorry if it makes you feel better." Kyuhyun sniffed and wiped the tears off with his
hand. "Crying won't define you as weak, besides, it cleanses the eyes." he wouldn't want Kyuhyun to feel anymore embarassed so he
knows he should lighten up a bit. Kyuhyun chuckled because of that.

Sungmin used his eyes to explore on Kyuhyun's face. From his forehead to those dark lonely eyes, that straight nose and his
scarred cheeks, his full soft lips and a small teardrop rolling down. He used his thumb to dry the tear that escaped as he
continuously look at the young man. Kyuhyun just looked at Sungmin. He knows he shouldn't be too sissy and transparent but at
times like this, he's glad to let go of his facade and be weak in front of someone. Sungmin lifted his head and kissed Kyuhyun's
lips gently and looked at him again. He smiled gently at the younger man as if telling him that everything is going to be alright.

Kyuhyun looked at Sungmin in the eyes. Those mystical eyes seemed to invite him to move closer. Who is he to decline? He leaned
closer to Sungmin and used his upper lip to slightly open the older's lips. He lifted up his head and looked at Sungmin before
owning his lips deeply. It was their first deep kiss, Kyuhyun made sure he'd savour every second his lips being one with Sungmin's.
He moved slowly and gently making sure the older won't hesitate to respond back.
Soon enough, Sungmin found himself hooking his arm around the young man's neck, responding every move, every deepening action, moving
to a certain angle where he can give Kyuhyun more chance to deepened their sweet first real kiss. Sungmin touched Kyuhyun's chin
as they kiss deeper making a little bit more opening to add up a bit of honey-sweet taste in their first intimate kiss. The
sweetest he has ever experienced. He felt his stomach dropping everytime Kyuhyun would move their mouths closer. He felt dizzy
being in this position with the young man. Dizzy because he has fallen under some kind of kissing illusion Kyuhyun has led him
into.

When they both let go. Kyuhyun's eyes are still closed and like under a spell, he slowly opened his eyes...

"I love you."

He met Sungmin's eyes and as if crying again he whispered for the second time. He swore never to use these 3 words to anyone. How
did he just let it slip out of his tongue? Kyuhyun's thoughts were fogged with the remnants of electricity he received from having
Sungmin's lips. He can't think properly.

"I love you, Lee Sungmin."

It was like he heard a loud thunder when he said those words. He said it. He really said it. He swallowed as he met Sungmin's
eyes giving him a happy smile. He said it. He knows now he wants to be with Sungmin without any mask, without any
facade. He wants to be with this person with all his sincerity. However he will do it, he needs to do it now. He's going to make
things right. Before the older man even find out about the real reason why he existed in his life. Everything was too sudden for
him but he has been alone for a long time that he doesn't want to let go of this new feeling he is in. He knows Sungmin has
conquered a big space in his empty heart, he wouldn't dare to leave this man anymore.

Sungmin brushed Kyuhyun's hair while smiling. He was the happiest hearing those words from the young man. Finally, he is sure that
Kyuhyun feels the same way for him. He knows those three words are too common for everyone to use but because it is the younger man
who said it, he believes it.
Kyuhyun smiled at him and kissed him in the forehead, and then to the nose and then to his curvy lips gently yet deeply. Their
eyes met before Kyuhyun rested his head back on Sungmin's shoulder.

"Take a rest, I'll accompany you for now." Sungmin said as Kyuhyun cuddled even closer. His arms around the older and his breathing
and heartbeat a lot calmer. Sleep is coming; it's been a long time since he felt like he can sleep soundly.

Tomorrow will be a new day...

A better day.

*Author's note: Just a short update tonight.
Pardon me...



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