"Kyuhyun ah..." the young man turned to him. "Can you help me sit on the wheel chair, I want to look outside the window." Kyuhyun
smiled and easily scoop Sungmin and walked towards the wheel chair. One of Sungmin's arm is hooked around his neck while the young
man put him on the wheel chair as carefull as possible. While at it, Sungmin kissed him at the corner of his lips.

"I love you."

He shouldn't say that. Kyuhyun thought. Sungmin should not say those words in that kind of tone, it sounded so sweet that it feels
like a long farewell. Kyuhyun is worried, what if Sungmin dies while he's away? What if something happened to Sungmin once he walked
out of the door. Should he still go?

Kyuhyun looked at him and smiled. "I love you too." Sungmin smiled sweetly showing those crinkles at the side of his eyes. The more
Kyuhyun became anxious, he seldom sees those lovely crinkles and he only sees those when Sungmin is happy, why is he so happy today?
Kyuhyun swallowed and let go of the frightening thought.

"Stay here, ok? I'll be quick." Stay with me, Sungmin ah...don't leave me. Sungmin nodded and watched Kyuhyun's back disappear from
his sight. He turned the wheel chair from the window and looked out.

The weather is just so nice, like that when they had their first date and celebrated his imaginary 35th birthday with Kyuhyun.
Sungmin continuesly looked back to the times from when he was young. What were the highlights of his wonderfully short life? He
learned how to play the guitar and then the piano, he won in a taekwondo competition, he wrote his first song, he had his first
crush, he went to a Performance and Arts school for college. He found out about the thing in his
brain, he met his friends...he wrote...he wished...something... what?

Unconsciously, his smile disappeared and his eyes turned blank. Everything has become blurr. He's not aware with the thought that his
memory is failing.

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Kyuhyun was anxious when he went out of the room, he immediately run down the lobby and out of the hospital to grab some ice cream.
He'll be back soon. Sungmin will be fine. He didn't notice a small rock and tripped on it. A tear fall. What is wrong with him? He's
just fine. Sungmin is fine. He's going to be fine. I love you. He heard Sungmin in his mind and he felt a disturbing pain in his
heart. Those lovely crinkles at the side of his eyes, he'll see it again for sure, this won't be the last time. Sungmin is fine. He
stood up and immediately walked towards the ice cream parlor nearby.

He went back with the cup of ice cream. He closed his eyes in front of the door and say a little prayer. Please let him be fine.
Sungmin won't leave this world without seeing him. He saw Sungmin looking outside the window. A sigh of relief. He smiled. Sungmin's
head is looking straight outside, he's awake. He thought the older might have fallen asleep. He was probably just paranoid. He
walked slowly towards Sungmin, the older didn't even notice him, his eyes are too focused outside. Kyuhyun looked out as well.
There's a small pond from his window. Sungmin must have wanted to go there. He'll take Sungmin there later. For now, ice cream time.
He sighed and composed himself.

"Tadah! Strawberry cream with marshmallow and cherries for my favourite man." he said too loudly, he startled Sungmin's thoughts.

Sungmin turned to him, he stared at Kyuhyun for a long time. Who is this handsome man? Have they met before? Why is his heart
beating so fast? He thinks he had seen this person, but when and where? Or maybe he has died and saw an angel giving him those y
smirks and probably tempting him to escape in heaven and just stay on earth.

"I had a hard time sneaking this from the nurses in the lobby. I'm so glad I wasn't caught." Kyuhyun said, eyes bright upon seeing
his man awake and fine.

Sungmin tilted his head and tried studying the face in front of him. He's not dead. He just happened to see some unfamiliar man
inside his room. Who is this man? Why is he intruding his room? "Do I know you?" he asked the young man. His eyes innocent and big
but is kind and unintimidating.

Kyuhyun's smile immediately disappeared. He felt the world had crashed over him. Sungmin is not a good actor but they way he acted
now seemed so real for him. Those innocent eyes seem to be innocent for real. Why is Sungmin asking him that question? He knows the
young man very well. Every inch of his skin is already familiar to Sungmin. He knows every heartbeat and what it means. He knows all
desperate sighs and even the pretentious smile. Why is Sungmin asking him a ridiculous question? Damn. Has Sungmin forgotten about him?
He opened his mouth slightly to keep himself from sobbing and smiled.

"S-someone told me you like some ice cream so..." Kyuhyun said, concentrating well to make sure none of his tears will drop.

Sungmin smiled at him. "Thanks." he frown right after. "But the hospital doesn't allow patients to eat ice cream." his childish pout
came out immediately. Pouting is always an emergency for Kyuhyun.

Kyuhyun forced a smile. No, Sungmin loves ice cream and no one can stop him from having these sweet treats. And he won't be pouting
long whenever he's around. "I'll tell you a secret." He leaned forward and whispered.

"Ice cream can't kill people."

Sungmin giggled with those words and smiled at Kyuhyun widely. Who is this guy? Why is he standing in front of him? Why does it feel
like they've known each other for too long? Why does he feel jittery with him? "What's your name?" he asked, curious and excited.

You know it. Don't pretend that you don't know, Sungmin ah. Kyuhyun almost choked on his thoat as he tried swallowing the tears down.
"K-kyuhyun. C-cho Kyuhyun."

"Thanks, Kyuhyun." Sungmin said. He has a great feeling with this man around. Kyuhyun, he's special.

The young man hand him his ice cream and watched him as he eats. His tears linger around his eyes. Sungmin doesn't call him that way.
Where is his Sungmin? I love you. Was that his farewell? But Sungmin is still here sitting down alive and eating his ice cream. But
the Sungmin he knows doesn't remember him. Where is his Sungmin? The Sungmin who knows that he weakens whenever he pouts, the
Sungmin who doesn't like the crinkles that Kyuhyun adores? The Sungmin who insists that ice cream can't kill people. The Sungmin who
says he is 25 yet acts like 12. The Sungmin who owns him? The Sungmin that is his. Where is his Sungmin?

"I think I've seen you before." Sungmin started as he dig his ice cream. "Have we met?"

We have and we are lovers and we live together and we have made love for a lot of times and we have plans of staying together for the
rest of our lives. 100 years, Lee Sungmin, we've promised to be together for 100 years.

Kyuhyun was about to answer when the nurse came it. "Sungmin sshi?" she called upon seeing the patient with a cup of ice cream.

"He handed it to me!" Sungmin accused playfully while pointing to Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun looked at him and was surprised to see his playful
man. His playful man who has forgotten him. His playful man who has always been for him.

"Oh well, it's too late to stop you now." the kind nurse said making Sungmin pay her with some sweet childish heart-melting smile.
"Visiting hours is already up. Your visitor must leave now."

"O-oh." Kyuhyun said as he straightened up, sniffing the tears away. Sungmin immediately became anxious. Kyuhyun is leaving. He
want Kyuhyun to leave.

"W-will you come again tomorrow?" he asked hoping the young man would say yes.

Kyuhyun smiled at him. "I'll see you tomorrow then, Sungmin ah."

Sungmin's jaw slightly dropped with how Kyuhyun called his name. Was it the first time his name sounded so perfect? He looked forward
to seeing Kyuhyun again.

The young man closed the door and from there his tears came out from his forced hiding. Sungmin has forgotten about him. Is it even
possible? Even his memories were affected by those cursed things. What will happen to Kyuhyun? Where will he stand in Sungmin's life?
He looked down and tears were about to escape. He thought he has faced the worst of everything... but the older forgetting him. The
older has forgotten about him, what more can be painful than this?

"Kyuhyun ah..." Lee Umma came holding some bags of fruits, she was surprised to see Kyuhyun leaning against the door, looking so lost
and in tears. Visiting hours is over but she has her own arrangements with the hospital.

Kyuhyun immediately straigtened up and forced his more upcoming tears in hide again but right now he just can't. All of them piled
up ready to be freed. He can't let Lee Umma see this. He just can't.

"Sorry, Lee Umma." he said with his broken voice and walked away.

Lee Umma watched him frantically walk away, the back of his hand on his nose. The old woman went inside and saw Sungmin smiling
brightly. Did they had a fight? She'd better ask Sungmin.

"Umma!" he said in a high pitched voice. "Someone came here a while ago. His name is Kyuhyun." Lee Umma crossed her eyebrows shortly.
"Do you know him? He's so handsome, Umma. He gave me an ice cream and said he'll be coming back again tomorrow." What on earth is
Sungmin blabbering about? "Umma, if he asks me to date him, I won't say no, ok?" Sungmin raised his eyebrows looking so excited as
he anticipates tomorrow for Kyuhyun's arrival. "Don't be jealous if I start dating, you're still my no. 1" he said with a wide smile.
He pouted shortly and looked around. "Where's Appa?"

Lee Umma looked at the door. Kyuhyun leaning against it a while ago and tears falling, she turned to Sungmin who looked so carefree,
like that when he had decided to let go of the thought that he has cancer. Does she know Kyuhyun? Where is his dad? Did Sungmin really
forget?

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Kyuhyun stopped at the corner of the hospital near a vendo machine. He used his arms to carry his weight as he leaned on the wall.
Memories of the past few days they were together came up to him. Sungmin leaning against his shoulder and finally feeling his fingers
back to life after the first time it has stiffened. He saw himself and Sungmin in the bathroom with him giving the older a bath.
Sungmin was crying his heart out and leaning against his chest. He also saw himself on top of the older, Sungmin whispering I love you
for the first time ever. Their first love night together. Sungmin listening attentively to their plan when they've reached the age of 95.

Kyuhyun closed his eyes as the tears escaped out. His back against the vendo machine as he started to slide down. Where have all those
memories gone to?

Do I know you?

It was the only question he wouldn't have thought the older would ask him at this point of time. He sobbed loudly as he keep his
head down on his knees. It was hard enough to accept that Sungmin has only a few months to live. It was hard to accept that Sungmin
is dying soon. It was hard to accept that Sungmin cannot walk anymore. And now...

Kyuhyun's tears continuously hurt his eyes. He cannot stop it anymore. The pain that he has been trying to keep from a long time ago
had piled up and now all those memories he desperately tried to share with Sungmin is gone in just a snap. How else can he continue?
What else is there to look forward to? His hopes are gone and now even Sungmin who is breathing in front of him seemed to be gone
just like that. His man is gone. The only person whom he had seen his future with.

He raised up his head when he felt a hand on his shoulder. It was Lee Umma. His lips curled down even more as he didn't stopped himself
from hugging the old woman. He swallowed.

"I knew from the start that everything will be this painful... but I still choose not to leave." Kyuhyun closed his eyes hard and
cried more. "He must be so lonely now, Umma. Sungmin doesn't even know how much memories we have shared together... he must be so
lonely now." He closed his eyes and cried his heart out. He feels Sungmin's emptiness. He does mind being forgotten by the person
he loves the most but Sungmin doesn't even know how much they have shared together.

"We've pass all the storms together. He doesn't even know how far we've made it together. Umma..." he looked at the old woman. "He
probably feels alone right now." he looked down once again and panicked. "What should I do?" He closed his eyes and blinked some
tears away. "He'll be pouting even more. Pouting means emergency." he blinked and is totally broken today. "I can't let him pout for
a long time. He-"

"Kyuhyun ah..."

One warm touch on his face and he stopped his panic and closed his eyes to resume back to crying. He cried while keeping his silence.
His chest rising up and down as he slowly looked down. Lee Umma watched him weep in her arms as she too silently cries. She has been
weak too, with this young man beside her giving her strength and now it's Kyuhyun's turn to weep. She has seen everything or maybe
not everything, but she has seen enough to say that Kyuhyun has proven a lot to show his love for her dear son.

Kyuhyun swore he never cried like this before. Even when his parents died, he never shed this much tears. He was filled with hatred
with the thought that they left him with a big burden in life. This is the first time he had ever felt so much loved, so much needed
and the only thing he would want to give Sungmin is everything. But now... even his memories were taken away from him. With so little
time, how else can he give back the memories that were lost?

Kyuhyun let go of Lee Umma and continuously cry. He may have stopped his panic but he still don't know what to do. He wants to punch
the wall, blame the doctors for their lack of solutions. On second thought, he just wants to put Sungmin in his embrace wishing for
him to remember at least the way he calls Kyuhyun. He walked around in circles, looking up, hands on his waist and looking down
shortly letting his lips curl down for who knows how many times. Sungmin cannot remember him.

He breathe in shakingly, his sobs are still there. He looked down and smiled despite the tears.

Moments later, he stopped crying. He composed himself and looked down. "Umma, I'll still be the man for Sungmin."

Lee Umma nodded her head and sighed as she patted Kyuhyun.

Exactly how much more can Kyuhyun take?

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Kyuhyun already find out how Lee Umma become this strong. She cries too, in the dark, where nobody can see her, hear her. He did the
same and when the sun rises, he's on his mask of a happy, untroubled man.

The next morning, Kyuhyun watches Sungmin as the sun slowly spread its beams. The older slowly opened his eyes and smiled widely
when he saw Kyuhyun. He thought he was in a dream when he saw the young man. Where had Kyuhyun been in his life? It feels like he has
missed him. How did he become this lucky to wake up and see a man like Kyuhyun? What good did he do before to see Kyuhyun beside him
with his y smile? What could he give to have a lot of memories with this person? He wished he have a luxurious amount of time to spend it
with Kyuhyun, the person he thinks he will love for more than a lifetime.

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Kyuhyun started his everyday smiling as Sungmin opens his eyes once he wakes up. It has become a habit from the time the older lost his
memories. His brain is failing even more; a while ago, he wasn't able to play any of his songs in the small pocket keyboard Kyuhyun brought for him.
Sungmin, too, wondered why he cannot play piano when he thought he had played it so well before.

The young man has decided to let Sungmin have their precious set of memories; he wants them to go back to where they first met. But
since it's impossible to leave the hospital. He skipped to the part where he asked Sungmin to date him on a regular. The older
immediately comply. Giving Kyuhyun the same shy smile and looking down right after that.

"That means yes, right?" Kyuhyun asked the very same question he asked before and gaining another smile from the older. Yes! Kyuhyun
thought shortly and immediately skipped to their first kiss. He leaned forward and pressed his lips on the older and giving him a
short y wink right after.

"Are you like this to everyone you like?" Sungmin asked, his heart is unbelievably over happy that he thinks he is just dreaming.

Kyuhyun shook his head. "You're the only one." And will always be.

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Kyuhyun was pushing Sungmin's wheel chair and they finally stopped in front of the pond of the hospital. The older smiled as he watches
some of the ducks swimming around. He, then, looked up. The sky is just so clear.

"I wish I can touch the sky someday." he said. With that, Kyuhyun took away the blanket resting on his lap and spread it on the grassy
ground. He scooped Sungmin and sat beside him. He turned to the older with a smile.

"I like doing this." he lie on his back and looked up in the sky with a smile. "Lie down, Min." Sungmin lied down on the blanket and
watched Kyuhyun as he sighed contentedly. He remembered being tempted to kiss the older man when he first introduced him to
his escape place. The grassy part near the hill of their school. He remembered Sungmin taking the initiatives to kiss him, he remembered
being guilty because Sungmin's eyes are so mystical and those crinkles at the side are just so adorable.

It feels so good to re-live all the good things that he and his man had shared. It could be nicer if they can re-live everything. Even if Sungmin doesn't remember him, at least they were able to have those precious times they have spent together back. Sungmin watched him and tears fell down
from his eyes unknowingly.

"Kyuhyun ah..." his mouth shakes.

Kyuhyun turned to Sungmin upon hearing his name. It sounded so familiar; it's as if it is the same Sungmin he has fallen in love with.
The older man's tears fall at the side of his eyes. Kyuhyun looked at Sungmin as he smiled gently. It is his Sungmin. The Sungmin that
owns him, his Sungmin. Sungmin remembers him now. The tears from his eyes came out as well.

"Thank you." Sungmin said. "I'm always thankful that you are here by my side. I knew I was never wrong when I said yes to you."

"Sungmin ah... don't say that." he whispered but Sungmin shook his head. He wants to say more, otherwise he might not be able to say
it anymore.

"I'm so sorry that I can't grow old with you. I'm sorry that I can't share a lifetime with you. I'm sorry that I keep on hurting you
like this."

Kyuhyun turned to him completely and carressed the older's cheek. He pressed his lips on Sungmin's; long and soft as their tears mixed
up together on the older's face. "You've grown old with me, we've spent 100 years together, Min." Kyuhyun said with a smile. "You've
shared a lifetime with me and more. You've given me everything I would want to have and that's you. You've given me your everything."

Sungmin smiled at him and raised his head a bit to kiss the young man again. His favourite man, his only man, his Kyuhyun. Would he
be too selfish to ask God for a little more time with this man? He'd like a little bit more time, just a little bit more.

"I love you." he whispered to Kyuhyun. "With every melody I can play, with every word of my songs, with every beat of my heart. And
even in heaven, I will still love you."

Kyuhyun's lips curled down but he forced a smile. "Sungmin ah..." his tears fell once again as he felt that things are coming to an
end. He smiled and used his upper lip to slightly open Sungmin's lips; he kissed the older, long and soft and deep like their first
kiss. Their favourite kiss. Sungmin wrapped his arms around Kyuhyun's neck and kiss back making sure every split seconds is worth
remembering. Kyuhyun wiped the fringe off from Sungmin's face and smiled at him. Kyuhyun laid back and they both watch the sky as it
moves.

Kyuhyun slowly reached out for Sungmin's hand and interlaced their fingers together. He placed their clasped hands close to his chest
and kissed Sungmin's knuckles shortly.

"I'm tired, Kyu~" Sungmin purred, eyes closed with a smile. Kyuhyun turned to him and smiled.

"Let's take a nap, then." Sungmin nodded as Kyuhyun placed him on his arm and hugged him close. His Sungmin; the child-like,most lovable,
talented and his one and only man. How tight should he put his man on his embrace so that no one can take him away? He hugged Sungmin
tightly as another set of tears fall. Sungmin sighed and fell fast asleep.

Kyuhyun woke up with the sun almost going down; the sky is orange red, he looked at Sungmin still sleeping peacefully.

"Sungmin ah..." he called. "I'll bring you in, ok? It's getting cold now." the older did not reply.

Kyuhyun scooped him and carried him up until they've reach the room. The older is still asleep as Kyuhyun walked in. Sungmin suddenly
wrapped one arm around Kyuhyun and hum lowly as he cuddled his head on the younger's chest. Kyuhyun gently placed him on his bed and
placed the blanket over his chest. Sungmin did not let go of Kyuhyun and tilted his chin a bit seemingly requesting for a kiss.

Kyuhyun leaned forward to press his lips on Sungmin's. The older smiled and let go of him.

"I love you." Sungmin whispered before Kyuhyun could straighten up. The young man smiled at him.

"I love you, Lee Sungmin."

"Goodnight, Kyu~" Sungmin said as he sighed with a smile.

And Kyuhyun doesn't know why but his tears endlessly race down as he watches Sungmin fall in a deep sleep once again. He smiled and
cried at the same time. He closed his eyes hard and his hand was closed to a fist before he covered his mouth he sobbed quietly.

Sleep tight, Sungmin ah.

*Author's note: Do you know what this means?
Oh dear, Author's eyes are in pain right now :'( Yeah,
as much as you guys are tearing up, I'm as well sobbing
and having a heartbreak *stupid author making it hard for everyone*
Oh well... long author's note here it comes:

There will be another chapter to be updated, hopefully
by tomorrow because I really want to end this up very soon. I mean if
I have the luxury of time I could have end this tonight but since
I can't oh well, I'll let you be in agony first >:)

I've read rateakyuminfanfic's recom about FTR and now I understand
why she didn't recommend it earlier hihi *blush* I'm really very touched.
It seems like FTR has really become the most popular among all my
fanfics. Although, to tell you the truth it is not my favourite haha.
Anyways, hey dear, if you're sobbing right now then I can't do anything haha.
But I'm really grateful that you take the effort to acknowledge good stories and
recommend them to others :D And I like the fact that we are talking to each other
indirectly because of my a/n and your recoms hihi^^

To my dear readers, thank you so much for staying with me until the semi-end.
Don't you dare leave me on the final chapter or else you'll get it! I'm seriously
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You seriously helped me break 2 records and I'm just really touch to see quite
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