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My Dying Love


"Rotten rascal, where's my money?!" An old fat man asked as he kicked Kyuhyun's in the stomach for who knows how many times now.

Kyuhyun is down on the ground, head being used to stand, trying to move up, his knees bended and his whole body is curling up due
to beatings from the fat man. "Speak!!" the fat man said as he kick Kyuhyun in the same place yet again. This time, the young
man rolled with his back on the ground body is slowly getting numb.

Kyuhyun is unable to move. His whole body is painful and his head is spinning. He's waiting for himself to pass out. He knows
they'll leave if it happens. He cannot think clearly anymore. He has drown himself in embarassment as he was being beaten up
inside the school by these people whom he owes money. His classmates, sunbaes and hoobaes has seen him being dragged to this part
of the school and just looked at him, afraid to get involved. Great! If he could just sink in the ground and die right there,
that will be a good thing.

The fat man bent down and grabbed him by the collar of his shirt. "Do I need to break your neck before you bring out your money?"

Kyuhyun looked at him in the eyes. "I don't have any money." His eyes widened when he felt big knuckles on his chest. He spit out
blood and started coughing as he curled himself again due to pain.

"You ing bastard. You told me you'll hand me the money. Where is it?!!"

Kyuhyun closed his eyes. He doesn't have money at all. He gave everything back to Leeteuk and he knows he doesn't regret it even
if this bunch of hooligans rip him apart. Another couple of punches and kicks and he knows his body will give up soon, he's quite
waiting for it.

"Stop this!"

Sungmin shouted as he spread his arms wide trying to cover Kyuhyun from being hit once again. He was catching his breath as he
started running when he heard some girls talking about the student who sang greatly in Ryeowook's live broadcast being mobbed by
some random scary bunch of men. He knew immediately that it was Kyuhyun. He looked sharply at the fat man, there are some fat
back ups and then to Kyuhyun who is curling down on the floor. What have they been doing to Kyuhyun? Has this man even tried
covering himself.

"Yah. Don't you have 2 feet? Why don't you kick these people's asses?!" he is so loving what he said. He has
been the type who tries his best to calm on any kind of situation and choose the proper language despite being in a pressed
situation, but he has decided to drop that attitude and show what he really feel and say what he really thinks.

Kyuhyun opened one of his swollen eyes and saw Sungmin's worried face. Now he can really die. It's enough that he is beaten up
and has seen by most of the students in the school but does help really need to come from Sungmin? He knows better he should
borrow a face from a dog to be able to stand in front of Sungmin next time. Can this thing get anymore worst? He has decided to
fix himself first before getting Sungmin back but now the situation is far worst than he could imagine. Sungmin is now standing
in front of him, defending him from all these people whom he wish could have make him pass out earlier.

"Yah, stop meddling in other people's business. Get lost!" the fat man said. Sungmin looked at the guys around him and then to
Kyuhyun. He sighed, he was thinking of bringing his wallet out and offer them some money but he knows Kyuhyun will not like it.
Since he returned all his earnings from Leeteuk, Sungmin knows better he shouldn't involve money in helping Kyuhyun. He breathe
in and assisted the younger man to stand up.

"Yah. Mind your own business." Kyuhyun whispered to him. He has his pride although the main reason why he can stand right now is
because half of his weight is being carried by Sungmin. He told himself that he has to fix this on his own and that he'll prove
his worth to Sungmin before getting him back.

Sungmin swear he was about to cry when he heard that but he held the tears tightly in place. "You couldn't even stand up and you
still want me to mind my own business?!" Sungmin said slowly raising his voice, scolding the younger man, eyes glaring sharply. He
turned to the fat man. "I'm calling the cops."

"Do you really think it matters?!" the fat guy asked. "That person owes me money!"

"Of course it does, this is a private institution. The school can sue you for trespassing and assaulting one of the students!" Sungmin
said. He was glad he scanned one of the books in Kyuhyun's house and was able to remember it. He brought out his phone and
dialled the police number.

The fat man smiled one sidedly. "Kid. Do you really think you can threaten me with that?" Sungmin's eyes widened when the fat man
grabbed his phone and throw it away. "You wouldn't want to mess up with me as well."

At some point, Sungmin felt scared as he too might get hurt by these people but he knows better he should stand for Kyuhyun right
now. This young man is sure to die if they can't get out of here.

"That's enough." Kyuhyun said trying to regain his composure. He let go of Sungmin and walked towards the fat guy, his face is a
bit sour as he tried to straightened up. "I'll give you back the money. Just give me some more time." he closed his eyes as he
felt pain in his whole body.

The fat man nodded "Fine. One week at most. If you don't pay me back, I'll have one of your fingers on my dining table." the fat
man give yet another kick on Kyuhyun making him kneel down as the rest of the men leave.

Kyuhyun closed his eyes in pain. He held on to his stomach and felt like he's going to die because of the pain. Sungmin looked at him
with so much concern. He doesn't know money is this big issue to Kyuhyun. He could have just kept the money he earned from dating
the older man. Sungmin knelt down and took one of Kyuhyun's arm and wrapped around his shoulder. He helped the younger to stand
up and walk towards the clinic.

"I can go home by myself." Kyuhyun said trying to pretend he is still strong yet in fact he knows he'll be collapsing soon.

Sungmin watches as Kyuhyun tried to stand straight but immediately lose balance the moment he let go of the older's shoulder.
"I'll send you to the doctor." Sungmin insisted.

"I said I'm going home."

"Fine."

Sungmin doesn't want to argue with him anymore but did not let go of his arm and started walking far until they've reached
Kyuhyun's house. He immediately led the young man on the bed. Kyuhyun used his elbow to sit up still determined to continue with
his act.

"I can handle myself now." he said.

Sungmin chuckled bitterly as he moved to find a basin and alcohol. He took the liberty to walk around the apartment and boil some
water. He knows Kyuhyun is just too weak to push him out of his house even if he wanted to and he will take advantage of it. He
took the basin and pour some alcohol and hot water. He took a small towel and soaked it there.

He sat down in front of Kyuhyun, eyes darting on the younger man. "Look at yourself. You really think you can handle?" he said as
he started pressing the towel on Kyuhyun's left eye. The young man jolted in pain but Sungmin ignored it. He was upset with
Kyuhyun. Why is he still pretending to be strong when he halfly died from the attack. He breathe out deeply and continuously
pressing the towel on the swollen areas of Kyuhyun's face.

"Look at yourself, if I didn't come what do you think could have happen to you?!" he scolded.

Sungmin pressed the towel at the side of Kyuhyun's face way too hard that the younger immediately jolted and stopped his hand.
"You know what, if youre unwilling to do this, you're free to leave." he took away the towel and started pressing it on himself.
The pain from being brutally hit was enough and here Sungmin is, purposely pressing the already swollen bruises, what does he want
to happen to Kyuhyun, die in pain?

Sungmin sighed deeply as he pouted. His tears started coming up as he looks at Kyuhyun sharply. He took away the towel and
pressed it on the younger's lips again this time a bit gently. Kyuhyun saw a tear falling from Sungmin's eyes. "A simple sorry
could have mean something." the older said as he presses the towel at the side of Kyuhyun's lips. Sungmin breathes heavily as he
looks at the bruised that covered Kyuhyun's face as if he can feel the pain when the younger got it. Another tear fall.

"I'm not sorry for what I did."

Sungmin was even more upset when he heard that and purposely pressed the towel a little bit harder. Kyuhyun jolted in pain once
again. The older's lips curled down as another set of tears races on his face as he cries silently. Why does he need to be the
one to lower his pride? He's not even the one at fault! Why isn't Kyuhyun sorry at all?

"I'm not sorry that I fall in love with you, Sungmin ah."

Kyuhyun looked at him gently but Sungmin just cry while pressing the towel on him. "The only thing I'm sorry about is that you
have to find out about the transaction before I could fix things out." he watches the tears rolling down on
Sungmin's face. Kyuhyun shook his head gently looking regretful because his plan didn't turned out well.

"I wouldn't want to do anything with you." Kyuhyun looked down as he shook his head. "Falling for you is not part of the plan.
All I want is to get more money...but I ended up wanting you more. I'm not sorry about it, Lee Sungmin."
Sungmin pretends not to hear anything so Kyuhyun grabbed his wrist and took away the towel. "Sungmin ah..."

Sungmin took his hand and look down as he continued crying. He's not upset because Kyuhyun was paid to date him, he has forgiven
the younger man from the time he talked to his mom. Moreso, when Leeteuk told him that the young man returned the money because
he was sincere towards Sungmin. He was upset because Kyuhyun didn't even try to fight back when being hurt by those people. How
could the younger survive if nobody comes for help?

"I'm sorry..." Kyuhyun looked at him, eyes are weak because of the older's tears. For accepting the money, for taking you for a
fool... for falling in love with you. "I'm really sorry."

"Do you really think it still matters?" Sungmin asked. His voice has changed because of his crying. "If you're this troubled
because of those people, you could have just used that money to take care of them... look at what they've done to you." Now that
he knows the real situation, he wouldn't blame Kyuhyun if he has resorted to being paid to date anyone. Now he knows, Kyuhyun had
his reason and he probably would not want to do it if he doesn't need any money at all.

Kyuhyun closed his eyes. Again, Sungmin's unreadable thoughts attack. He should have known Sungmin is thinking about his problems
and not about the transaction. "And then what?" Kyuhyun cut his words. "I won't be able to stand in front of you for
the next decade or two?"

Kyuhyun chuckled. "Sungmin ah... I've prepared myself for the worst. When I admitted to myself that this is real..." he touched
his chest referring to his heart. "I know I wouldn't want to let you slip away. But you were so upset that you-"  Kyuhyun crossed
his eyebrows when he saw Sungmin having cold sweats and unconscious on the floor that day. He can't imagine the emotion Sungmin
held inside that he had to pass out. At that time, he knows he should be a better person before he stands up in front of him
again.

Sungmin looked down and cried once again. "Stupid." he took the towel and started pressing on the side of Kyuhyun's lips. "Do you
really think I'm heartless enough not to forgive you?" he looked at the bruised chin of Kyuhyun and pressed the towel there. "A
simple sorry means everything but you didn't even speak at all. You rotten jerk" he looked at the young man sharply, eyes are
still producing tears.

Kyuhyun took a hold on Sungmin's wrist. He met the older's eyes, how lonely could those eyes get? He felt like his heart breaks
just seeing those tears around his eyes. Kyuhyun lowered Sungmin's hand and pressed his lips on the older's while he simple closed
his eyes. "I wouldn't want to hurt you at all. Sungmin ah... I'm sorry I used you and..."

Sungmin's tears fall down again. "I don't hate you for what you've done to me..." he said finally. Kyuhyun felt weirded, if that's
the case, why is he still angry?

"I hate you for not protecting yourself from them. You could at least ask someone to help you but you and your foolish pride even
want to push me away. How could you ask me not to meddle in your business? Crazy ." he swore he has never cursed anyone
before but cursing right now made him feel better.

Kyuhyun looks down. He may be poor and with no money but his pride won't leave him for this sake. If he doesn't have his pride he
would had died a long time ago for not being confident. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to push you away but..." Kyuhyun looked down.
"I consider those people getting back on me because of what I did to you."

"Stupid. Why would I want someone to get back on you? If I want to get even I should have burned your right now." Sungmin
said as he pressed the towel hard on Kyuhyun's face. The young man freed a sound of pain as he looks at Sungmin. He felt better
that the older is here cursing him and calling him stupid, looking at him in the eyes, not angry about what he did to him and
being concerned about his injuries.

Kyuhyun took the towel and throw it away from Sungmin. He eyed on the older. He knows that Sungmin has forgiven him. He knew it
because the older stood for him in front of those guys, he knew it when the older help him go home and purposely press on his bruises
hard, he knew it when Sungmin didn't move away from his kiss earlier. Kyuhyun stretched his arm and embraces Sungmin as he smiled.

"I hope this will make you feel better." Kyuhyun said as he rested his head on the older's not minding whether his bruises are
aching due to the contact. "Sungmin ah... this time..."
he let go of the older and looked at him in the eyes. "I want to come to you without any mask, without anyone asking me to do so.
With all that I am." He sees himself in Sungmin's still teary eyes, he seems small in those eyes but he's all they can see.

Sungmin leaned forward and wrapped his arms around the younger. He knows he has been easy for Kyuhyun but who cares? He really
love this man and he wouldn't want to lose him for a second. "." the young man chuckled before hugging him even tightly.

"I really really..." Kyuhyun never thought he'll use these words again... he can't believe he used the forbidden words right after
he kissed the older man here in the same place and that he wants to use them again now, he hopes Sungmin doesn't think he's
overusing it...

 

 


"I really really..."

 

 

 


"...love you."


With no pretense, with no mask, just the real me. Sungmin ah.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*Author's note: *Party!!!!!!* I love every single one of you!!!
Especially you! *points* yup my 146th subscriber! You are the
reason why I break my LTS record today woohooo!!!
I'm really happy because of this, and I think I should reward you
with something... hmm? let me see...
:D *bear hugss* and a...

Back to the topic: I like the way Min curses, it's all because
he becomes agitated when Kyuhyun is involved^^

 

Have a good night~!^^

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LeeLenaMx #1
Chapter 39: I knew just from the title, that if I read this story I was going to cry and I was so right..
Why a beautiful story you wrote, even is sad They made each other happy while it lasted.
Thank you for sharing your stories!
LeeAlyn
#2
Chapter 39: I'm here again, and this made me cry again.. why, why this story need to be so freakin' great? I'm crying a lot today.. TT_TT
kyuichi91 #3
Chapter 39: Finally... finished
I wonder why you can write so well.
I really dont know what to write but promise i'll read your another fanfic later
kyuichi91 #4
Chapter 7: I love this part afffffff♥♥♥♥
My english was so bad, i can't even make sentence properly. I'm so sowwyy
But i enjoy reading your story
kyuichi91 #5
Chapter 7: I love this part afffffff♥♥♥♥
My english was so bad, i can't even make sentence properly. I'm so sowwyy
But i enjoy reading your story
kyumin1115
#6
Chapter 39: I don't know how many times I have read this already but.... I still always end up crying :( I miss KyuMin! I miss your stories too. I hope you'll write again, authornim. :)
LeeAlyn
#7
Chapter 39: i read this again and i cried again. stupid me haha :'D
oshxlh96 #8
Chapter 39: I CANT STOP CRYING ASDFGHJKL
why you do this to kyuhyun, minnn ;__;
what a beautiful story, thankyou this is so heartbreaking TAT)
EXOholic-itine #9
I am guessing you like suju songs so much.. As what I've noticed on your other fics you like to use their songs as bgm and I must say it's really effective and it encourage me to listen not only suju's popular songs but also the great once.. And I'd like to say thank you for letting us know the title in each lyrics you are using.. First I have read your fic bcd and it was magnificent.. I am a reader who also read a/n and comments and even then I always read bcd being compared to mad so I also always take note to read it after bcd.. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to read it after bcd because after I read bcd, I promise myself to let the bcd feels subside first, I might not handle another angst stories so I read first minderella (also an amazing fic of yours) then finally read this one.. What can I say to this fic?? Really I might not shed a single tear in this fic but you successfully clench my painful heart.. These three fics I've read and I must predict and say, you have angst style of writing skills.. Anyways this is getting longer and I want to read more of your fics so CIAO for now.. See you in your other fics.. I hope I can also comment on each of your fics.. Ciao!!
Krisyeolsdaughter #10
Chapter 39: Damn you i cried. Itshogud