...silence

My Dying Love

"I need to return this to you. I'm quitting." Kyuhyun said as he hand the money to Leeteuk. Kyuhyun is calm and is quite determined
of what he is doing now. If he didn't meet Sungmin, he'll probably take this amount of money, abandon the person and spend this
money like hell. But no. He has met Sungmin, and fall in love with him, and even if it all started with lie, the truth says he wants
to straighten things up. He can't think of the future for now, he just want to look at Sungmin with his head held up high, without
any mask, without anything to hide from him.

Of course, these bunch of people around Sungmin needs to hear the reason as to why he is quitting. He knows they'll be happy to hear
this and he hopes he'll get support from these people. He sighed... "To be honest, I want to-"

"Hyung..."

Both men doesn't know how Sungmin came or find them together but Leeteuk immediately hide the envelope behind him so as not to
make a commotion. However, Sungmin is not as stupid as to not see a transaction going on.

He looked at Kyuhyun sharply. Tears came up as he recalled the things they did recently. He spent time with the young man inside
his small house, he listened to his stories that he is now doubting whether it is true or not. Kyuhyun stole his heart and
showed a weak side of him. Were any of those real? Those stories that he said and beliefs that he thought they both share,
were any of those real? How long has Kyuhyun been taking him for a fool? How long has he been fooling himself that someone has
finally loved him dearly?

"Is it true?" he asked Kyuhyun. "Did they really pay you to date me?" Sungmin tried his best to keep the tears intact as he looks
at the young man but his eyes immediately weakened with loneliness when Kyuhyun did not answer at all. Why is he keeping his silence?
Does that mean it's true? He closed his fist, he has never felt so angry before; his heart felt like it stiffened as he hold his
breath. Kyuhyun needs to say something, but it seems like his silence says yes. Sungmin closed his eyes and tears fall, he tried
stopping himself but the anger that he is trying to suppress is just too strong that he used all his strength to
slap Kyuhyun in the face using the back of his hand. He closed his eyes as if regretted losing his patience. His hand shakes and
felt the crisp pain from the contact with Kyuhyun's face.

The latter just accept it and didn't say anything. He just breathe out quietly and looked down. Leeteuk was very surprised
with what his dongsaeng did. The very normal Sungmin, who seemingly doesn't know how to be mad or lose patience, the calm and
gentle Sungmin who couldn't even dare hurt a mosquito was angry to the point of slapping Kyuhyun in the face. Exactly how deep is
his emotion towards the young man that he has become this upset?

"Sungmin ah... it's not-" Leeteuk was about to say something, he should at least say something. He doesn't know why Kyuhyun is in
front of him returning all the money to him and his dongsaeng is seemingly misinterpretting everything. He wanted to say something,
but what? Before he could even think of any alibi, Sungmin looked at him sharply and then eyed on the envelope. He
chuckled bitterly and turned to Kyuhyun once again.

"How much did it cost for you to date me?" his tears falling unmindedly as he took the envelope and looked at the money.
He nodded. "$25000? Dating me costed $25000?" he sighed and looked away. He has never looked down on anyone who has some financial
issues but this is first hand experience and he really can't stop himself not to look down on the young man. How low can he be to
even make up stories about how he was abused by those people whom he owe money? Sungmin bets the threat in the bulletin board is
one of Kyuhyun's dirty tactics. He closed his eyes tightly, despite having these thoughts, Sungmin still thinks there is just a
mistake somewhere; this is just a set-up, Kyuhyun is not taking any money from his hyungs.

Kyuhyun ah, say something. If you say you didn't do it, I'll believe you. Sungmin secretly pray for Kyuhyun to defend himself from
his own accusation. Say something, or just tell him that he is sorry. He expected Kyuhyun to at least say something but the
young man remained quiet and just looked at him.

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Kyuhyun's thought about giving the money back has been strong since the time he said those 3 forbidden words. He really wants to
be with Sungmin and he's returning the money with all sincerity. However, when he handed the money to Leeteuk and Sungmin entered
the scene, Kyuhyun knew his plan of being with him sincerely was already over. Of course, both his hand and Leeteuk's hand are
holding the white envelope and the oldest immediately took it and hide it away. Kyuhyun saw Sungmin's eyes glared shortly on the
white thing and at that moment, he knew everything is done for. So when Sungmin asked him the million dollar question whether he
is really being paid to date him, he knows better than to just keep his mouth shut.

What else can he say? Sungmin has seen everything. Those gentle eyes are accusing him and are b darkly because of him. Those
lips curled down and the tears that rolled down. How can he even escape the truth that they paid for him to be close to Sungmin?
How can he say that everything was planned neatly but Kyuhyun fell in love with him? Would he even believe the young man now?
Kyuhyun knows his words will be used against him. It's no use. And when the back of Sungmin's hand landed on his cheek, he knows
he has hurt the older man deeply. The sharp, crisp pain stabbed his heart as he sees Sungmin seemingly not wanting to do it but
he did so. Kyuhyun ah, you deserve more beating than that.

"How can you do it?" Sungmin asked. His eyes are weak and tears made him see Kyuhyun less clear. "All these time you were just
playing me for a fool." he looked away and breathe out. "How can you do it, you rotten-" Sungmin wants to curse Kyuhyun, but he
knows he'll regret it if he does so. He knows better not to badmouth others and no matter how lowly one is, they don't deserve to
be called a bastard. He closed his eyes as tears come out and looked at Kyuhyun sharply.

"Stop asking money from my friends, Cho Kyuhyun." He was just so angry that his mind is slightly clouded but his overflowing
emotions. He swear he can't think properly. He took out his wallet and took out all the cash inside. He looked at Kyuhyun and
throw the money in his face. "And here's for leaving me alone."

Kyuhyun just looked at the money that fall in front of him as Sungmin walked away. The older's face drenched in tears as he left
the scene, the back of his hand in between his nose and mouth, head is throbbing with pain again but he ignored it just to walk
as fast as he could.

Kyuhyun just watched Sungmin as he walks away. He sighed and he knelt down, Leeteuk watched him picking up the money. He didn't
expect to witness this kind of scene. He should have known from the start that Sungmin is really serious about his wish of falling
in love that the truth has hurt him deeply. He watched Kyuhyun squatting down, sighing and trying to fix the money while shaking
his head. Is Kyuhyun really in love with Sungmin? Because right now, even without words, his eyes say so.

"As I was saying..." The younger man started. "I'm quitting." he stood up and hand all the money to Leeteuk. "I don't need your money
to be close to him. I want to be with Sungmin for real. I know I couldn't make it if I won't return this" he looked at the older
in the eye and shook his head. "But I guess I won't be able to do it now." he turned to Sungmin's direction.

Leeteuk now understood what happened. But something is still not right. He has been asking himself this question, now is his chance
to answer it. "I told you to meet him at the hill but Sungmin shooed off a certain Choi Siwon and ended up dating you..."

Kyuhyun chuckled... "I wanted to go with what was planned but... my senses told me not to do so." Leeteuk nodded quietly and
looked at Kyuhyun who he started walking towards Sungmin's direction.

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He knows he hurt Sungmin. He needs to explain everything, ask for his forgiveness and tell him that Kyuhyun is
serious in dating him more than anything else. He can't pretend he doesn't care, because he saw Sungmin's tears, he saw Sungmin's
eyes lost its shine; he knows he has a slight chance to turn the table and get Sungmin back. Or if not, at least he needs to apologise
to the older man for everything.  Kyuhyun looked around, he's quite sure Sungmin won't be too far away. Where is he? He turned left and right and widened his eyes when he saw Sungmin lying on the ground, unconscious.

"Sungmin ah..."

He run towards the very pale Sungmin. He carried him immediately at his back and started running back. He frantically ran to
Leeteuk and the oldest was very shock to see Sungmin unconscious on Kyuhyun's back. What has happened?

"Help me..." Kyuhyun said catching his breath. Leeteuk didn't waste any second standing, he immediately lead Kyuhyun to his car.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*Author's note: Apologies for the short update, I'll
make it up next week :)


warning: the angst has yet to come
*evil laugh~!*

 

Goodnight everyone!! Have a great weekend!!^^

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LeeLenaMx #1
Chapter 39: I knew just from the title, that if I read this story I was going to cry and I was so right..
Why a beautiful story you wrote, even is sad They made each other happy while it lasted.
Thank you for sharing your stories!
LeeAlyn
#2
Chapter 39: I'm here again, and this made me cry again.. why, why this story need to be so freakin' great? I'm crying a lot today.. TT_TT
kyuichi91 #3
Chapter 39: Finally... finished
I wonder why you can write so well.
I really dont know what to write but promise i'll read your another fanfic later
kyuichi91 #4
Chapter 7: I love this part afffffff♥♥♥♥
My english was so bad, i can't even make sentence properly. I'm so sowwyy
But i enjoy reading your story
kyuichi91 #5
Chapter 7: I love this part afffffff♥♥♥♥
My english was so bad, i can't even make sentence properly. I'm so sowwyy
But i enjoy reading your story
kyumin1115
#6
Chapter 39: I don't know how many times I have read this already but.... I still always end up crying :( I miss KyuMin! I miss your stories too. I hope you'll write again, authornim. :)
LeeAlyn
#7
Chapter 39: i read this again and i cried again. stupid me haha :'D
oshxlh96 #8
Chapter 39: I CANT STOP CRYING ASDFGHJKL
why you do this to kyuhyun, minnn ;__;
what a beautiful story, thankyou this is so heartbreaking TAT)
EXOholic-itine #9
I am guessing you like suju songs so much.. As what I've noticed on your other fics you like to use their songs as bgm and I must say it's really effective and it encourage me to listen not only suju's popular songs but also the great once.. And I'd like to say thank you for letting us know the title in each lyrics you are using.. First I have read your fic bcd and it was magnificent.. I am a reader who also read a/n and comments and even then I always read bcd being compared to mad so I also always take note to read it after bcd.. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to read it after bcd because after I read bcd, I promise myself to let the bcd feels subside first, I might not handle another angst stories so I read first minderella (also an amazing fic of yours) then finally read this one.. What can I say to this fic?? Really I might not shed a single tear in this fic but you successfully clench my painful heart.. These three fics I've read and I must predict and say, you have angst style of writing skills.. Anyways this is getting longer and I want to read more of your fics so CIAO for now.. See you in your other fics.. I hope I can also comment on each of your fics.. Ciao!!
Krisyeolsdaughter #10
Chapter 39: Damn you i cried. Itshogud