...Daydreaming

My Dying Love


"Oh? Sungmin hyung!" Donghae exclaimed when he saw his older friend in front of them. All their friends stood up suddenly as they
were surprised to see Sungmin in front of them. "What? I thought you said you're going to Jeju today?"

Sungmin smiled. He needed to calm down after crying so he didn't show up to his friends after Kyuhyun's performance, he actually wanted
to leave but he can't get to leave just like that. "I can't get to leave without saying goodbye to all of you."
he said with a smile. "I supposed I should get to hug each of you, right?"

The rest of them sigh. Who can actually read this 'too normal' friend of theirs. They stood up and hugged Sungmin tightly. He
smiled at them in return. "Hyung, remember to visit me there on term breaks, oh?" he said eyeing on Leeteuk.

Leeteuk smiled and nodded his head while the others hugged him again. "We'll see you there as soon as this term is over." Sungmin
smiled widely and nodded as well.

"Sungmin ah..." Yesung said after releasing him from the bear hug. "Kyuhyun, he came to look for you a while ago."

"Kyuhyun?" he asked. He wondered why Kyuhyun needs to look for him.

"We thought you already left so we told him you're on your way to Jeju." Yesung explained. Sungmin nodded calmly, not giving them
a hint that he is bothered by the thought that Kyuhyun is looking for him. He give a straight smile and looked at his friends. He
has set his mind that he'll see Kyuhyun for the last time during that stage performance, he'll probably won't see the young man again.

"Well, I need to get going."

"Take care of yourself, Sungmin hyung." Donghae said and hugged him for the last time, tears coming up in the youngest's eyes.
Sungmin smiled at him while patting his back.

"Yah. I'm not yet dying and you're already crying like that. Tsch." he said as Donghae clinged to him like a child. "Say thank
you to Hyukjae for me. He did a good job."

Donghae nodded and wiped his eyes immediately. Sungmin hugged his three hyungs for the last time and started walking away.
Inside the car, Sungmin looked at his phone and wondered why Kyuhyun is looking for him. What does he wants? He shook his head,
if Kyuhyun expects some sort of goodbye, he's quite sure he won't be willing to do that. It's already hard seeing Kyuhyun from
a far and not being with him, if he'd be looking at Kyuhyun's eyes before saying goodbye, he's quite sure he'll be crying a
river after.

He reached the airport and took his luggage with him.

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Kyuhyun didn't know how he reached the domestic airport on his feet, he just know he needs to stop Sungmin from flying. He needs to
say goodbye to Sungmin. He stopped suddenly. On second thought, he doesn't want to say goodbye to the older. Once again, one more time
right? He continued his search in the airport, running directionless, hoping it's not too late to see Sungmin off.

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Sungmin was in the queue for boarding, he was in the middle when someone pulled him out of the line, wrapped the arms around his
waist and his shoulders and breathed close to his ear. His eyes widened in shock. The breathing behind him is fast; nervous? anxious?
He felt the fast heartbeat pounding behind him. Sungmin was in shocked. Is someone going to assault him? So he won't
die because of his sickness, he'll die because someone assaulted him in the airport. What a crappy story his life is.

"I can't do it, Min."

That voice. Kyuhyun is still catching his breath. Has he been running too long? What is he doing here? He can't do it? He
can't do what? If he came here to say he can't be with Sungmin, then he must have gone crazy, Sungmin already knows it and that's
the reason why he's leaving. Aside from the fact that the doctor requires him to stop his school activities, it's also an escape. He
needs to try to forget Kyuhyun.

"I can't do it, Min. I really can't."

Sungmin closed his eyes as he heard Kyuhyun's broken voice. Once said is enough, Kyuhyun doesn't need to empasize this fact because
it only stabs the older even more. The younger's embrace tightens around Sungmin's body, his nose reached the older's neck,
sniffling his heavenly scent while planting a kiss on it. Kyuhyun gasped for breath and whispered...

"I can't be without you."

Sungmin's mouth agape. What is Kyuhyun saying? He thinks he didn't hear it clearly.

"K-Kyuhyun ah..."

"I can't be without you." Kyuhyun said as he turned Sungmin's body around, facing him. "I wanted to, I tried to pull myself away
from you but I can't. I can't be without you... Sungmin ah..." Kyuhyun's expression is like that of a child finally seeing his
lost beloved pet; crying, pulling and locking the older in his embrace.

Sungmin was dumbfounded. What is going on? He doesn't know either but he wrapped his arms around Kyuhyun's waist and felt like
crying. He wants to crush himself in the young man's embrace. Kyuhyun is here, not to say goodbye but to be with him. But...

"Kyuhyun ah... you know what can happen to me."

Kyuhyun let go of him and looked at him in the eyes. Those dark eyes that once again shed tears in front of Sungmin. Those eyes
that sees only the older man. "I don't care about it,"

"But-"

"Sungmin ah..." he called and embraces Sungmin for the second time. "If you're going to die tomorrow, I want to spend the last 24
hours with you and if it is today, God forbids it, but I want to spend the last of your minutes on earth with me. Like this, in
my embrace." He tilted his head closer to Sungmin's hair so he can smell the sweet scent. He closed his eyes hoping Sungmin would
say yes to him like he always do.

They both heard the announcement that the boarding gates to Jeju-do is closing and that Sungmin should go now. But he is still in
Kyuhyun's embrace and wouldn't want to let go from it, hearing those words from the younger, who the hell would want to let go?

"I should go now." Sungmin said, arms still around Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun nodded yet tightened his embrace to the older who doesn't seemed
to mind it at all.

"You should." Kyuhyun said.

"I'm going."

"Oh. Goodbye, Sungmin"

Both of them are still in each other's embrace despite talking about leaving and once again, they heard the announcement that the
gate will be closed soon. Sungmin tightened his hold as well.

"You should be going now." Kyuhyun said this time, smiling as he felt Sungmin's embrace tightens. The older didn't say yes, but
this kind of embrace is considered yes for him. He's happy that Sungmin didn't reject him. He doesn't care about himself anymore,
Cho Kyuhyun, whatever pain the world has to offer, he'd conquer it to be with Sungmin, even if it's for a short while, it will
be worthwhile for him.

"Kyuhyun ah, I should really go." Sungmin said but not moving from his embrace.

"Goodbye, Lee Sungmin." Kyuhyun said while the older chuckled and looked up.

"Stop holding me." Sungmin said.

"Let go of me, first." Kyuhyun countered, Sungmin nodded but didn't move at all.

Seriously, this is becoming endless and the attendants are all waiting for Sungmin to board. They both chuckled and let go of each
other. Sungmin looking at Kyuhyun, happy that he is here to see him off, not as an ex-lover but a lover who just got back with him.
He's thankful that the young man is still willing to be with him and quite sorry for whatever future pain he'll bring to the
young man.

"Sungmin ah..."

Sungmin turned to him and was surprised to suddenly feel Kyuhyun's lips pressing onto his. He closed his eyes and response back to
the gentle and slow yet deep kiss. Those lips, he has finally touched Sungmin's lips again.

"Sorry Sir, non-passengers cannot stay near the boarding gates." the humble attendant told Kyuhyun. He looked down and sighed before
walking away. He looked at the giant glass window and saw the Koreanair aircraft departing from the airport. He has missed Sungmin.

It would have been perfect if it happened just like how he had imagined it.

He sighed and walked out of the airport. He continued walking like dead. Sungmin is gone. He wasn't able to catch up. What is he
going to do now? Suddenly, he straightened up.

Once again, one more time. The song still keeps on singing to him. He spent some more time standing up and thinking. He chuckled. He
thinks he already knows what to do.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*Author's note: just a short update tonight. I'll give you a better
one tomorrow :)

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LeeLenaMx #1
Chapter 39: I knew just from the title, that if I read this story I was going to cry and I was so right..
Why a beautiful story you wrote, even is sad They made each other happy while it lasted.
Thank you for sharing your stories!
LeeAlyn
#2
Chapter 39: I'm here again, and this made me cry again.. why, why this story need to be so freakin' great? I'm crying a lot today.. TT_TT
kyuichi91 #3
Chapter 39: Finally... finished
I wonder why you can write so well.
I really dont know what to write but promise i'll read your another fanfic later
kyuichi91 #4
Chapter 7: I love this part afffffff♥♥♥♥
My english was so bad, i can't even make sentence properly. I'm so sowwyy
But i enjoy reading your story
kyuichi91 #5
Chapter 7: I love this part afffffff♥♥♥♥
My english was so bad, i can't even make sentence properly. I'm so sowwyy
But i enjoy reading your story
kyumin1115
#6
Chapter 39: I don't know how many times I have read this already but.... I still always end up crying :( I miss KyuMin! I miss your stories too. I hope you'll write again, authornim. :)
LeeAlyn
#7
Chapter 39: i read this again and i cried again. stupid me haha :'D
oshxlh96 #8
Chapter 39: I CANT STOP CRYING ASDFGHJKL
why you do this to kyuhyun, minnn ;__;
what a beautiful story, thankyou this is so heartbreaking TAT)
EXOholic-itine #9
I am guessing you like suju songs so much.. As what I've noticed on your other fics you like to use their songs as bgm and I must say it's really effective and it encourage me to listen not only suju's popular songs but also the great once.. And I'd like to say thank you for letting us know the title in each lyrics you are using.. First I have read your fic bcd and it was magnificent.. I am a reader who also read a/n and comments and even then I always read bcd being compared to mad so I also always take note to read it after bcd.. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to read it after bcd because after I read bcd, I promise myself to let the bcd feels subside first, I might not handle another angst stories so I read first minderella (also an amazing fic of yours) then finally read this one.. What can I say to this fic?? Really I might not shed a single tear in this fic but you successfully clench my painful heart.. These three fics I've read and I must predict and say, you have angst style of writing skills.. Anyways this is getting longer and I want to read more of your fics so CIAO for now.. See you in your other fics.. I hope I can also comment on each of your fics.. Ciao!!
Krisyeolsdaughter #10
Chapter 39: Damn you i cried. Itshogud