Sungmin tried standing on his feet but he can't even feel his legs. He tried poking it and hitting it with his palm but he could only
hear the crisp sound and not the pain at all. His lips curled down. Please move, please move now. He chants in his mind. He closed
his eyes hardly and tried breathing in. Whatever could happen to him if this thing continues? He cannot imagine himself not be able to
walk, if he can't play his music and can't even walk how can he live this overly pathetic life? He's just so useless. He can't bare
seeing himself like this.

"Sungmin ah..." Kyuhyun said as he opened the door. Thank goodness Kyuhyun never had the courtesy to knock ever since, he would always
barge in without any warnings, he saw Sungmin on the floor looking at his motionless legs, eyes are filling up with salty water. Was
it him? He heard something inside the bathroom just now. A loud thug sound. Did Sungmin fall on the floor? He looked at the older man.

"I cannot move my legs." Sungmin said as tears spilled from his eyes. His mouth curled down even more and even freed a sob that sounded
so in despair.

Sungmin has fallen again and Kyuhyun wasn't even a minute earlier to catch him. How long has he been here? In this kind of state?
What is Kyuhyun going to do? He doesn't know exactly what the older need to make his legs get back to work. He needs to think fast,
should he distract Sungmin like what he did this morning? Think Cho! Use your head. He can't be this useless for Sungmin. Not when
Sungmin is on the floor looking so depressed and feeling worse because of his sickness. Was it really that fast? It seems like it's
only been weeks since they last see the doctor. Did it really spread that fast like what the doctor say?

Kyuhyun squat down in front of Sungmin and wiped his tears. He smiled at the older gently. No matter what, he shouldn't make Sungmin
feel so depressed about this. "Thank God you can't feel your legs." he
said. Sungmin crossed his eyebrows. Not feeling his legs is not a ing good thing! Why is Kyuhyun smiling at him like that?

Kyuhyun looked at him darkly, lustfully. It's not time to think of those dirty thoughts but the way the young man looks at him is
really distracting. Kyuhyun caressed his cheeks shortly before leaning towards him.

"I've always wanted to join you for a bath. Now, you can't runaway." Kyuhyun whispered behind his ear and kissed the hair closed to
it.

What the- is this what Kyuhyun is thinking about? He wants to take a bath with Sungmin? Seriously? At this state? Would Kyuhyun be
in the right mind to join him at this kind of situation? and taking a bath?

"Kyuhyun ah..." Sungmin called. This is not funny at all. Kyuhyun took a hold of Sungmin's shirt and pulled it out of him. The older
is still looking so disappointed and confused, still wondering why the young man is doing all this things to him. It makes no sense
that the young man is doing this when he could just help Sungmin to stand up and just return him to the bedroom. Kyuhyun looked at
him darkly. Sungmin met his eyes, innocent like that of a child, hurt and lost.

"I'm going to give you a bath, Sungmin ah..." Kyuhyun said with a suddenly gentle smile. Sungmin looked down and blushed, embarassed.
Although, what is left for Kyuhyun to see? He has owned the older for a many times that night, what is there left to hide?

When the young man had stripped him off his clothes, he took out his own top and carried Sungmin to the tub. One arm supporting the
older's back, one hand supporting the legs. He dipped Sungmin in the warm water and smiled when Sungmin diligently unhook his arm
around him.

"You won't take off your pants?" Sungmin asked as Kyuhyun stepped in the tub as well. He only took off his top and purposely left
his jeans on.

"Do you want me to?" Kyuhyun asked with an overly dirty smirk in his face.

Finally, Sungmin smiled. Shyly and gently but still, he smiled. Kyuhyun knew the older is already fine. He just needs some teasing
and well, if Sungmin took his question seriously, he'd be most willing to oblige.

Sungmin shook his head and looked down as Kyuhyun sat behind him, legs spread around him comfortably.

Kyuhyun kissed the older's wet shoulder. "We use the same soap and shampoo, Min. But what makes you smell this nice?" he asked.

Sungmin looked down and smiled, blushing. If he won't be able to stand up anymore, will Kyuhyun always do this to him? He likes the
thought but... He won't stay like this. He knows he can still stand up. He will stand up.

Kyuhyun scrubbed his back softly, playing on his smooth skin with the bubbles from the soap. He teased the older by putting some bubble
on his face and laughed at him. Sungmin looked at him sharply and smiled back widely as Kyuhyun immediately wiped the bubbles away.
Soon, he placed the sponge down and spread the bubbles around Sungmin's back, lightly, making sure his hand wont touch Sungmin's back
and started writing on it using his finger.

I...

Love...

You...

Sungmin smiled as he felt the letters on his back, was he able to read it correctly? Did Kyuhyun said I love you? He smiled with the
thought. He shouldn't be asking this, because he knows it. He was able to read it. He smiled. This is Kyuhyun, his most favourite
man, playful as him, unexpectedly sweet and is willing to take care of him. What more could he ask for? He had Kyuhyun, the person
he chose to fall in love with.

He turned to Kyuhyun with a smile. "I love you too."

There's those forbidden words...coming out from Sungmin's lips, it sounds so wonderful, even more wonderful than the sound of
his name. Kyuhyun smiled at him and kissed him on the lips shortly. He took the sponge again and scrubbed Sungmin's shoulder shortly,
He then focused on the neck and the other shoulder making sure he's using the same hand so he can wrap his arm around the older while
cleaning him.

They shared a moment of silence, with Kyuhyun scrubbing his chest. Sungmin placed his hands on the youngers arm. Stopping him from
scrubbing instead just holding him around his chest. He rested his head against Kyuhyun's chest and slowly and quietly let tears
fall.

What will he do without Kyuhyun in his life? What could he give to spend more time with him? What else can he do for this man?

Kyuhyun used his other hand to place the sponge down and hold the older tighter. Tears fell from his eyes too. He cannot hear Sungmin
crying, but he knows it in his heart. Somehow he believes he had made a strong connection with Sungmin that even if he cannot hear,
he cannot see, he knows it. He looked up as he tried stopping his lips from shaking and curling down.

Whatever it is that he could give to make Sungmin feel better? He wish he could give his own legs to him. He's nothing without
Sungmin and seeing him becoming weaker by the hour, he knows he should be stronger. But where should get his own strength? He, too,
weakens everytime he sees Sungmin in this state. He can't be without this man. What else can he do to make him live longer? Sungmin's
fall makes him think he's losing grip on the small hope that the older can still make it longer. What will he do?

He held Sungmin tighter and kissed his shoulder. They didn't talk. They don't have to. They can't. If they do, they'll be crying
more. Let their hearts talk to each other, let their bodies warm each other. They're both sorry for each other, both thankful, both
need each other.

Kyuhyun rested his forehead at the back of Sungmin's head. This smell is a small heaven, he'd be glad to have a dose of it everyday.
He doesn't have anything, but he'd be willing to do everything to have a dose of this for the rest of his life. A dose of this scent,
a dose of this skin, a dose of this man in front of him. He sighed and sniffed a bit before letting Sungmin go.

"Let's go. You might catch a cold if we stay longer." he said close to Sungmin's ear. The older just nodded as Kyuhyun stood out of
the tub to grab a towel for him. He didn't look that the older, his eyes are still in tears and he needs to dry himself first before
he could get the older out of the tub. He carried Sungmin and let him sit down on a chair and dried him off there.

Sungmin felt like a child as Kyuhyun playfully dry his hair. The younger purposely rubbed the towel quickly like playing with a
child. He slowed down as he kneel in front of Sungmin and looked at his purposely messed up face.

Despite the awfully messed up hair, he's still the most handsome, the most beautiful person he has seen. He took Sungmin's hand and
placed it on Kyuhyun's cheek. His gentle, soft and talented hands, he'll be glad to hold it until the end. He kissed each fingertip
and placed it down. He turned his back on Sungmin to hide his own tears. His tear glands seem to be too active recently. He excused
himself to get some clothes for the older so it won't be too obvious.

Sungmin watched his back disappear from the bathroom and reappear again this time with his set of clothes.
 
Kyuhyun domestically put on his boxers and sweatpants lifting Sungmin up in one hand to put the clothings in place. He took the
biggest hole of the singlet on Sungmin's head and smiled at him after wearing it on. While Kyuhyun is kneeling down, concentrating in
pulling his shirt down, Sungmin wrapped his arms around the young man's neck. Kyuhyun stopped what he was doing. He heard Sungmin's
heartbeat so close to his ear, the older's scent mixed with their shared soap is tickling his nose. He closed his eyes.

Another silence like that of earlier in the bath tub. Sungmin's tears fell from his eyes, streams in his face are visible. His sobs
louder. He's just so sorry that Kyuhyun has to do this for him. Why does he have to be so useless? Why does he have to be so weak?
Why does he have to be so sick?

Kyuhyun just sighed his own frustration away. He, too is just sorry that he can't do anything for Sungmin. What could he give to the
older to have those bubbly smile and sparkling mystical eyes again?

Kyuhyun wrapped his arms around the older's lower back, caressing it up and down to calm his lover's weep. Kyuhyun straightened up
and smiled at Sungmin. He kissed the tears away, literally. How else can he take those tears away from Sungmin? He would always
wonder now. He took the olders hand and wrapped it around his neck. Kyuhyun stood up carrying Sungmin in his front. The older's legs
wrapped around him. Kyuhyun looked at him meaningfully. Seeing those smooth legs around his waist means Sungmin's legs are with him
once again. He ignored it and continued walking back inside their room.

"I think I can walk now, Kyuhyun." Sungmin said as the young man continued walking with him being carried.

"Save your walks for tomorrow, Min. I like your legs around me." Kyuhyun's voice as if they weren't emotional awhile ago, playful and
has other messages.

Sungmin smiled at kissed Kyuhyun on his forehead. His arms still around the young man's neck. He stared at Kyuhyun. If he'll say
thank you right now, he doesn't know how Kyuhyun would react. How can he show his gratitude to him?

He crossed his legs in between Kyuhyun's waist making sure he's safe in case the young man might drop him. He smirked at the young
man and kissed him deeply on the lips. Kyuhyun lifted him up a bit more to make sure Sungmin will not fall down, making sure their
lips won't separate for a second. He responds back to the kiss that almost blow his mind instantly. Sungmin's lips will be forever
his favourite alcohol. Those plump shapy lips that always seemed to tempt him be it smiling or pouting. He ducked his head forward to
have more of the taste of Sungmin's lips and the older comply, tightening his hold around Kyuhyun's neck, his hand playing with
the younger's hair.

Kyuhyun slowly dipped Sungmin down on the bed and smiled at him. He stared at the older's flushed face and brushed some of his
fringe away. He won't get tired of this. He won't get tired of taking care of Sungmin.  He knows he won't. As long as Sungmin rewards
him like this. As long as Sungmin smiles at him like this. As long as breathes like this.

"I like seeing you below me." Kyuhyun said with a smile. A knowing smile that tells the older where this could probably lead them to.

"Well... I'd like you to see me on top some time." Sungmin said pointing at Kyuhyun's nose and with a smirk mirroring the younger's.
 
Kyuhyun chuckled with the smart answer. He kissed Sungmin on the lips and twist their body so he can be on top.

"You want to top me?" Kyuhyun asked and smirked again. "I'll let you do that if you promise me one thing."

Sungmin looked at Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun would let him be on top? Exciting. He'd like to know how well he can do to satisfy both of them.
What is Kyuhyun's condition?  What is it? He's most determined to do it. He's new goal is to top the young man.

Kyuhyun blinked and sighed. His eyes serious and searching.

"Promise that you'll live for me."

Sungmin's eyes widened shortly before looking down. Is this the condition to top Kyuhyun? He's... he's not confident.

"Take it or leave it, Min. You live. You top." Kyuhyun said, smirking below him.

Kyuhyun might be smirking mischievously but his eyes are hoping, expecting for the older to agree. Say yes, Minnie ah. I'm most
willing to be under you, in whatever ways... just live for me.

Sungmin did not answer.

*Author's note: i forgot to update last thursday night,
I was writing another chapter but I suddenly fall asleep and
woke up in the morning, i didn't know! >.<
Hi, rateakyuminfanfic, hahaha, if you're reading this chapter,
i'd like to thank you for recommending 5 out of 6 completed
kyumin fic hihihihi^^

Have a good night.^^