----------------------------------POV the night before they come to the hospital------------------------------------

Sungmin looked at his bed anxiously, it's the first time he'll spend a night with Kyuhyun. Will he be able to sleep? What if Kyuhyun
ask him to-? He closed his eyes and blushed with the thought. He was thinking deeply about the things that could happen in one night
and he couldn't help but feel really excited. This will be the first time...

"Dirty minded." he heard Kyuhyun whispered behind his ear. Sungmin opened his eyes widely. He didn't hear Kyuhyun walking out of the
shower. Was he really thinking about it alot? Oh damn, he can't even forget the dream he dreamt before Kyuhyun came to be with him.
The way the young man looked at him and the way he kissed him so hard made him blush right now. Sungmin saw the young man in his
white shirt and pants climbing on the bed. "Don't just stand there, Min, time for bed." Kyuhyun said patting the space beside him.

Sungmin swallowed heavily. What is he thinking about? Dirty minded, indeed he is. It's Kyuhyun, the last time he thought the young
man pulled him on the bed in his apartment, he cried on Sungmin's shoulder and slept after. Of course, nothing will happen tonight.
Nothing close to his dream would probably happen. It's just him and his... dirty mind. How disappointing.

Sungmin crawled on the bed and lied down on Kyuhyun's waiting arms. The young man wrapped him with the thick blanket and sighed at
the back of his ears. The older swore he froze shortly when he felt the warm breath behind him.

"Goodnight." Kyuhyun whispered softly and lowly like a melody that made Sungmin shiver.

"Goodnight."

It was past twelve and Sungmin hasn't fallen asleep yet. Kyuhyun is holding him, his back facing the young man. He can hear
Kyuhyun's low and slow breathing, it's warm and ticklish at the nape of his neck. Sungmin turned and now he is facing Kyuhyun.

He smiled. This is the very first time he'll see the younger's face closely. Dead closely. Through the side lamp, Sungmin saw
Kyuhyun's eyes. Lids are locked and seemingly dreaming. His eyelashes aren't incredulously long but they are as if twitched up. His
nose is not so straight and pointy compared to Sungmin's but it's not considered ugly as well. His lips, oh his full lips, slightly
parted and is very close to Sungmin's face. His skin, it's not the finest he has seen but that's what makes him manlier. His scars,
probably from those people whom he owed money before. This is Kyuhyun the person for him. Sungmin lightly brushed the fringe off kissed
Kyuhyun's forehead.

Sungmin has him. He's not the most beautiful man in the world but Kyuhyun is the best for him. He smiled with the thought that
they've faced a lot of challenges in just a short time and he still has Kyuhyun; helping, supporting him to get well. What more
could he wish for? Of course, he'll do his best to get better. Because Kyuhyun is here for him. He has Kyuhyun.

"Done watching?" Kyuhyun asked making Sungmin jump out of his thoughts. The younger moved closer and tightened his hug to Sungmin,
sandwiching him in his arms and legs. "What are you thinking about?" he asked with his eyes closed.

"Why I ended up with a not so handsome fellow." Sungmin said making Kyuhyun open his eyes.

And there Sungmin sees Kyuhyun's beauty. His dark mysterious eyes, cold and warm at the same time gazing at him. "I'm not handsome?"

Sungmin tried to hold his laughter. "Yup." Kyuhyun glared at him shortly and pretended to be upset as he turned his back on the
older and sighed.

"Sorry about that Sungmin sshi, I'll pack my things tomorrow and find someone handsome to look after you."

"Yah. Stop it! You're not that good in acting." Sungmin said smiling widely, hitting Kyuhyun in his arm once. Kyuhyun looked at him
sharply and pulled him so he's on top of the younger.

Sungmin blushed as their distance closes. Kyuhyun looked at himself in the older's mystical eyes. Which part of him is not handsome?
He wondered but he smiled and pressed a soft kiss on the older's lips.

"It'll be a shame if I ever become too handsome, Sungmin sshi. Imagine having a lover who's great in singing, intelligent and
handsome, that'll be too perfect. You'll have a lot of competition. I can't promise to notice you with a long line asking me out."

Sungmin chuckled and smirked as he listened to Kyuhyun's egoistic line. "So confident."

"That's the reason why you have to be thankful I have this face. I was made this way for you to have me." Sungmin smiled wider.
Kyuhyun watched him as he giggled softly and bit his lips. "What makes me wonder..." he said as his eyes turned gently and warm.

"How I ended up with someone as beautiful as you."

Sungmin looked down feeling embarassed with the compliment he heard. He felt Kyuhyun's palm on his cheeks. "I've always been so
mesmerized by you. I probably won't be able to keep myself away from you. Sorry, Sungmin ah... you have to keep this not so handsome
fellow by your side because he has decided to stick with you." he said referring to himself.

Sungmin was delighted to hear those words. Without ado, he rewarded the young man with a chaste kiss on the lips.

"Happy?" Kyuhyun asked. Sungmin smiled and nodded. Maybe this can get them somewhere.

"Good. Now sleep." Kyuhyun said as he moved so that the older would lie on the bed instead of his chest.

What? That's it? Sungmin rolled his eyes. Why can't Kyuhyun be less gentleman towards him? It's not like he's too fragile to be over-
protected. Yah! He sighed when he saw the younger smiling with eyes closed. He smiled and moved closer to Kyuhyun warming himself
more in the youngers arms.

"Sleep well, Sungmin ah."

This time, he managed to close his eyes and fall asleep. Surprisingly a deep sleep.

--------------------------------END OF POV----------------------------

"It's gotten worse."

Kyuhyun immediately crossed his eyebrows and straightened up. What did Lee Umma say? He's quite sure
he missed something there. He looked down and shook the possibilities that Sungmin might die sooner off of his mind. It can't be. It
just can't be. They just had a good time last night, talking about being healthier and recovering faster. They just looked forward to a
better day without anything in Sungmin's brain. They just spend the night in each other's arms. Kyuhyun wants to have more of those
night. This just can't be.

Lee Umma sighed and explained to Kyuhyun. "There was a big tumor in the left side of his brain. Dr. Park said it has disappeared after
the last few chemo sessions..."

"But...?" Kyuhyun asked. He knows it's only part of the news. Lee Umma wouldn't be this anxious if that's the only thing he said. If
the cancer is really gone, they should be partying by now. But Sungmin's mom looks anxious more than he could have imagined. Lee Umma's
eyes has lost its shine from the time they sent Sungmin in the chemotherapy ward.

Lee Umma sighed and remained calm although her eyes are warning with tears. "They found small cancers around his brain," she looked
down. "increasing rapidly."

Kyuhyun held his breath for a few sec and doesn't know how he should react. The big cancer is gone but there are small cancers
increasing How did that happened? Why isn't the doctor careful enough to see this? What could happen to Sungmin this time? Kyuhyun
looked away caught up by his own thoughts.

"Dr. Park said he didn't notice it before, it probably started spreading while they focus on killing the big one." Lee Umma shook
her head as if remembering the words from the doctor. She eyed on Kyuhyun.

"Kyuhyun ah, if you think you can't handle this, I won't stop you from leaving my son."

All those words are unclear for Kyuhyun but seeing Lee Umma's eyes turning red trying hard to stop her own tears, he still doesn't
know what to say. His mouth is dry. What should he say to the older woman? It's not like Sungmin will still be saved if he ever goes
away. He shook his head and cleared his throat.

"I'm not going anywhere, Lee Umma." Kyuhyun said strongly. He swallowed and blinked so many times before finding the right words.
"I already told you I want to take care of him until the last of his breath. I promised him that. I won't leave him even if you
force me."

Lee Umma looked down and sighed helplessly that Kyuhyun is so determined to stay with her son. "It won't be easy, Kyuhyun ah." she
said and walked away.

"I know." he whispered as he watched Lee Umma's back disappearing. I know

No, he doesn't know. But he needs to give assurance to Lee Umma that he is going to stay by Sungmin's side. He doesn't know what
might happen this time but he knows it won't make him leave. He closed his eyes and said a silent prayer; please let Sungmin stay
for a longer while. Please make him stronger.

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Kyuhyun sat beside Sungmin's hospital bed. The older asleep after the tiring tests he needs to undergo. Kyuhyun held his hand and
looked at him as he peacefully sleep. He remembered what the doctor told him and Sungmin's mom after the chemotherapy session.

"There might be small changes in his movements now... he won't have those headaches too much however," the word however made Kyuhyun
and Lee Umma straighten up. Those however kind of lines are usually the bad news. What is it this time?

"These smaller cancers are more dangerous than the first one."

"What do you mean...more dangerous?" Kyuhyun asked.

"Our brain is the centre of our systems as you may know. These cancer cells will destroy Sungmin's system. It will affect his fine
motor skills, it will affect his brain functions, it can even paralyse him."

"When you say it will affect him, what exactly do you mean by that? How exactly will it affect him?" Kyuhyun asked. He secretly wonders
why Lee Umma doesn't ask questions like this and let him do the interrogation.

"When I say it will affect his fine motor skills, it means he might have a hard time holding on to things; pencil gripping, chopsticks
holding, anything that our fingers and hands can do will be affected. You might not notice it but a simple drop of pencil is already an implication
that the cancer cells have spreaded all around his brain."

"Can't we do anything to avoid these? Is there any way we can save him?"

"I'm afraid the only thing we can do is to slow down the increase of cancer. Chemotherapy can still be an option but not a definite
solution."

"Not a definite-" Kyuhyun cut his words as he needs his patience with the doctor. He doesn't know how to continue this question and
answer as he somehow imagines Sungmin experiencing all that was listed above. Sungmin not playing his instruments might probably the
most upsetting thing in the older's life. Hearing from the doctor himself that there may be no solution is even more upsetting. How
can he give Sungmin hope if even the doctors have spoken that it is quite impossible for him to withdstand this.

The power of Lee Umma, which Kyuhyun wishes he has as well, is that she can remain calm after hearing all of this. He felt her hand
reaching for him, not asking for strength but giving him some. He needs it. He held onto Lee Umma's hand pressing it, asking for
more courage. Lee Umma just sighed and looked down.

"Mr. Cho, Sungmin's condition is not as simple as undergoing chemotherapy anymore, it can slow down the increase but it can't stop.
We can only extend his lifeline by doing this, but I'm afraid we can't take the cancers out anymore."

He closed his eyes disappointedly. The worst thing he could hear from the doctor is that there's no more way to save Sungmin up.
What else is there to do? He swear he'd give everything just to save Sungmin. But what is left to do? Other than make the older wait
until the day he dies, what else can he do?

Sungmin is still sleeping inside the room, the air is being purified by a nebulizer. Kyuhyun stoke his hand up and down while occassionally
placing it on his cheeks and planting a small chaste kiss on the knuckles.
He pressed Sungmin's hand gently. "What am I going to do?" he whispered as tears start coming up. He sighed. He needs to be stronger
now.

*Author's note: I was probably too sleepy last night that I wasn't able
to realise that I did not include the POV before the hospital last
night. I was surprised this afternoon to see a very short update from
myself. Oh you stupid author! *kick*

PS: There was a question whether this will be longer than FTR, hmm. probably
yes since I've already said that this fanfic will be the longest fanfic I'll ever
write.

This is my last update for the week. Have a good weekend everyone!!!^^