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Chapter 16

When Yunho awoke the next morning he found the bed empty, He looked around the hotel room to find Karam had been placed back into his crib and was sound asleep. He called out looking for Jaejoong finding the flowers had been placed into a vase that was lingering in the room. It was at the vaises he found a note.

I placed Karam back in his crib; You were both sleeping so soundly this morning I didn’t want to wake you.

Going to get my hair cut at a salon I know, they said they could fit me in if I came early,

Maybe visit my father grave, it will be a while until I’m back here again I should pay my respects while I’m here

p.s the Flowers are lovely, thank you but you neaten have you did nothing wrong Yunho Believe me

I’ll be back by lunch

 Sitting in the chair in the salon gave Jaejoong sometime to think things through. He’d be lying if he said his wasn’t upset but at this moment his mind was racing. He felt like he just needed some time out to himself just to clear his head. He sat in the chair for an hour looking in the mirror at himself, Thank god his eyes weren’t red anymore, he remember waking up to the flowers. He thought they were nice… but he couldn’t figure out the right words to say to Yunho. As soon as he was done Jaejoong made his way to the graveyard. It was only while he was walking around on his own he realized this place wasn’t home to him anymore.   As he thought about it being here was only enjoyable as he got to spend his time with Yunho and Karam.

During the drive to the graveyard Jaejoong felt depressed; as soon as the car pulled to the side he asked the drive to way as he wouldn’t be too long. We remained silent as we walked to the grave site. I was thinking until he reached the graveside. He stood in front of the grave for 10minutes before he knelt down and spoke to his parent. As much as he gave his father a hard time he loved him very much.

Jaejoong spoke quietly to the grave,” He kept his voice low as he overlooked his father’s grave. “When you died I felt lost... I didn’t have the courage to keep living here Appa. It was just a reminder you weren’t here for me anymore. I have my memories of you here… I have good memories of you…too” He continued, his eyes shining with unshed tears. Jaejoong placed his hand together. “Appa... you’ve given me so much. I miss you so much. I hope you are having fun wherever you are with Umma too, I know you are still looking down on me always. I hope I’m not disappointing you of a disappointment. You probably already know I moved to Korea. I’ve met someone he makes me happy very happy.” He thought for a moment. “Dating not easy but were working on it…. His wife died it hurt him deeply Appa. I don’t want to replace his memories of her Appa he loved her. I know he’s struggling with the idea of me and being faithful to his wife. I want to be there for him Appa… So much. I just want him to be ready for me.” He prayed in a whisper, “I want him to find the guides he needs. Jaejoong looked always only for a second. “Appa I realized you pain you must have felt when Umma died.” Jaejoong shook his head. “I’m sorry I gave you such a hard time over it I never understood your pain until now I miss you Appa and loved  you so much. “ He stood up. “Appa I’m going to head back now next time I hope I can them to meet you too. Jaejoong smiled as he stood back up leaving the graveside.

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When Jaejoong returned to the hotel Yunho was beside the pool with Karam. He went to the room first changing out of his clothes before heading down to the poolside to them. Karam squealed with delight when he saw Jaejoong Yunho turned as Jaejoong appeared with bags he dropped them picking up Karam held him as he kissed him. "What do you think?" He looked to Yunho and smiled which surprise Yunho. He sat on the lounger opposite Yunho.  He routed in the bag taking out something for Karam to eat while speaking to Yunho. “Yunho we just need to take are time and work this out.  We just need more time that all…..” Jaejoong eyes met Yunho. “I’m in this Yunho.” He leaned his hand over to Yunho hoping Yunho would take it who, “I love you and Karam. I want to make this work….” He smiled before turning his attention back to Karam on his lap. “Let me open that for you, sweetie.”  He took his hand back from Yunho opening the packet. “Karam my Appa use to always get these for me when I was young.” He looked to Yunho who had already moved to sit beside Jaejoong, “I remembered while I was at his grave…. Every Friday even if he was later he would leave them in my room for me.” Jaejoong Laughed. “It’s funny what you remember when there gone.” Yunho arm came around Jaejoong shoulder.

“You’re one in a million you know that……” Yunho spoke to him kissing Jaejoong lips when he turned.

“Thank you for the flowers…I realize I didn’t get to say it to you this morning.” Jaejoong spoke to him. “Don’t buy me any more flowers, it a shame I don’t get to bring them back with us to Korea, but I’ll enjoy them for the next two today.”

“You hair suits you….”

“Thank's I didn’t want it to short by…. It was a bit long wasn’t it…?” Jaejoong hand subconsciously when to the back of his head.

“You look amazing always…..” Jaejoong blushed.

“Here I picked us up some lunch while I was out.” Jaejoong handed Yunho a takeout box and handed it to Yunho. “Figured we were sick of hotel food and if I see another dessert tray you better hold me back. I’m going to have to start going to a gym when we get back. Yunho laughed. “Karam has Appa put enough cream on Yunho. I know you don’t like it but it better than burn skin. Jaejoong  pulled Karam hat over his face just to be sure. “Have you gone swimming with him yet?”

“We did have a splash around this morning.” Yunho looked to Karam.

“Great someone going to have the best mid-day nap, aren’t they …..? Yunho can you pulled the  Umbrella down  closer over Karam Yunho did as he was told. As Jaejoong placed Karam into his buggy, He took a book out from his bag and showed it to Karam pointing to the pictures. It was in French but Jaejoong translated to Koren   for the toddler doing every voice he could master. By the time he was finished Yunho and Jaejoong ate their lunch together. It was silent for a moment but Yunho spoke to Jaejoong. 

“I’m really sorry Jaejoong….

“You don’t have to be...

“But I am….. I promise I wouldn’t hurt you again and that’s what I did.

“Yunho

“I’m serious Jae…. I did it again I hurt you and don’t lie and say I didn’t.

“It’s not good to dwell on the past but look forward to what came happen in the future. Jaejoong placed his lunch to the side, taking Yunho hand in his. “When the time right it will work okay….” Jaejoong kissed his hand. Yunho couldn’t help but fell Jaejoong was fighting the feeling to be upset. He hid behind his bright smile. Yunho couldn’t help but gaze at him. Wondering when will be the right time. He thought it was until last night.

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Another sweet chapter,  I wonder what will happen with there relationship what do you think?

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