December 2014

Another end of a year, another awards ceremonies marathon. Practice, practice, and more practice had been Hyuna's daily routine since the month of November. During those times, the young girl would enjoy finding herself alone in the practice room after the general gatherings with her choreographer, dance crew, and 4Minute members. She had come past the days when she'd practice more than seven hours a day, whether she had a schedule or not. So those times she'd spend dancing without a break would reminisce her of the memories from her younger idol days. Reckon, she had still been young. This is what would happen when you'd debut at fourteen years old, even six years later, you'll still be young. Twenty-three years old Kim Hyuna and counting. About to repeat the same choreography for the nth time of the evening.

"Knock, knock?" A voice had reverberated from behind her. Distinctive from its deepness, despite its acuity, when it would turn into a laughter or singing, a voice she knew way too well, and she hadn't realized how much she had missed it over the hours until this very moment.

A newfound energy had seemed to have been injected into Hyuna as the young girl had run into HyunSeung's arms, pretty much hurting herself with the force she had projected herself onto him. But nothing had mattered else, but to finally feel him against her this way.

"Wow, wow, careful!" HyunSeung had received her, stumbling a few inches back. "I missed you too." 

The young girl had held onto her boyfriend tightly, tighter than it had probably made any sense since they had seen each other two hours ago, which they'd consider an actual short amount of time. They had suffered each other's absence an entire day before, while they had both been in Cube's building. Along with longing for HyunSeung, Hyuna had had the hidden will to reassure her boyfriend definitively after the shaky months they had spent. Letting go was something Hyuna had been taught to do in any circumstances. Right or wrong, guilty or innocent. Rehashing the past was never good, no matter how hurtful it felt to just ‘get over' it. And even though she had felt so before, if she had been to hold grudges against everyone hurting her feelings…This had never even been conceivable for Hyuna. A spiteful, shell of a woman weakened by her bygone? Why would she have accepted to be such human being while she could be the "forgivable, lovely and grounded woman" she was, as per describe by her entourage.

"Being selfish does have advantages, though." HyunSeung had once said to her.

"The single time you will finally choose to be it, will be the time a ton of people will turn your back on you and magically forget all of the times you were generous. That's why I don't bother with giving myself out. Because only a few people can actually afford me. And you should realize it's your case even more than mine. You're Kim Hyuna. To take or leave should be the only offer possible. Personally, I will take you even when that day comes." HyunSeung had told her assuredly, earning a soft giggle from the young girl.

She had agreed with him, to some extent. Being selfish did have advantages. However, Hyuna had always been rewarded for being a giver, therefore changing her ways had never appeared necessary to her eyes. Would she ever be a taker, even once, as HyunSeung had told her? Witness her own people turn her back on her? The idea had seemed strange to Hyuna at the moment. It wasn't that she hadn't known the person she had been that day probably wouldn't be the one from that time when she would choose her being over someone else's, however she had always wished to remain as true to the self she had been so far, and her loved ones had helped her just right to this day.

Seeing the best in humanity. That is how Hyuna had always lived.

"You're kind of chocking m-"

The last bit of HyunSeung's phrase had been swallowed in the passionate lip lock Hyuna had taken him into, not letting him a second to breathe. She had parted his lips hungrily, alternating her motion between rough to his tongue and small nip at his lips and jaw and butterfly kisses every inch of his face, concluding her demonstration of affection with one last tender kiss to his lips, parting them in need for oxygen.

"Am I, kind of choking you out?" Hyuna had panted slightly. This and the hours of practice she had just gone through, here had there been to pass out. 

"Is there something wrong?" The young man had questioned, scanning her face worriedly.

"Why would there be?" Hyuna had frowned, confused as to how her having kissed him the way she had, had been indicating something had been wrong. 

"I don't know. Just that…this kiss...is this how it feels like to win the lottery?"

"Oh." Hyuna had giggled at her lover's reaction, shaking her head. How much adorable could he be?

"Absolutely, nothing is wrong." The young girl had reassured, picking him in between each word. "I hadn't realized how much lonely I have been feeling lately. Your tour, my practice sessions, everything that has been getting between us. It just feels great, to see you, to feel you, even after only two hours away from you." Hyuna had said, feeling herself blush slightly. 

Opening her heart to HyunSeung still felt like something peculiar to do, despite the fact that she fully trusted him. Even after he had lied to her regarding Hara, which had been their worse argument ever since they had started their relationship. While it had tremendously upset her, she had known there had been only so far HyunSeung could go, and that would always out of a natural will to protect himself or anyone he cared for. Besides, they had been a couple for a little over a year now. They had still been discovering each other, learning to love each other in ways that would satisfy them both. They had at least been able to find the way that had bee  forbidden now. No matter what: No lies. 

"God, it's hot or is it me?" The young man breathed out, blinking several times.

"Very hot." Hyuna had cooed, tugging at his ear with her teeth, earning a groan from the young man to her pleasing surprise. 

"Hyuna, easy." HyunSeung had said, pushing her slightly.

"What? There is nobody in this building. What are you afraid of?" The young girl had titled her head, still holding onto the back of his neck firmly.

"Nothing. I don't think we should…let's go home then. You're done practicing, right?"

"Your family is there." Hyuna had snorted. Adorable, and out of his mind. 

"We can't do this here anyways." HyunSeung had laughed, as the young girl had caught his eyes swiftly shifting to the door of the studio. 

"Two rooms away from your mother's and sister's, is better?" Hyuna had looked at him, amused at the fact that he had troubled so much over such trivial fact. Here, in her door, in a hotel, in his car. Had it only been her who had thought it hadn't mattered in any way?

"I can't wait this long." Hyuna had bitten on her lower lip, embarrassed by her own boldness but unable to control it at the same time.

"Baby…Tomorrow, yeah?" HyunSeung had proposed, tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear.

"What?" Hyuna had obfuscated herself, pulling away from her lover with the most unsatisfied look she had managed to give him.

"Tomorrow. You will be free, less tired and I will find a way to skip practice." HyunSeung had pleaded with a wince.

"Are you out of your mind? You're supposed to..." Hyuna had paused in the middle of her sentence, remembering a vital detail of these year-end ceremonies HyunSeung had been the main character of, and still clueless