150831
#ScenariosWithIreneI scroll through her contacts and stop upon passing a familiar name "Uh...Irene? Why is Bogum's name saved here as BOGUMMY OPPA ❤️?"
"Oh really?" I question. "But you're the only one who knows your phone's password."
"Im Yoona? That pretty doe-eyed tower who has an appetite as big as Choi Sooyoung's?" I ask. "Why does she know your phone's password?"
"She also probably takes more selcas using your phone than you do," I point out after writing down Bogum's number on a piece of paper.
"But you're a goddess too! You're just not as tall of a goddess as Yoona is," I begin to laugh out loud.
"Pretty is an understatement," I tap her nose. "You are more of an ethereal being."
"Anytime, Joohyun," I smile. There are so many words to describe Irene Bae. But never enough to actually capture the entirety of her whole being.
"Maybe later. I have to call Bogum and ask him about Jessica's visit first." I'm already calling Bogum and thankfully he picks up on the third ring.
"Hello?"
"Bogum! Hey, this is Acee. Irene's roommate."
"Oh, Acee yeah. Uh, why did you call?"
"Irene told me that Jessica Jung will be one of the guests for the school's upcoming event. Irene doesn't want to tell me anything about it." I glance back to Irene and stick my tongue at her. "I was hoping that you would be able to tell me anything about the event! And if...perhaps...you could, you know, let me get to meet Jessica backstage or something?"
"GREAT! THANK YOU SO MUCH BOGUM, YOU'RE THE BEST!!" I hear him chuckle on the other line before saying that he had somewhere to go to. We say our goodbyes and end the call. I squeal happily and jump up and down on the couch. "I'M GOING TO MEET JESSICA JUNG I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!"
"OHMYGOD NO GET YOUR PHONE AWAY FROM MY FACEEEEE!!"
"Okay, okay, I'm calm." I try to catch my breath as I sit back down on the couch. I giggle again to myself, still not believing that I'm going to be meeting Jessica in a few days. "Hey, Irene?"
"Perhaps I should do something to return the favor. Would you like me to do anything for you today?"
"I don't feel like I've done enough for you..."
And so, I find myself once again in that "in between". A place where I know that I like Irene more than a friend, but at the same time I don't want to ruin the friendship we have. I could make a choice and take a brave step forward, really. I just choose not to... Because I'm scared of the uncertainty that it may bring. I like what we have now because it is something certain.
It's too important for me to risk ruining.
"Have I really done enough, Irene?" I ask, eyes searching deeply into hers. "You deserve so much more than what I can give you."
Comments