Hello, my name is Erika.

And as a human being and a woman I am a complete failure.

My parents, or at least father hates me and his favorite subject is me and how I do everything wrong. My mother tries for us to get along, but it really doesn't work. The thing my father yells about me the most is my love for Asian culture and K-pop, since he thinks it's a waste of time and doesn't take me anywhere in life. He used to say that I am acting like a little child, when I should be growing up.

I have often heard how people say I can't do anything right. And it's true. I can't do anything a woman should be able to do, or at least know the basics off. The only thing I can do, is clean, and it's not that useful.

I can't cook, only thing I can do is an finnish omelet. I can't even boil a decent pot of soup or sauce.

I love children and animals, but I can't cope with them. I want to, but I don't know how.

I can't even have my own children, for crying outloud! 

My so-called "friends" always laugh at my silly ways and mock me for my love to K-pop also, just like my father. The constant mocking combined to the never-ending lectures from my loving, warm-hearted father (can you feel the sarcasm?) equals to a one always gloomy girl who keeps to herself and cries about even the smallest complications.

I don't even look like a girl! I have always thought that I look more like a guy than a girl. I mean that I have curves and all that but my face... I don't even usually feel like I am a girl. I don't enjoy those lame girl-girl chit chatting about boys, make-up and clothes. Everytime I am forced in a situation like that, I feel like throwing up after the first sentence.

I have never been in a relationship. And when I say never, I really mean NEVER. Not even in one of those too-scared-to-even-hold-hands relationships, those that you used to have when you were a kid. No one has never even asked me out... Well what guy would like to go out with a girl that looks like a guy? Maybe someone who is gay...

My life, myself is just a shameless experiment of God which went extremely wrong.

So I have decided to take my own life away, since I'm not doing anything with it. 

Goodbye.