[Hannah]


 

He never left...He was there...even in my dreams. 

I thought as I drift to consciousness. He had hummed a melody in my ear. His voice, making me smile as my eyes fluttered open.

"Jagi..." He cooed, planting soft kisses on my cheek.

"Hmm?" 

"Jagiya~" He whined.

"What?" I glanced at him. His eyes were still half closed as he meet my gaze.

"Nothing..." He smiled and chuckled, before he pecked kisses on my face again.

"I love you...I love you...I love you." He murmured in between each smack of kiss.

I can't help but burst in giggles. He had trailed his lips down my neck, humming a sweet summon against my bare skin. Then I realized I was clothed now. 

It was an over-sized shirt of him that was on me. Though it was the only thing I'm wearing. I couldn't feel any underwear underneath it. But still, I couldn't remember wearing something before we slept.

I cringed. The tickles were enough. I slightly pushed him back, then rolled myself on top of him.

I regretted that move though, when it felt too awkward laying over his body. I notice he was now in his tank top. And I could feel a pair of sweatpants on his lower body.

He gazes back at me with a sly smile. I was at loss for words, tensing up a bit. A swarm of butterflies, swimming in my stomach.

"Y-You-put this on?" I stuttered, pointing my eyes on the fabric.

He continued smiling, staring up at me. And I swear I could've melted if this would take a little longer. Until his arms s around my waist. He embraced me that my head landed on his shoulder. His lips, hovering lightly on my ear.

"You were too tempting, so I decided to cover you up.." He said breathily.

I could've jumped on how the fluttering inside me was making me lose my mind.

"Yah!" I playfully slapped his chest. I propped myself up and peered at his smirking face.

I slammed myself back beside him, laying on my side. Turning my back at him to hide the smile that have threatened to spread out.

"H-How are you Jagi?" He asked, drawing himself closer to my back. Embracing me with his inevitable warmth.

"I've slept well oppa..." I reached for his hand and entwined my fingers through his.

"I mean, your-uhm-aren't you feeling sore?" He stuttered. The trembling in his voice almost made me giggle, before my eyes squint in embarrassment.

I felt my cheeks heat. "I-It's-fine.." I bit my lip, wondering if I said the right words. 

And obviously, I didn't. I heard him chuckle, hugging me more tightly from behind. He let go of my hand and traced his fingers to my side. Leaning in to my ear, he whispered softly.

"So.." He started. "Shall we go for round two then?"

All I could do was gasp silently. I slightly nudged my elbow at him, before forcing myself to jump out of bed. I turned to find him crunching in his stomach.

"Yah!" He exclaimed, wincing as he pretends he was hurt. I raised an eyebrow, placing my hands on my hips, waiting for him to finish his acting.

"Babo..." I teased.

He glanced annoyingly at me. "Yah! I'm serious!" He cried. 

I flashed him a knowing smile. Staring at him for a moment now, he suddenly shuffled out of bed. 

"Ah, that's what you want huh? Huh?" I heard him murmur, before I was aware of what he was planning.
 

I quickly scampered away. I've choked myself from my high pitched giggles as I ran my way downstairs. With him racing behind, I reached the end of the stairs before he finally caught me, securing his arms around my waist.

I shrieked in surprise when he suddenly lifted me up. Playing his victory laugh, he turned us in circles. A fast pace of spins that got me quite dizzy, until he lost his balance and we tumbled onto the floor, laughing our heads out. 

I was laying my back at him, and his arms were still around my waist when we went silent for awhile to catch our breaths.

Then I suddenly noticed something. I smiled crazily to myself, but he caught that. 

"Wae?" He asked curiously.

I sat up and turned around to face him. I crawled on top of him and looked him straight in the eyes. 

"You really want round two huh?" I said, sounding more of a statement. I pointed my eyes at the huge bulge in his pants. Then looking back at his twitching eyes, I saw him gulp in anticipation.

I blushed when he smirked and bit his lower lip, sensually inviting me on how his eyes were suddenly hooded with lust. Casually taking over my plans, I lost focus as his hands explored my body. 

Touching me lovingly, I couldn't help but show defeat when a small whimper escaped my throat.

He rolled us over. He was now hovering on top of me as I anxiously waited for his next move. He still wasn't kissing me, just staring at my eyes, making me more nervous each passing second.
 

"What do you want to eat?" He asked all of a sudden. "I'll cook for you..."


 

***
 

I couldn't help but smile, watching him dig furiously in his plate. He looked like he haven't ate for days. I giggled softly before turning back to eating.

Egg rolls, sausages, kim chi, soup, and rice. Too much for a breakfast for two. He was only helpful in getting raw food from the fridge and placing it on the counter. 

Then, after showing me the most adorable smile that almost made me throw my body at him, I already got it. Oh yes, he couldn't cook. He still haven't changed. As much as he's oozing with appeal now, he's still that clingy little baby boy I used to cuddle with.

"Hmm~ My Jagi cooks well!" The words were muffled. His cheeks, all about to burst out from stuffing too much food in his mouth.

"I'd love to wake up with this everyday. As much as I'd love to wake up with YOU everyday." He flashed me a smile that reached his eyes. I smiled back at him, but it soon faded out.

"Oppa.." I said. He turned at me with a questioning look. "You know I should live at my house right?" 

His face went blank. "Mwo?" He asked, before drinking a glass of water to speak properly.

"I won't let you." He said firmly. "It's like I'm tossing you back to that jerk again." 

His expression stiffened and his fists balled. Watching him glare at a vacant space, I worriedly thought of what to say.

"I'm sure he won't show himself to me anymore. And, I'm going to resign on their company and work somewhere else." I explained. "Also, I couldn't stay here with you."

"Why not?" He turned at me. Concern spreading on his face.

I sighed and placed my hands on top of his fist, smiling reassuringly. "Because you still have a wonderful career to turn back to." 

"Your not planning to hide for the rest of your life, aren't you?" I continued. 

"I-I'm not.." He defended. "I'm just waiting for my members to come back. They're on their way, actually.."

I nodded, satisfied. "Great. So, I'll have to prepare myself for leaving now." I smiled at him before I stood up to head to the bathroom.

"Wait..." He called out. I stopped on my tracks and heard him walk to me. He grasped my arm and turned me around to face him.

He stared deep in my eyes. The pleading look on his face made my heart ache. 

"You're not leaving me again aren't you?" He asked. "You're not trying to get rid of me, right? We're now back together. We will stay like this until the end right?"

I was speechless for a moment. His trembling voice told me how scared he is for something he was sure of, yet it seemed untrusting. 

I forced a small laugh, trying to hide the quivering in my eyes. I don't know, but I felt like crying.

"Yah!" I punched his chest playfully. "You think I'll be able to leave you now? I even want to lock you up in my room forever!" 

I was laughing at my own joke when he suddenly hugged me. I was caught in surprise when he held me so tight, like he had just passed a certain kind of death. 

"I just... I-I think I couldn't live anymore if I lose you again, Jagi.." He whispered. "So please...please promise me you won't leave me again."

My chest felt like it was being torn apart. Hearing him like this, I was mad at myself for causing too much pain to him in the past.

I leaned back to draw his face in front of me. I cupped his cheeks, making him look straight in my eyes. I could notice tears, glistening in his tear-ducts.

"I won't...I promise..." I said it crystal clear, looking at him with compassion, making my eyes speak together with my words.

I smiled, before I found myself closing in the space between us. Until our bodies were pressed against each other, and our lips collided like it was the only thing that kept us breathing. And it felt like it was. 

I know he was the only thing that matters to me now. Even back to those times when he still doesn't know I exist, back when I was suffering from a kind of love that I thought couldn't be more than an unrequited thing.

I have loved him for such a long time. It's the reason why I could do everything just for him. Even the things that I knew could hurt me in the most fatal way, I could...

Because my love for him is like a promise...

To the eyes of others, it was broken several times before. But for me, it never did, because it's been living in me, from the very second it started, to the undoubted brink of the present, until the blockade of mysteries in the future.

"I love you Lee Taemin." 

Those will be the words I'll keep on hearing from my lips...till the very end...