Once Key left i went downstairs my eyes raw from crying. I slipped on my shoes and left the house. It was growing dark out so many people shouldn't be out, i walked to the park with my head down tears still stinging my eyes. "Yah isnt that her?!" Someone shouted, i turned around seeing a group of guys running toward me my eyes got wide and i took off running "come back here!!" One yelled but i only picked up speed running as fast as my legs would take me. I heard them getting closer oh no oh no i thought my heart racing. I felt arms grab me and pull me into the darkness i looked up, it was him he covered my mouth with his hand and put a finger to his lips signaling me to stay quiet, aftera few minutes he checked around seeing that the coast was clear and released me. He stared down at me "are you okay?" He asked in a soft voice i slowly nodded and moved away from him "i didnt need your help" i looked away. "Sure as hell looked like you did. Just say thank you and get it over with" he lifted my face up "you've been crying. Why? Because of those guys?" I shook my head "its none of your business, thank you for helping me but i have to go" i started to walk away but he pulled me back making me fall against his chest. "My names Jongup. There now we know each other" he smiled. I shoved him back "we dont know each other, you know nothing about me," i said tears threatening to fall. He finally let me go watching after me, i knew he was following me but i didnt have the strength to keep pushing him away. I went inside my house Minho was sitting on the couch he looked up and saw me. He rushed over to me grabbing my face. "Youve been crying again.." i couldn't hold it in any longer. "Its been two years Minho. Why does it stilk hurt this bad" i sobbed. He held me in his arms and rubbed my back. "I dont know Jia, they said time heals everything, it doesnt help if you keep beating yourself up over it" he said softly. "I do, ITS MY FAULT HES GONE!!" I lashed out, Minho tried to shush me but it didnt work "everyone blames me, i know it, you know it. If it wasnt for me Jonghyun would still be here" the tears wouldn't stop "Minho do you know how much i hurt? I wake up everyday knowing im the reason for his death. I loved him so much and he was just gone. I HELD him in my arms as he died. We had a fight over something stupid and i ran across the street and Jonghyun being Jonghyun always ran after me, but didnt check for cars and got hit. If only i didnt get mad at him" i sobbed loudly, Minho stared at me not knowing what to say. "Noona?" Taemin called his voice shaky. I looked up at him "Noona dont cry" he ran over to me and hugged me, but i couldn't stop. My body shook but he held on tighter. "Stop crying its not your fault you didnt know that it would happen how could you?" Minho picked me up in his arms and carries me uo to my room laying me on my bed. What i didnt know was that Jongup was outside and heard everything. 'Ill help you get over him, ill help stop your pain, i promise Jia' Nongup thought as he stared up at mynow lit up room