Author's Note:

I'm sorry to this is my second/third thing posted since I came back , but you know how you just have things that upset you or make you sad or just have things that you want to share with the world.  I'm just going to do it once a week. 

My Life !!

Okay, so as most of you know I was really sick for a very long time. I'm still sick, but now I'm "stable enough" to be at home. So since my doctor require I take like 1 billion pills a day, I have to eat a ton and I'm gaining a lot of weight. My mom doesn't want me to exercise because of my heart and I'm getting fat v.v

It hurts me to know that I can only eat right and not exercise. I love to exercise, it's fun and stress reducing and boy am I stressed out right now. I weigh 74kgs now when my goal is to weigh 56.8kg. Why is life so bad to me? What did I do to deserve this? Why? I'm being supervised like I'm a two year old near a pool or a mouse that's running past a falcon's nest. I just want to be a healthy weight and model for a few years, but I'm constantly gaining weight. I don't know what to do TT.TT it's depressing and stressing me all the way out...

Anything new with my lovely subbies?