T.O.P's "Act Like Nothing's Wrong"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mtrhS3wROvM&feature=related

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Ji was due to leave in a couple of months. Suenghyun had only those 60 days to convince her to stay. He watched as the twins grew in a matter of 5 months and was in awe of them. Unfortunately, he couldn't get anywhere near them because the others, especially Jiyong, would always hover around them, making funny faces, and babbling noises, and gush over how cute they were. The members of DBSK, and SHINee, as well as Boa made their rounds to visit when ever they could, and today was no exception.

Ji walked out the bathroom drying her hair with a towel. She picked up Saeryung and turned to Sooyun. "Let's go out for ice cream." She said and played with her daughter whose tiny hand had a strong grip on her index finger.

Changhyun felt left out and pulled on Sooyun's pant leg. "Noona!". he shouted. The twins were just learning to speak and were learning very fast. They could already name most of the objects in the house, and were starting to read Dr. Suess books in their native Korean, as well as English.

Sooyun picked her second cousin up and blew a raspberry on his cheek making the tiny boy giggle. Suenghyun could already see the features of himself in Changhyun. Hopefully he wouldn't grow to be as chubby as his Appa. Even now, years later after losing the weight, he was still worried about the weight returning.

Sae Ryung smiled at her Appa. "-Pa!". She waved her hands for him to hold her.

Suenghyun -for once- was able to hold his little girl without someone trying to take her for himself. "Hey Sae-Sae!" He put her on top of his hooded head and spun around making "woosh" noises. "Helicopter, helicopter, please come down, if you don't I'll shoot you now." He rapped.

"Bang, bang, bang, bang!!!!" Changhyun yelled in delight. He liked playing this game with his Appa and dongsaeng. Suenghyun then took Saeryung from off his head, and flew her around in a circle, winding up and down, his hands firmly holding her. Saeryung was laughing whole heartedly.

Ji smiled at the delight on her childrens' faces as she sat down and looked on. She was glad that Suenghyun was trying to be a father to his children. She wished that her parents were as involved in her and Jae's life when they were kids.

Changhyun wanted to play as well. Sooyun relinquished her hold of Changhyun to Suenghyun. Now the kids were being held under his arms and spun around twice as fast. Suenghyun staggered to the couch trying to keep his balance.

Ji grinned and bit her lip. 'Why can't I be in his arms?' She shook her head to eradicate that fantasy. "How are things with Jiyong?"

"I can't really complain. But he seems... I don't know... a little distant. Like his mind is somewhere else."

"Maybe he wants kids." Ji grinned as Sooyun became red in the face.

"Omo..." She let out a chuckle. "Ummm I don't think so." She wasn't going to tell anyone that Jiyong had been desiring her lately. She figured it was because he'd been working on a new single, along with Taeyang, and missed her. She wanted to hear it -the others as well- but he wouldn't let them until he thought that it was perfect.

Just then, Jiyong burst into the apartment after a long day of recording. He took the babies from Suenghyun and smiled. "How are my dongsaengs today?"

"Hi Jiyong Appa!" the twins chorused. They had taken to calling the other members of Big Bang, SHINee, and DBSK by their first names and adding Appa at the end. The girls of Yin Yang and Boa were also called Omma after their first names as well.

Suenghyun couldn't suppress a sigh. Jiyong was always playing with the twins as well as the other guys. How was he going to convince Ji that he wanted to be in his childrens' lives with everybody taking away his chance to be involved. He guessed that she'd have to at least trust and like him first. Not to mention that he'd have to get over his aversion of her. She was not only like his mother in personality, but she reminded him of his ex. He would've liked Ji initially beyond the physical if she weren't so clingy. He'd think that by having the same career and being in a group, that she would understand that he needed space. Who wouldn't need space when you spent your life 24/7 with 3-4 other people?

Ji hugged all but Suenghyun and thanked them for being there to babysit the twins while she went on a date. When Ji walked out to go to her room, Yoochun felt that it was time to discuss something important with the members of Big Bang. "Taeyang, Jiyong, Daesung, and Suengri dongsaeng." the boys looked up at the mention of their names. "Suenghyun hyung?" Yoochun nodded his head towards one of the bedrooms. Boa got up and followed them as well. Her brother had asked her to participate in what he was about to say, and boy did he need all the help he could get.

Boa sighed and bit her lip. "There's something about the twins' past that you guys need to know." Boa turned towards Taeyang and Suenghyun "Trust me, if they had their way, you guys would never know." Boa said and waited for Yoochun to start.

Yoochun told them the same information that they'd received from Taemin a year earlier. The boys' reactions were no different from their own at the discovery of the molestation of Jae and Ji by their step appa. Suenghyun now felt guilty for calling her a , and more. She didn't receive any love from her own parents, and the first man she tries to receive love from treats her less than dirt. He was repeating his parents' actions and it made him sick.

Just that moment, Ji stuck her head in the doorway. "I'm going out now. Bye Oppa's! Bye Unnie!" she smiled as she left the apartment.

"How can she smile after that?" Daesung whispered as soon as she was out the door.

"Perserverance... and determination to prove the nay-sayers wrong." Yoochun studied every face, especially Suenghyun's. He looked very pensive.

"Wow... Jae would have never told me anything. Not even after all this time..." Tae looked down at the hardwood floor feeling as if he'd been er punched in the gut. "I... need to... take some time to think." The others nodded in agreement and left the room, their steps a little heavier than when they'd entered. Suenghyun was the only one left in the room. He grabbed his notebook and wrote his thoughts down in the form of song. When he saw that the recording studio in the apartment was unoccupied, he went inside, hooked up the instrumental he needed, and got going...
 

Am I supposed to laugh...
as if nothing's wrong
Each day passes by...
as if nothing's wrong

Hey, I haven't called you in awhile.
I just called to say I'm sorry,
and for that I'm even more sorry
Honestly, I don't have anything to say,
So I'm just babbling
I was wondering how you have been
"What do you want? You're drunk again aren't you?"
I don't want to hear it again
so I try hard to sound okay
You've become mute on the other side
Because of the random things I'm saying

What's so great about my crooked pride
(I want to run to you but still...)
It's so hard,but i try to act cool,
as if nothing's wrong
(If I could get rid of this affection
If I could get rid of this hatred)
Ma dear do you know you're all i have
I realized too late i'm sorry ma boo...

Am I supposed to laugh...
as if nothing's wrong
Each day passes by...
as if nothing's wrong

As if nothing's wrong
As if nothing's going on...
Memories of you I once tried to erase
Are starting to grow on me.

I need you, come back
I want to tell you truthfully
My heart's heavy fallin
Where are you
I can never forget our first date(Why?)
Your birthday is still marked on my calendar
Oh no I don't believe
People are saying my laughter has died
There was a familiarity like long lost friends
We used to talk on the phone all night
How we have so many things to say back then
How are you doing
The promises I weren't able to
keep still clings to my heart
I worry about you a lot
I wonder if you stay awake at night like I do
and I feel sorry once again

You said it yourself
"You're too mean"
What's the problem?
I'm still trying to figure things out
Like an idiot my regrets came too late
(Where you at?)
If you leave what am I supposed to do?

Am I supposed to laugh...
as if nothing's wrong
Each day passes by...
as if nothing's wrong

As if nothing's wrong
As if nothing's going on...
Memories of you I once tried to erase
Are starting to grow on me.
You're not different from the other guys
Why are you talking back everything you said before
Your future was more important to you
I did everything your way.
What do you want from me now?

If I say it I'll be the bad guy.
Why don't you just call me a liar
I'll hang up now and pretend I didn't hear that

You don't know the nights
I've spend contemplating
You're crying because I say "Goodbye"
This song ïsn't even half of my sorrow... x2

Act Like Nothing's Wrong
Choi Suenghyun aka T.O.P

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A/N: seems like Suenghyun has more appreciation for Ji now. Will he let her leave with his children in tow? A hope I don't write that he does...