Breakdown
Hopeless"Changmin!" Yunho yelled. He tried to hide his panic. Honestly, he couldn't tell how successful he was at the moment. "Snap out of it, Changmin."
Changmin violently jerked away from Yunho's touches. Yunho looked at the maknae with wide eyes. "Please..." the younger one begs as his eyes stare past Yunho again, making the leader shudder as events from last night filled his head again. "D-don't," he continued to beg as tears spilled down his now colorless face. "Don't hurt me. Please don't." Changmin brought his knees to his chest and began pulling at his hair.
"Changmin," Kangta said as he placed his hand on Changmin's shoulder, only to have the younger one shy away from it. Kangta held up his hands as if he was surrendering. "Okay. I won't touch you," he promised in a low voice. "But I need you to listen to us, okay?"
Changmin shook his head, but Yunho and Kangta wasn't sure if that was a response to their pleas or if Changmin was still stuck in his head.
Yunho could feel his breath becoming faster and faster, as if his lungs were closing up. Oh God. Oh God, he kept chanting in his head. Changmin was having a panic attack and Yunho couldn't help but feel lightheaded.
"Yunho," Kangta said in a worried voice at the state Yunho was in. Kangta grabbed him by the shoulders and gently shook him. "Yunho. Listen to me," he commanded in a firm voice, which was surprising seeing how anxious he felt as well. He couldn't blame Yunho for having a possible meltdown.
"Ch-Changmin," Yunho said as he looked desperately to Changmin, whose violent wheezes had increased.
Kangta swallowed. "I know," he quickly said. "Listen. I need you to calm down. You can't help Changmin if you're like this."
Yunho heard Kangta's words and knew how right he was. He took deep breaths, trying to get his crazy breathing under control, allowing Kangta to rub circles into his back.
He was really glad Kangta had been there to think for the both of them, because Yunho would have completely fallen apart if Kangta hadn't been there to set him straight.
After a while, Yunho nodded, signifying that he was now okay, and he and Kangta quickly turned their attention back to Changmin, whose pale face was scaring the two older ones.
"Changmin," Kangta pleaded. "Please come back to us. You're not with him anymore. You're safe at home with Yunho, remember?"
Changmin choked back a sob before continuing to cry.
"Changmin," Yunho spoke up. "Remember what we were doing before Hyung came over? I showed you the roof. Remember? I told you that you'd always be safe up there. Remember yesterday? You spent all day with Kyuhyun. The two of you listened to music, played games. Remember that?"
Changmin squeezed his eyes shut. Yunho only hoped that was just Changmin's way of trying to piece everything together.
"You're home, Min," Kangta added in a soft voice, causing Changmin to open his eyes and stare at the two of them.
At first, everyone was silent, staring at each other, waiting for someone to say something.
Finally, Yunho broke the silence. "Changmin," he said, hoping to see that Changmin was in the present. "Everything's okay. You know that, right?"
Changmin stared into Yunho's eyes before slowly nodding.
Kangta sighed. "I'm sorry," he apologized. Kangta knew that even though Changmin's panic attack wasn't directly caused by him, he still couldn't help but feel guilty for bringing that video over. Kangta swallowed. "I'm so sorry," he apologized again.
Changmin wiped at his face. "It's okay," he said softly. "I'm sorry. I...I freaked out, didn't I?' he asked, causing Yunho and Kangta to reluctantly nod. "I'm sorry," he said again. "The doctor warned me about that. I'm sorry for scaring you two."
Yunho shook his head. "You already know I'm going to tell you not to apologize," he gently replied.
Changmin only looked down. He opened his mouth again, about to apologize again, but quickly closed his mouth.
"Why don't you lie down on the couch while Yunho and I clean up all this fanmail, okay?" Kangta offered as he stood up to make room for Changmin on the couch. Changmin didn't protest, he simply laid down, curling up on his side, staring into nothing.
Yunho and Kangta quickly cleared the letters and put them back into the large bag. Yunho fetched the DVD and the letter attached to it and placed them separately. By the time they were done cleaning up, Changmin had fallen asleep.
Kangta tapped Yunho's shoulder. "Come on," he said, leading Yunho into the kitchen. Kangta grabbed the DVD and letter.
"I'm going to have to call Detective Kang," Yunho announced quietly.
Kangta nodded before giving Yunho a worried look. "I know," he said. He let out a large sigh. "You know what might happen, right?" After Yunho gave him a confused look and shook his head, Kangta continued. "You might have to see what's on that tape."
Yunho paled. He swallowed the lump in his throat. "Yeah," he simply replied. He ran his fingers through his hair. "I...I know."
That thought terrified him.
Changmin refused to give details about what happened to him. While Yunho hoped that Changmin would open up about it, Yunho wasn't sure if he was ready to handle finding out.
"The sooner you go to the police, the better," Kangta warned.
"I know," Yunho replied. "I should go tomorrow but..." he turned his head, facing the direction of the living room that was inhabited by Changmin at the moment. Kangta immediately got the hint.
"Kyuhyun would come without hesitation," Kangta reassured "And Yunho...maybe...maybe you shouldn't go alone either."
Yunho just looked at him. He shook his head. "I'll be fine."
"No you won't," Kangta argued. "Please have someone with you. If you do have to see that video, it's going to be hard for you. You'll need support."
Yunho sighed. "What did the letter say?" he asked, pushing Kangta's demand to the side for a while.
Kangta knew what Yunho was doing, but he decided to play along. He picked up the letter and started reading it again. Kangta swallowed. "I miss you. You left me even though I love you more than anything and I want you back. I think about you all the time. I know you're back with Yunho, but he won't take care of you like I would. Why don't you believe me when I say that I love you?" Kangta swallowed. "I'm coming back for you, Minnie. Wait for me. And next time Yunho gets in m
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