J’s POV

Since I arrived dong wook’s house, I went into my room and locked myself… I doing nothing but lay down on the bed…looking at the celling…the voices of jiyong, the image of he and that girl…the words he said… it’s hurt but I no longer crying…is it because my tears already dried up? Or I become numb? Or I become heartless? I don’t know…I feel like I should crying but I cant…. Touching my tummy…thankfully I still got him…is the only reason why im still surviving…

“J ah~ do you want some food?” dong wook said after knocking my door

I drag my tired body up from the bed….walking with my heavy legs to the door and open it

As I saw dong wook, I shake my head and said “dong wook oppa, I’m not hungry!”

“J ah~you haven’t eat since lunch!” dong wook said

I walk out from my room and look at the clock…it’s 11 p.m. yes! I been come back for so long and yet I’m doing nothing

Dong wook look at me with a worried expression “J ah~ even if you don’t want to eat, your baby need to eat!”

I look down at my tummy and have a slight smile at him…he is right! I shouldn’t be so selfish! I have a slight nodded head and dong wook know the meaning

He went to the kitchen and asked loud from the kitchen “do you want some hot milk instead?”

“nae!” I answered back as I sit on the sofa

He took out the milk and some biscuits “here you go!” he smiled at me

Dong wook always take care of me like my real big brother…I know he is really mad at jiyong and he always want to protect me…he walk into his room as I’m eating then he come out with first aid

“come, give me your hand!” dong wook said

I do as he said and he apply some kind of cream at my wrist…. We both keep quiet …suddenly he ask “J ah~ tell oppa, you still love him, right?”

“did that really matter?” I whisper softly but enough for dong wook to heard it

“of cause! You’re having his baby! You sacrifice your heart to let him ‘breathe’ again! If it wasn’t you, he might be losing his career and fame or even been crowded by the media… ” dong wook explained

“he already have his own life…” I have a bitter smile as I said “I could see now he is more successful and…and having a better girl beside him!”

“J ah, but-” before dong wook continue, we heard the sound of unlock…han byul come back already

“oppa~” han byul quickly run toward dong wook and have a hug…when she look at me, she immediately saw my injured hand

“what’s wrong with you, J?” she take a seat beside me and holding my hand

“just now we met the bloody hell bastard in the restaurant! He grab J’s hand tightly and so she got injured…he even -”  I cut off him by saying “I’m fine! it’s nothing!!unnie how was the arrangement for today?”

I immediately change topic and hoping they don’t mention about jiyong anymore….i really don’t want them to hate jiyong…he still the one I love and I cant blame him for all those things…it’s my decision and I knew it better than anyone that what I should face…

“it’s good! Everything is on the schedule! ”han byul said with a warm smile…I think she knew I don’t want to talk about the incident …she is always be the understandable girl