Guilt

The Apple of Dragon's Eyes

 

“is mine!” JiYong hold my hand and sit down with me…everyone get a shock and stare at us as if their eyeballs gonna fall down

“hyung, is that real?” seungri ask again

“do you think I’m joking now?” JiYong said “YoungBae, don’t you think you should congratulate both of us?”

I feel weird when he purposely ask YoungBae in that way and YoungBae seem very sad “oh~ congratulation !” he said it with a flat tone

“thanks!”  JiYong hugged me tight and said….

Seungri keep on bother us with a lot of questions so do daesung….i look at youngbae as he turn away and keep washing those plates…I look back at Top, he didn’t say a word and just continue watching his tv…but he didn’t touch on his ice cream anymore

“I feeling not well, I think I want to get back first!” YoungBae said

Top followed him and said “Tomorrow I have another movie shooting, I gotta get rest! Bye!”

Both of them leave and I feel so guilty for telling lies to them…

Late at night, I wasn’t able to get a sleep so I walk myself out of the house… It’s about 2 something in the morning… the street is so quiet…the cold wind hit on my face…I keep thinking of YoungBae and Top…they treat me so well and I lied to them… how long I have to live with this? How long I could get away from JiYong? Where is my future? What is my life will be?

While im thinking, I feel like someone following me….but as I turn around, there is no ones…

YoungBae’s POV

It’s 2 something but still I couldn’t get my eyes closed without flashing back the scene where they confess that they having baby… is J really love JiYong? How could this happen? Argghhh…. I get up immediately and walk to the balcony… I saw a girl look like J walk on the street… what she doing down there? I ran down…

J’s POV

I take a seat on the chair in the garden… I feel so guilty with all those things happen and perhaps due to cold weather, I was sneezing…suddenly I felt a warm jacket just cover on me “J ah~ you should learn how to take care of yourself!!”  I turn back and I saw YoungBae

“YoungBae oppa?!” I was kind of shock, he is here

He smiled at me and take a seat beside me“ you know, it’s very dangerous for a girl like you come down alone at this late! where is JiYong? Didn’t you call him along?”

“JiYong?! Hmmm he won’t care even I froze on the street!!” in my thoughts and I just sigh after listening

“why you look so sad?” YoungBae always being so caring…

“huh?” as both of our eyes contact, I feel  more guilty as I was lying and yet he still so concern about me “nah~ nothing! I’m fine!”

Suddenly he held my hands and said “remember anything happen, you won’t be alone! I  will always be here…you can tell me all your doubts!” at that moment, I feel like im going to throwing out all the truth but still I hold back

I avoid looking at him as I scare I will tell the truth “I’m really fine!” suddenly I feel nausea and cover my mouth with my hand again

“are you alright?” he said…he must be misunderstood again

oppa, actually i….” I feel nausea and straightly vomit out

YoungBae quickly held a napkin to me “I guess is not a good idea to stay here anymore… let’s go home!you don’t want sleep, the baby also need rest!”

I nodded…YoungBae help me go back to home… while I tries to open the door, JiYong open the door and ran toward us…

“Jagiya, where you been?” obviously im sick of his acting

“I’m dizzy…can we just go home first?” I tried to avoid answering him

“you should take care of her! How could you let her go down by her own?” YoungBae said angrily and walk back to his house…

As JiYong tries to help me go back to the house, suddenly I feel my knee weak and I was blank out….

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JessLoveYoung
Forgive me in not writing the fully version of as I don't know how to continue already... hahaha.. enjoy

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Yumi_horvejkul #1
I love your story but in the description, it's supposed to be PTSD (Post traumatic stress disorder). Not PSTD.
JiYong_JaGi #2
Chapter 70: This is nice~!! I love your story~ please update soon~ can't wait to find out~ ^^
YouSayYa #3
Chapter 70: Perfect *-* <3
iamliane #4
Chapter 48: please update soon!
YouSayYa #5
Chapter 68: Contiune !! Please .. I love this story ^^
beloved_yulvhie #6
Chapter 68: Oh my Gawwwdddd, wrapp it up please. I think it's almost end perfectly.
JessLoveYoung #7
HAHAH you are always so nice and sweet! I'm dying in your warm support! hahahah thanks! but tonight seem like my network having some problem! i cant really update! the only update i could give is on the in love with a gay man...sorry ya!!!
scorpio8995 #8
Chapter 65: Getting more interesting. Thank Goodness he came to his senses!!!! Yes I would love to check out your next story..... You cam most definitely count on me.... Fighting!!!
JessLoveYoung #9
Chapter 65: Dont get mad with Ji~ he will make it up to for J! By the way, I do write a new story which named "In Love with A Gay Man"...I hope you could check it out when you're free and enjoy the reading :D thanks for support!