“K-Kyuhyun… No…” Sungmin sobbed in to Eunhyuk’s arms as they drove further and further away from their maknae, Leeteuk looked in to the side mirror and he could see Kyuhyun pulling himself up against a lamp post and picking up the gun, Leeteuk’s heart was racing as tears flowed down his cheeks, he quickly found the stereo button and what ever music was in the CD player, he turned up the music but that wasn’t loud enough for the 2 sat at the back, Yesung sat there in a daze with Siwon’s arm around him but when he heard the gun shot he snapped out of it and turned around!

He was in too much shock before to see anyone give him a gun, he also knew that Kyuhyun wasn’t carrying a gun because in the church Yesung had asked him why he was giving everyone else a gun but not him…

{Flash back}

Everyone was either outside packing things in to the car or getting weapons from Kyuhyun –who was handing them out- Yesung was the last to go up to Kyuhyun but when he did the maknae frowned, looked to Leeteuk and then back to Yesung “Sorry hyung but I cant give you one…”

Yesung frowned “Why not?”

Kyuhyun looked down moving his gaze towards Leeteuk once more before looking back at his hyung “Oh… I see… Leeteuk told you not to give me one, it’s fine…” Yesung sighed knowing the exact reason why the leader forbid him from having a weapon and that reason wasn’t a complete lie

“I’m sorry hyung but if it makes you feel better, I won’t have any weapons either” Kyuhyun smiled and zipped up the weapons bag and before Yesung could protest the younger walked off.

{Back to present}

Yesung turned around and saw something he wished he hadn’t, Kyuhyun was now laying on the floor, blood splattered up the lamp post and across the road, he was now to far away to see his face clearly but he could have sworn he could see the maknae smiling, Yesung mind was to clouded to think, guilt was slowly taking over his body, Who? Who gave him the gun! Why couldn’t we take him with us! There is always a cure; in all the movies there is always a cure in the end! We could have saved him! “Who... I-It’s all my fault… But who…” Siwon who also heard the gun shot but closed his eyes and started praying for his late friend, could hear Yesung mumbling to himself again but when he got louder Siwon started to get concerned.

“Yesung? What’s wro…” Before Siwon could finish Yesung shouted, “Who gave him the gun!?” His shouting made everyone jump, they all knew who it was but they all thought Yesung knew as well, no one replied, Sungmin and Eunhyuk were both too physically and mentally exhausted to answer and were on the verge on passing out, Siwon and Donghae also stayed quiet not knowing and not wanting to know how their hyung would react if he knew, Leeteuk was sat at the front next to Donghae, he bit his lip and looked down as