“Hey, Kyuhyun! You don’t have to be that cruel!” Sungmin shouted back angrily but Kyuhyun ignored it and walked back up the stairs, Sungmin was about to follow him but Siwon stopped him “I’ll go Hyung… I think its me he is angry with” Siwon nodded and followed Kyuhyun up the stairs. The others watched as Siwon followed Kyuhyun to the bell tower, only a few metres away from each other with each step they take up the echoic stone steps, Siwon stops when Kyuhyun stops but then carried on when the other does, eventually they both end up in the bell tower, Kyuhyun refuses to look back knowing that if he does he will see Siwon and that’s not what he wanted.

Kyuhyun just wanted his best friend back, Ryeowook was closest to Kyuhyun other that Yesung and Sungmin, but now that he has gone… Kyuhyun hung his head trying to hold back the tears as Siwon took slow steps towards the maknae “K-Kyuhyun… I…”

“D-Don’t!” Kyuhyun almost screamed, keeping tears in was harder that he thought, it used to be simple but now it was like trying to hold back a river with weak beams.

Siwon took another weary step “Please… I think we need to talk” Siwon leaned forward and place a hand gently on Kyuhyuns shivering shoulder

“I said don’t touch me!” Kyuhyun swung around pushing Siwons hand away and now facing his hyung with tears streaming down his face, Siwons eyes widened at the sight, he had never seen Kyuhyun cry, at least not this much, they stared at each other for a while, Siwon hesitating whether or not to embrace his dongsaeng, but when Kyuhyuns legs gave out he had no choice but to catch him and hold him as the maknae sobbed in to Siwons chest, Kyuhyun was trying to hit Siwon and push him away but he wasn’t strong enough so he decided to stop and let out his emotions.

After a minute or 2 Kyuhyun managed to calm down and wipe his eyes dry and when he realised Siwon was still holding him, he pushed Siwon away again and shuffled towards the wall to lean on the bricks as he pulled himself together, Siwon looked at Kyuhyun with worry “Why? Why are you angry with me? What have I done wrong?” Siwon remained sat down and crossed his leg facing Kyuhyun, the latter had his back to the wall and his knees to his chest and his arms wrapped around his legs as he stared at his hyung, half anger have sorrow was lingering in the maknaes eyes

“I… I don’t hate you Siwon hyung…” Kyuhyun looked away so as not to get distracted from his feelings “It’s the idea of you still worship something that caused all this… Caused the hyungs deaths… The end of the world as we knew it… And forcing us to leave home…” Kyuhyun looked down at the chipped marble flooring before continuing, “Wookie hyung was my closest friend hyung… He was like my older brother… I miss him so much… And I know Yesung hyung is hurt more than any of us but his hurting has led Minnie to his side… So now” Kyuhyun looked at Siwon “now it’s like… Like I have no one… Eunhyuk hyung has Donghae hyung, you have Leeteuk hyung and now Yesung is being comforted by my Minnie hyung… leaving me alone…” Kyuhyun stared at his hyung for a moment before trailing his gaze away again, Siwon sat there unable to move, all this time he thought Kyuhyun blamed him for his hyungs deaths, he thought Kyuhyun hated him… but all this time the strong, evil maknae has just been lonely, he feels abandoned by not only Ryeow