I hated him. I hated him real bad that it hurts, hurts on the inside and out.  I'd rather you ignore me than leave me neglected, alone at the corner. Tears welled up in my eyes but I refused it to spill over. I was swept away from the face of your existence. Thoughts, like cars speeding past me leaving me with nothing but emptiness. The defined contours of your face etched in my mind. I pulled out, my cellphone, I wanted to hear your voice, but... I'm afraid you'll hurt me again. The pain you inflicted is already enough, enough to last me an eternity. 

The previous time I bump into you in the mall, I was like the air, you didn't even notice me. Instead, you were clinging onto another girl, your hand draped around her, smiling like there was no tomorrow. I loved that smile, but it's not meant to be mine. I saw your eyes looking at me for a second. They were filled with shades of grey.

My phone buzzed, I really hope it was you, but on the other hand, maybe not. I didn't want to feel anymore disappointed. A part if me aches to see you, to even hear you, but i cant risk it. I want to stop fantasizing about you but I can't stop, you're already a part if me, inseparable. Stop it! Just stop tormenting me already! I wish this were all gone. I just wish I never existed or that you have never loved me. 

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Hello!! This is a little something i wrote during the hiatus. I was feeling real emo so...yeah. I'll try my best to update all my fics soon. Im working on the next chap!! Hwaiting

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