Jaejoong’s POV :

 

Did I hear correctly ?

 

“Yunho-ah , what did you mean?” , I asked with fear in my voice .

 

“Jae , I don’t want to pretend anymore alright ? When we are alone , let’s stop pretending like we are some happily married couple . We are not . I’m doing this just to save my family’s company . God knows what will happen if it falls into your hand.”

 

I stood there , shocked . I just couldn’t believe how could he be so cold ?

 

Where is the Yunho I thought I knew ? Where is the guys who said wanted to be my friend ? Where is the guy who admitted I was his fiancée in front of Yoochun ? Where is the guy who protected me in front of the entire school ? Where is the guy who was so caring towards me ? Where is that considerate guy ? Where is he ?

 

“Yunho-ah ..” , I was just speechless .

 

“Look , I like you . You’re .. nice , I think . But I just know you . For like four-five days . It’s not even a week . Let’s be realistic . I’m a school’s jock . Future CEO of Jung Corp . I can’t be married to some nerd with no reputation or title or .. physical attraction . You do realise ..”

 

“Yeah I’m aware of that alright . But ..” , I cut him off .

 

“Good . End of discussion . Let’s go to bed . I’m beat .” , he cut me back , obviously pleased that he thought I understood him perfectly .

 

But no , I didn’t . I just couldn’t understand . Less than 10 minutes ago , I thought I had a chance with him . He was so .. sweet back then in the church . I just couldn’t believe this .

 

As he walked towards what I assumed , his room , he turned back around to look at me .

 

“I know it hurts and I know you sort of has a crush on me , but I just can’t accept you . You should be glad that I’m not some heartless bastard who won’t tend to you any possible way . I like you as my friend and let’s be just that okay ? Just that . So .. that means , I really don’t want anyone to know ..”

 

“That you are married to me .” , I said , voice full of emotions .

 

“Yeah .”

 

“Because you are embarrassed of me ?” , I asked , wanting to know the truth .

 

“Well .. It’s just .. You see ..”

 

“You are . Because I’m not some rich popular kid and I am no qualify to stand right beside you . You’ve said enough . But now , listen to me Jung Yunho , are you listening ?” , I said as I strolled to his way .

 

He nodded , kinda surprised with this new side of me .

 

“I am perfectly aware that I am no rich popular guy who have everything . No looks , no money , no family , no title , nothing that you have . You are my husband and I don’t even have you . But you know what ? I feel sorry more for you . You have no idea what you missed . You have no idea what you just threw away .”

 

He opened his mouth to retort back but I held up my hand to stop him . I wasn’t finished .

 

“You are exactly what I used to think of . Exactly . But then these past few days proved me wrong . I wasn’t . I wasn’t wrong . You are hypocritically judgmental ..”

 

“Hey !”

 

“What ? You just admit that you don’t want me , Mr Jung . Because my outside is waaaaaay off than what you want . What about my inside than ? I’m not trying to brag but isn’t my inside beautiful enough for you ?”

 

He said nothing .

 

“Yeah , I thought so . You think I’m so nice that you can do anything to me ? I’m gonna prove you wrong Jung Yunho . Oh you’re gonna regret it when you know enough about me . By that time we’ll see what am I going to do about you . Not the other way around .” , I said , confidently .

 

There must be something mischievous in my eyes that Yunho was taken aback . He narrowed his gorgeous green eyes at me and said , “What the are you talking about ?”

 

I shrugged and simply said , “You’ll see .”

 

With that , I made my way to my room . His voice stopped me though .

 

Damn , I was tired already with all this emotional roller coaster but I turned around nonetheless . I quirked an eyebrow to him – not that he could see it due to my long bangs and huge glasses .

 

“Where .. where are you going ?”

 

“To my room – duh ! You’re not expecting us to sleep together aren’t you ?” , I just couldn’t help but ask . Maybe ..

 

“Pfft no . No ! I’m not gonna have my morning woods with you next to me . No offense but ..”

 

“I took offense in it , Yunho . Look , I’m grateful that you still wanna be my friend . You are not treating me like some kinda slave or housemaid in those typical drama . You are not treating me badly . But do you have any idea how much you words hurt me tonight ? It feels like I died ten times already with your words and I can’t take any more of your bulls . You can take me as your friend and not as your partner . I get that . Because I’m just a school nerd with ugly appearance . But you don’t know me Yunho . You don’t . And I really am tired .”

 

Dejectedly , I stopped talking and turned back around . I just enter some random guest room and closed the door , leaving Yunho with one thousand and five thoughts .

 

Yunho’s POV :

 

What the was that all about ? What the hell was he talking about ? Was that really Kim Jaejoong ? Where did he get the balls to say all those stuffs to me ? I would smirk if I wasn’t too pissed .

 

‘.. Oh you’re gonna regret it when you know enough about me .. ’

 

What did he mean by that ?

 

I should have just let it go and shrugged it off , but instead I found myself repeating those words . As I walked to my room , I couldn’t help but hoped that Jaejoong would come out and apologize to me .

 

What for ?

 

For attacking me with all those words of craps of course .

 

But then I realized , it wasn’t his fault . Although I couldn’t understand most of the things he said about me regretting my attitude , I found myself with guilt clenching my heart . I was right , I was not some heartless bastard , I actually liked being his friend but he was right too . I was embarrassed to admit that he was my husband .

 

I had a very bright future ahead of me . Of course I need someone that I could be proud of . I wanted to bring my partner and showered him/her with my love in public without anyone looked at me like I was some kind of a freak . Showing off Jaejoong to other people would bring mocking laughters and sneers pointed at me . I didn’t want that . I couldn’t have that .

 

Besides , I’ve made my mind .

 

I’m gonna find the girl I fell in love with . I’m gonna find that baby girl in the picture at Jaejoong’s apartment .  I’m gonna find Jaejoong’s cousin .

 

I loved her . It sounded like I was completely out my mind , but I knew that there was something between us . I knew it . The first time I laid my eyes on her picture , I felt like I was under some spells . Ridiculous right ? But it was true .

 

Slap !

 

I slapped my own forehead .

 

How could I be so stupid ? Why didn’t I ask her name ? Of all things , I didn’t even know her name ! I was too busy asking ridiculous questions and concentrating on how to make her mine that I forgot to ask for her name . I wonder if Jae would tell me now .

 

I knew I hurt Jaejoong by telling him I loved his cousin . But what could I do ? I couldn’t fall in love with him . Not now , not ever . He was just not suitable for me .

 

I’m sorry Jaejoong-ah . But really , I deserve better .

 

The next day (Sunday) !

 

I woke up with a massive headache . It felt like I just drunk a whole bottle of JB and had with a horrible hangover . I laid down for a while and my mind wondered to the event of yesterday .

 

I got married to a nerd with a hideous appearance . A nerd who was a cousin of the love of my life . A nerd who dared to talk back to me . A nerd who talked nonsense .

 

‘.. Oh you’re gonna regret it when you know enough about me .. ’

 

What the did he mean by that ?

 

I groaned and got up and made my way to the bathroom . A cold shower was needed . I needed to get over these kind of things .

 

After a long shower , I went to the kitchen with just towel around my waist and was greeted with an unpleasant sight . There he was , facing the sink with hs back on me , wearing  baggy clothes on , huge ugly-betty kind of glasses that covered his eyes and long bangs that practically covered half of his face . I sighed heavily .

 

I thought about how he looked like yesterday , a tux and shades with his hair neatly combed . He looked so much better than now .

 

“Why can’t you just wear shades ?” , I mumbled unconsciously .

He turned around when he heard my voice and stood still for a moment . He just stared at me , hands clenching on a coffee mug . I suddenly remembered that I was a little bit underdressed and felt a little bit self-conscious .

 

But what could I do ? I couldn’t go back to my room and wear some clothes without him know that I was affected with his stares .

 

He shook his head briefly and took a deep breath , “What was that ?” , he asked me .

 

“Nothing . So how was your night ?” , I asked , trying to make a conversation .

 

“You mean my first night as a married guy ? Well it . I have to sleep alone – not that I got any sleep .”

 

I winced . I didn’t need to be reminded that I was married to him . I knew that . I knew that I just left my husband to spend a night alone on his wedding night . But hearing them coming out his mouth made me really uncomfortable .

 

But then , did you really expect me to spend a night with him ? To tell you the truth , I hated the way he looked like . It was an eyesore . But he was nice . Jaejoong was perhaps the most kindhearted person I’ve ever met . He probably had a heart and soul of an angel but life was unfair . His outer appearance didn’t even mirror the angel of death .

 

But he was still my friend . And I needed him to get the love of my life .

 

“Look Jae , I’m sorry okay ? For last night . I know I said terrible things to you and all and I don’t even have an excuse for that . I’m an . You are such a good friend and I don’t want to lose you . We made a deal remember ? No strings attached . We are still gonna act like nothing happened and after six months we are getting a divorce and you’re gonna help me with your cousin . Do you remember that ?”

 

He looked down and I could see that his shoulders were shaking a little bit .

 

After a couple of minutes , he looked up – though I couldn’t see his eyes – and smiled at me . He nodded his head briefly and left to his room .

 

That was it . No genius retorts or anything . I wondered what happened . I wondered if I said something wrong .

 

He was a freaking bipolar . One second he talked a lot like he was so damn good but next he was like some kind of mute .

 

I shrugged my shoulder and went to the coffee machine . I was trying so hard not to think of a certain nerd in this apartment . 

 

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Heyy everyone !

Again I'm so deeply honestly sorry. I wish I could have expressed more , but now I gotta run . 

But I have a question to ask you guys ;

YOU'D RATHER ME UPDATE ONCE IN A WHILE WITH MANY CHAPTERS AT ONCE OR UPDATE EVERYDAY WITH ONE CHAPTER ?

Tell me what you think , I'm up with majority . 

 

p/s : If you noticed , my writing style has changed a little bit compared to my last update , yeah well , I've grown up and changed . If you have any comments or complaints or ideas or feedbacks or anything , just tell me . I'm all ears :)