Seoul, 2 June 2008

I lie on my bed with a huge smile on my face. Oh... the pleasure of waking up without an alarm. Not getting up, I stretch out my hand to the side table and grab my planner book. I only have a recording later at 5 p.m, which is 8 hours away. I sit up on my bed and notice the light on my mobile phone is blinking rapidly. There must be a missed call or an unread text message. 

From: Ji-Yong

[Hey, noona. I just got to the dorm safely. R u sleeping? Thanks for taking care of my favourite scarf, noona ^^]

The text was sent last night. There's another one.

From: Ji-Yong

[I guess u're already asleep, huh, noona? U must be tired :( Anyways, sweet dreams!]

This one was also from last night, an hour after the previous text.

Eh? There's another one from him... This one came early this morning.

From: Ji-Yong

[Good morning, noona! R u awake yet? Wakey-wakey! Even tho' it's Monday, u should enjoy it! ^^]

I'm about to press reply when the thought of what happened last night occurs in my mind. I sigh worriedly. I guess it's best if I don't respond. At least until I can sort out my own feelings. I'm afraid I might take his better nature the wrong way.

I decide to take a shower and make a cup of coffee. Afterwards, I watch TV and cook lunch. I laze around and go to work when the clock strikes 3. Today I drive my own car; it's been a week since I last used it, and it's not good to let your car sit around for too long.

I arrive at the recording studio and record my part of one of the songs for our next mini album. It's called 'I Will Never Love Again'. Great; just describes how I'm feeling at the moment. "Please repeat," my producer's voice wakes me up from my thought. , I must've spaced out again. "Ah, neh. Joesonghamnida, producer-nim," I bow my head. "Are you feeling unwell, Ga-In ssi?" "N-Neh? A-Aniyo. I'm fine. I'll do better," I smile at the man. 

The recording takes much longer than it should have, due to my brain being all over the place. Gosh, this isn't good. Not good at all. We're having a comeback soon and I should pull myself together. "That's all for today. You've done a good job, Ga-In ssi," the producer says while smiling at me. I thank him and bow in response. 

"You should check your bag, it's been vibrating like crazy," the lyricist unnie tells me when I'm about to head out of the studio. "Y-Yeh?" I ask, feeling confused. "Your mobile phone. You left your bag on the table earlier, and it vibrated inside your bag so many times," she says again while giggling. "O-Oh, neh, unnie. I'm going home now. Thank you, unnie!" I wave my hand at her. "Mmm. Be careful on your way back. It's late and you're driving alone. Don't forget to eat dinner, ok?" she tells me gently.

i drive back home with trance music blasting through the car stereo, hoping that it would put my mind at ease. It may sound ironic, but maybe the loud noise can make me stop thinking about Ji-Yong. I really shouldn't be thinking about him, it wouldn't be good for me. 

I park my car in the basement, greet the security guard, and ride the elevator to my floor. The thing I love about this apartment building is the fact that most people who live here are those from older generation, so it's pretty quiet. And because there are so many old people here, the security system is great.

After taking a shower and putting on my pyjamas, I sit on the couch and eat the leftover from lunch. I turn on the TV and watch a late night entertainment news. When the program ends, Big Bang's Lies music video comes on. Gah... what is this?! Even the TV station is ganging up on me as well? I switch off the TV and go to the kitchen to wash the dishes since I've lost my appetite. 

I snuggle down on my bed and remember what the lyricist unnie told me earlier. I pull my mobile phone out of my bag, and true enough there is a number of unread texts and 1 missed call. I gasp when I see who called: Ji-Yong. He called me? Why? I checked the time of call and it was 6:40 p.m, right when I was recording. Good, even if he called me before I went to the studio, I wouldn't have answered anyway. I open the list of received messages.

From: Ji-Yong

[Good afternoon, noona! What r u doing? Do u have work today?]

2008-06-02 15:14 KST

Hmm, I was probably driving that's why I didn't get to read this.

I open another one.

From: Ji-Yong

[Hey, noona... R u working? If u r, have fun at work ^^]

2008-06-02 17:28 KST

And another one...

From: Ji-Yong

[Noona, why haven't u been replying? R u busy?]

2008-06-02 18:35 KST

And the next one...

From: Ji-Yong

[Noona, I'm eating kimbap for dinner, but it doesn't taste as good as ur kimbap :( Don't forget to eat dinner, too, ok?]

2008-06-02 19:55 KST

And the one after that...

From: Ji-Yong

[Noona, did u have dinner yet? I'm still at work... Soooo tired! Hur~]

2008-06-02 20:42 KST

And the last one...

From: Ji-Yong

[Ga-In noona, r u ok? Sorry I've been bombarding u with texts :( Pls reply so I know u're ok...]

2008-06-02 21:34

I sigh heavily. Man, what is this guy doing to me? Doesn't he know that I might misunderstand all his attention? I feel like crying right now. Should I reply him? I shouldn't, right? Voices in my head are going into a battle. I run to the bathroom and brush my teeth, as fast as I can. I should just sleep it off. 

As I'm about to close my eyes, a beep comes from my mobile. God, please don't let it be him again, please...

From: Ji-Yong

[Ga-In noona, this is the 10th text I've sent u since last night. I'm beginning to think that u're sick. U're not sick, r u? Pls reply and tell me u're ok...]

2008-06-02 23:58

Oh, my God. I start to feel a little bad. Why is he so worried about me? I'm a big girl, you know. I sigh and type a message.

To: Ji-Yong

[No, not sick. I'm ok.]

After sending the message, I fly off to dreamland.

Little did I know that I had hurt his feeling for the first time tonight...

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Author's Note:

Just passing by to say hi... HI! Kekeke~