It’s been two days since the day Yuri took care of the drunk Yunho, and two days since she finally knew the reason behind his pain..... Yunho haven’t gone to the bar since that day and Yuri starts to wonder why, not that she wanted him to come drown himself with alcohol again... it’s just that she felt so concerned of him.... The thought of Yunho keeps on bugging her no matter how much she doesn’t want to think and remember him, his agonized face, the way he wept on her shoulders as he held on to her body tightly and tugged on her shirt, his eyes full of pain.... those image of him kept on flashing on her mind no matter how much she shrugged it off...

It was another dull boring night at the bar with few people, an acoustic band and sad mellow music... Yuri’s busy cleaning and arranging shot glasses, she glanced at the far end of the bar where Yunho sat every night..

“I wonder how’s he’s doing now” she sighed to herself.... She went back on what she’s doing, too lost in her thoughts....

“A bottle of vodka please” a deep voice suddenly said, Yuri got stunned and jumped of her place with the shot glass on her hand almost falling on the floor... she looked at where the voice and there he is, sitting on his favorite seat still looking like a mess but he looks sober unlike the other nights where he came already half drunk and tipsy...

“Just seconds ago he wasn’t there and now.... Is he some kind of a ghost?” she thought to herself as she squared her shoulder, pull on a smile and walked towards him with his vodka.... “Here’s your vodka sir’ she placed the drink in front of him and stayed there still with her smile...

Yunho looked up to her for a moment.... Yuri stayed in her place looking at him with her friendly smile, her heart pound faster at his look... there’s a part of her, a tiny part maybe, that’s expecting that he will recognize her and even thank her.... but to her dismay...

“thank you” that’s all Yunho said as he removed his glance from her. He doesn’t remember her at all... “As if he can he remember, he was drunk like hell that time..tss” she muttered at herself and mentally hit her head. She turned and went back to the shot glasses she’s cleaning... She knows that only a very tiny, microscopic part of her expected him to remember her but... but how come she doesn’t feel good at all. She shrugged the thought off and focused on her work...

It has been over an hour and Yunho is on his second bottle of vodka and already drunk again... Yuri’s watching and fighting the urge to stop him from drinking..... The band is playing sad songs which doesn’t really help Yunho at all....

And I still see your reflection

Inside of my eyes

That are looking for purpose

They’re still looking for life

As the alcohol take over Yunho’s mind and body.... Flashes of Yoona’s smiling face started to play in his mind again, all those times and memories they shared together, her angelic innocent smile, the sound of her laughter, her smell, and her famous reaction combo when she’s annoyed.... Yunho chuckled remembering all of those.... there’s no such word that can explain how much he misses all of those, how much he misses her, tears started to fall from his eyes and he tried to suppress his sobs with his hand clutching on his chest as if covering the hole in his heart... He buried his face on his hands and drank another glass of his drink

I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing

With a broken heart, That’s still beating

In the pain, There is healing

In your name, I find meaning

Yuri watched him from where she stands, seeing him weeping again also pains her but how long will he be like this? How long will drown his self with her memory? with the pain? How long will he be this broken and act a drama queen?..... “this needs to stop” Yuri thought to herself and with a loud sigh and hands clenched into a fist, she walked out towards him half conscious of what she’s doing... She stopped just beside him and snatched the glass and the bottle of vodka from his hands and shoved it away.

“Stop this now” she said her voice hoarse, she eyed him angrily. Yunho looked at her flustered, he was taken by her sudden action but the flustered shocked look eventually turned into an evil deadly one, Yuri’s started shaking and she tried to swallow her fright away...

“What the are you doing?” Yunho said through greeted teeth

“Y..You have to stop now... You can’t drown yourself from alcohol for the..... rest of your life, th...that won’t do anything.... sh... she... she won’t come back” She made a loud gulp trying to swallow her nervousness with it, Yunho furrowed his eyebrows to her...  “You have to live your life.... stop wasting it with this.... You have to.... m... mo... move on and acc...”

Yunho stopped her with a loud  voice “Who do you ing think you are?! Telling me what to do my life huh?....  who are you?” he stood up from his seat...

“I.. I know what you’re going through.... I know it’s hard, it’s painful losing someone very important to you but... but you can’t do anything about it now... she’s dead and you’re not.... you have to accept and live with it” Yuri mustered all her courage

“DON’T TALK TO ME AS IF YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THE PAIN.... THIS  PAIN!”  Yunho yelled at her with his index finger pointing at his left chest “I don’t even know you.... you’re just a bartender in here and you have the guts to talk to me about my pain?!.... about acceptance? Living and moving on?!.....tss... You don’t know anything about me .... You don’t know how I feel and you’re definitely not the one who lost someone so... you don’t have any right to lecture me of your nonsense and just mind your own iness!” Yunho yelled at her with his piercing eyes and deadly glares.... people from the bar started to look at them now

Yuri couldn’t fight her tears anymore “I KNOW!!!! I know how it feels, how painful it is that you just wanted to die.... I clearly do!.... You just lost one person in your life... you still have a lot! You’re not the only person in this damn world that lost someone and are grieving..... stop being a drama queen and act as if God has forsaken you.... you’re alive she’s dead.... live with it!!!” Yuri snapped and yelled at him, she looked at the side and saw Changmin standing at the door looking at them..... Yunho froze in his place just staring at her.... She wiped her tears and turned her back, but after taking a few steps she looked back “listen.... you still have him” Yuri points at Changmin “some people don’t have anyone at all.... so don’t act as if you lost your whole word.... And don’t talk to me about pain  mister... cuz I assure you... that pain of yours does not live up with the pain I know” She then walked away leaving the frozen and flustered Yunho

It took Yunho some time to get to his senses back “Who’s that girl?... Why does she know about me?.... Why does she look like she care a lot about me.... and why do I feel like she understand me more that anyone could?” a lot of questions are running in his mind, he sat back at his chair looking into nothingness...

Changmin then ran to Yunho’s side “Hyung... what was that?”

“Just a nosy-I-know-everything ” Yunho answered annoyed “I don’t even know who the hell is she.... how dare her” Yunho started walking out of the bar “Let’s go min”

Changmin followed him, they hop in to Changmin’s car and left..... On their way home Yunho still pissed and curious about Yuri, he kept his eyes on the window looking outside..... Changmin glanced at him

“Hyung... you don’t remember her?” Changmin finally broke the silence

“who?” Yunho answered still looking outside

“That girl at the bar”

“she’s the bartender right? A nosy one” Yunho looked annoyed when Changmin brought her up..

“Yes she is... but.... you really can’t remember?”

“What the F***k min.... just say it! Do you know her?” Yunho snapped

“Okay...  remember the other night when got beaten up?.... well she was that girl.... the one who drove and sent you home”

“w...what?!”  suddenly it all came back to him, now clearer.... all the things that happened that night... She was that girl that took care of him, cooked for him and lend him a shoulder and made him feel a bit better....

“Yes... the one who took care of you.... you said you wanted to thank her whoever she is but... I guess you did the exact opposite” Changmin observe his hyung’s reaction, his mouth slightly open and his eyes looked blank

“wh...w...why didn’t you tell me?” Yunho asked

“well... I was about to tell when I arrived there but I guess I was late?” Changmin felt a bit guilty for not telling his hyung earlier “I also thought it’s not a big of a deal to you.... knowing that girl”

Yunho shrugged his shoulder and slouched on his seat “Yeah.. it’s not.... I also regret wanting to thank her.. she’s such a ” But honestly there’s this tiny little part of him that felt sorry for that girl and Changmin could see it... Yuri really left a great impact to Yunho no one ever dared confronting him like that and yell at him ever since he woke up from the hospital and knew about Yoona... no one... even his parents didn’t, wouldn’t dare....

“Kwon Yuri” Changmin mumbled

“Huh?” Yunho looked at him with confused-drunk-half-opened eyes

“that’s her name”

“whatever” Yunho then slowly drifted into sleep “Yuri.... Kwon Yuri” he repeated her name in his mind before totally closing his eyes.

"Grief can't be shared.

Everyone carries it alone.

His own burden in his own way."

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Too much drama..... lol

Well it really is a drama anyways...

but I will try and get over the heavy drama and write the happy parts...

Please bear with me guys... I now realized how hard it is to write a very

serious and emotional story....

I just hope I was able to interpret how every caharacters feel...

Sorry for the typos and wrong grammar....

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