Yunho slowly opened his eyes, the blinding light was the first thing he saw. He blinked his eyes for a couple of times until he was able to adjust to it,  he tried to move his fingers, his body felt numb, he then slowly turned his head on the side to look for people... and there’s Changmin sitting beside his bed talking to someone on his phone

“He’s still unconscious, it’s been a week now... Yes... we really don’t know how to tell..” changmin said on the phone, he looked at Yunho and saw him already awake, he immediately got up and approach Yunho “Hyung! Hyung you’re awake... are.. are you okay? Are you hurt?” he was panicking.

Yunho tried to lift his arm and slowly held changmin’s hand, he tried to speak but his throat is so dry that it hurt’s to speak “wa...water” he was able to say. Changmin immediately gave him water to drink and asks again if he’s okay in which he nodded in reply. Changmin went out and called their parents who came rushing in as soon as they heard the news, his mother ran and held his hand

“Omo, Yunho-yah” she cried in happiness. Yunho smiled as soon as he saw his mother’s face he knows how much she worried about him.

“Umma, Yoona... where’s Yoona?” he suddenly asked. That’s the only thing that got into his mind as soon as he opened his eyes, he needs to know if she’s okay, he needs to see her.

As soon as he asked about her, his mother looked at his dad and brother “ahh... Yunho-ya... she...” his mother’s voice started cracking and she held his hand tighter. From that look on his mother and brother’s face he knows something’s wrong.

“what?... why are you crying? Tell me where is she... is she okay?” his voice is shaking. His dad then went closer to him making his mother move aside, he looked at him straight in the eyes, then he let a loud sigh

“Son, Yoona’s gone” his dad said holding his hand “she.. she died on the accident”

He froze.....  It felt like his world was shattered into pieces, and his heart stopped beating for a moment... every word that his dad said echoed in his head.... “no.. no.. that’s not true.. she’s not dead” he thought to his self. “that’s impossible”

He looked at his mother with a pleading look hoping for her to tell him that it’s not true that Yoona is still alive and okay but.... she just kept on crying, then his eyes catch Changmin’s who’s trying his best to stop tears from falling in his eyes...

“no... you’re lying right?” he grip his dad’s arm tight “please tell me that’s not true... please dad!” he yelled.. he then tried to get up and remove everything that is attached on his body... “This can’t be true... she’s not dead.. I... I will go and see her” he said as he tried to get up. His dad and Changmin tried to stop him and calm him down but he keeps on resisting

“Hyung please stop it, you will hurt yourself”

“Let go of me I need to see Yoona!” He cried loud “I need to see her now” he started sobbing so hard “Tell me she’s not dead! She can’t be dead!.... Yoona!” he keeps on shouting.

Doctors and nurses entered the room and inject something to him to sedate him and make him calm down. He then slowly lost his energy and felt weak, they laid him back to his bed, his mother holding his hand. He looked at his mother with his eyes full of agony and pain.

“Umma... jaebal” he pleaded as he was slowly closing his eyes losing his consciousness, tears still kept on falling from his eyes

“I’m sorry” his mother cried wiping the tears off of Yunho’s face. There’s nothing more painful for a mother to see her child suffering like that, looking at her with such agonizing look yet she couldn’t do anything for him. She kept on crying knowing and feeling the pain his son is experiencing.

As soon as he closed his everything flashed back in his mind“Yoona, can I keep that promise? Can I officially be your boyfriend now?”  “I love you Oppa”  “Will You marry me and spend every morning of your life drinking this coffee together with me?”  “Forever” Everything went back into his mind from the day she agreed to be his girlfriend...... until the day she agreed to marry him... He can clearly see everything, her pretty face, her heartwarming smile, her soothing laugh, the way she pouts her lips and does her combo, the way she calls him Oppa.... Everything

After hours of sleep Yunho woke up again, he’s not crying anymore and he did not try to get up and force himself to walk out of the room, he didn’t even looked and asked about Yoona yet he just opened his eyes stared in the ceiling looking into nothingness, he’s not speaking at all. His mother approached him

“Yunho, do you want to eat something?” she asked brushing his hair with her fingers, he just shook his head without looking at her “you have to eat so you can gain your energy back, do you want umma to cook for you?” she asked again full of concern, Yunho looked at her, his eyes full of agony

“Umma, is this really happening? Did she really left me?” he asked with a toneless voice, his expression is really hard to read, you know he’s really in great pain but he’s face is so blank that you would just choose to see him break down and cry out loud like what he did earlier. His mother couldn’t answer him so he closed his eyes for a moment and took his gaze back to the ceiling “I don’t want to eat.. I want to go home” he mumbled

“Sure darling.. we will go home as soon as the doctors allow us to... but for now you have to eat and gain your energy back so they could make you go okay?” his mother answered

Yunho stayed in the hospital for a few more days. As day pass his family started to worry about him, he’s always quiet, he never cried again, his eyes are always blank, he never looked for Yoona again and never asked about the details and what happened after their accident, it’s like he’s living in his own dark world, but they can clearly see in his eyes the pain he is going through, it’s like he’s just living for the sake of living but his senses, his soul left out his body.

He was discharged from the hospital and brought home to his parents house, they know he couldn’t go back to his house, that house full of Yoona’s memories. As soon as he entered their house he went directly in his room and lock himself inside. He laid on the bed, extending his arms out, and closed his eyes, as soon as he shut his eyes closed the image of Yoona flashed into his mind

“How could you leave me? Aren’t we going to start a family and make beautiful children?” he said with his shaky voice, now tears started to fall from his eyes.. he turned his head on his side and there Yoona is lying on his arm looking at him seriously “didn’t you promise me forever? How do you expect me to live my life now?” his asked with his grieving eyes “God I miss you soo much!” he closed his eyes and let a loud heavy sigh, when he opened it again Yoona’s not there anymore she just vanished but it didn’t surprise him. Someone knocked on his door but he ignored it not planning on opening it.

“Hyung it’s me” Changmin called as he knock on the door again “can we talk?” Yunho got up and opened the door without looking at Changmin and went back to his bed, Changmin sat beside him and looked at him with concern eyes.

“we weren’t able to go to her funeral” he said with a low voice as he look on the ground.

“Why?” Yunho asked his voice still toneless as if he’s not really interested to know

“Her family didn’t allow us” he answered and look at his hyung to doesn’t seem to be listening

“tss.. did you know I proposed to her that day?” Yunho said with a sarcastic chuckle “and now she’s gone” his voice is shaking, he sat up and faced Changmin “I don’t know how I will live my life without her.... how can I continue living if she’s not with me?” he said breaking down into tears. Changmin puts his arm on his shoulder trying his best to comfort his devastated brother, he also felt like crying seeing his brother in that helpless situation but he knows he has to be strong for him.

“This is all my fault... she died because of me... If only I saw that truck coming.... If only I...” he cried

“sshhh... it’s not your fault... it’s nobody’s fault” Changmin hugged him trying to comfort him.

“Hyung I know it’s hard.... I can’t even say that I understand how you’re feeling right now cuz I’m not in your place and I know it’s more than what I can Imagine but.....  you have to continue living, you have to do your best and try to live, maybe not for yourself but for us who loves you, for our parents.... they’re really suffering seeing you like this hyung” Changmin said looking at him “I know it’s not an instant thing but I hope you can help us help yourself to move on and keep on living” he patted his hyung’s back, sat up and left the room.

Yunho stayed in his room looking into nothingness, none of the things that Changmin said left his mind but he still couldn’t find the strength to move on and continue living, he still wanted to die and be with Yoona rather than stay alive and live like a zombie, she holds the biggest part of his life, everything in his life, his past, his present and his future he only wants to spend it with her and now she’s gone.... How and where will he start?

“Yoona.... what should I do?” he cried as he was sitting on the floor beside his bed

He got up, grab his wallet and car keys and left the house, he started driving looking for a place to go to until he reached a resto bar owned by one of his former classmate

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He entered the place and sat on the empty bar.  Because it’s a week day there’s only few people in there, there’s a band playing mellow songs, all the people in there are eating with their companions, he scanned the place as he was sitting on the empty bar

“Anneonghasseo” the bartender greeted him with a bright smile “do you want a drink sir?” she asked. He faced her, but as soon she saw his face her bright smiling face went to a serious concerned one.

“Give me vodka” he said with his toneless voice and blank eyes, he covered his face with his hands while waiting for his drink. The bartender stood there frozen looking at him “Hey miss I said give me a drink” he repeated himself seeing her frozen in her place

“Ahh.. yes.. sorry” she bowed and made him his drink, she placed his drink in front of him after making it he immediately drank it in one shot.

“One more... ah... just give me one bottle” he said. She followed what he said but the bartender couldn’t take her eyes off of him that Yunho started noticing her but he has no interest and energy on asking her why she’s looking at him like that all he wants is to drink until he forgets everything....

“Yuri-aa... one bucket of beer for that table” a waiter called to the bartender

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Finally.... Reupdated... but I just realized I wasn't able to save Chapter 7

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