#I think it will be better if you guys read this while hearing Exo - first snow. enjoyy!!

'첫눈 오는 이런 오후에 너에게 전화를 걸 수만 있다면 기쁠텐데' (In  an afternoon like this that the first snow comes I would be glad if only I could call you)

  The first snow is really falls down today, and this song is playing.. The different is only that the first snow were falling at the night time and not in the afternoon. 

'벌써 일년이 지났는데 난 아직 미련 가득해서 “쓸쓸해” 어느새 혼잣말' (A year has already passed but I’m still not over you
So I talk to myself, “I’m lonely”)

I'm really lonely tho.. And the song is right, 1 year and half but i still not over him.. 

What if i can turn back the time? Will it be different by now? Ya, Oh hayoung, what are you even thought, such a stupid thought! But actually what if?? 

But.. If i meet him,i'm sure my tears will come down, hearing this song already makes me feel teary. I'm sure that i cant said anything other than called out his name. But, still i just hope that he can ask me how i have been at least, or maybe a merry christmas wish?

I hope that when the first snow come this year i will not cried again and my bruised heart will be healed.
I was filled with regrets.. why i did such a thing? 

Ya.. everyone looks really happy, they were holding hand together walking along the beautiful night of Seoul. Do i need to meet him again? But what if it only makes me feels hurt than ever? To be honest if i meet him again and the relationship doesnt go smooth, i cant hold it anymore. Its so hard for me.. 

Again,i cried.. Oh hayoung, stop crying its a happy day! 

As i wiped my tears 'Thug!' i bumped into someone. "ah..i'm sorry, i'm trying to take a photo for"....

The tears come down.. Our eyes meet.. "SEHUN"..."HAYOUNG"

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"Drink this"he handed me a botle of water, we're sitting on a convience store. Awkward.. 

"How have you been?"  he asks

"Nothing,i'm busy and you know.."

"Merry Christmas!!" maybe he said it because it's really awkward right now. 

"Ah.. i have a song that i like and in the song it said to say merry christmas as the this situation is awkward i'm giving you a merry christmas even though it's only november now" he said.

"Ah.. Hayoung-ah, i will go then" Then he stand up and walk away. 

Hayoung-ah, this is your last chance, think. Dont ever be sorry later. Okay, this is the best for me and for him and for us. 

"OH SEHUN!!" Finally the man called Oh sehun turned his face to me.

'huh..hu..huh..' 

"Us..Le..Let..Lets spend christmas together this year".. 

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BACK TO THE PRESENT

Now it's been such a long time since that time, we've been married for 8 years. We've been together for 17 years.. started by when we meet in front of the university that time. 

"Oppa..Hyun-ie and Jo