13.

My World, My Love
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Another day, another round of promos. Two fansigns, a performance at a school, and an appearance on TV. When they got back to the dorm, they were all exhausted. Suyeon went to bed right away - she was still dealing with the shock of what Moonbin had done, and despite everyone's efforts to try to get her to talk, all she wanted to do was work and sleep. Soojung and Doyeon had the TV and were trying to find something to watch - normally they'd have gone to the small bedroom to hang out, but since Suyeon was in there trying to sleep, they had to hang out in either the kitchen or the living room until they were ready to sleep. Sei and Lucy were in the kitchen, making tea. Lua and Ellie were sitting by the window, where the cell reception was best, texting their significant others. Except for Suyeon, who was asleep, Rina was the only one not involved with couples activities. Sighing resignedly, Rina got dressed for bed. She grabbed her phone from the side table where she'd dropped it and went to lie down in her bed.   "Looks like another exciting night of video gaming for me," she said to herself as she flopped down and tried to beat her pillows into shape. She her phone, picked a game and started playing. When that game failed to excite her, she switched to another one, then another one, then . . . in ten minutes she'd gone through half a dozen games, all without finding anything she wanted to play. Finally she tossed the phone down in the bed next to her, pulled her blanket up to her ears, and rolled over toward the wall.   She could feel sleep hovering just out of range. She could also feel a prickling behind her eyes, as if she might start crying any moment but the tears just wouldn't come. She knew what was wrong - couples. She also didn't know what to do about it. No, that wasn't right. She knew what to do about it - get herself into a couple - but she wasn't sure exactly how. Or with who. It had been almost a week since she'd asked Sei to try to set her up with Lime; she hadn't heard anything, but maybe that just meant Lime had been busy, not that she wasn't interested. Didn't it? The fact of the matter was, Rina wasn't even sure what sort of person she should look for - she liked girls, but she liked boys too. Maybe if she could find a boyish girl? Or a girlish boy? She just wasn't sure.   She started imagining different people, seeing who turned her on and who didn't. After a while of this, without her consciously deciding to, she realized she was touching herself while imaging her potential person. It felt good, though, so she kept on. And as she kept on, she realized that her thoughts kept coming back to one person: Twice's Jeongyeon. "That's just silly," she thought to herself as her hand continued its wayward exploration. "I've never even met Jeongyeon. I don't even know if she likes girls! She might be totally straight!"   Just then Rina heard the door open. She froze and listened, trying to figure out who it was.   "Oh look," she heard Lua say. "Rina's already asleep. I'll just be quiet so I don't wake her up."   It was Lua. Because of course it was Lua. Elly always fell asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow, and Lucy and Sei were up in the top bunks and couldn't see her anyway. But Lua would come to bed and just lie there, reading or texting or whatever for sometimes an hour. That was the problem with sharing a two-bedroom apartment with seven other girls - privacy just wasn't a thing, so if you wanted to take care of yourself, you'd better get cool with doing it while your roommates were asleep in the same room. But doing it while Lua was next to her awake was just too far for Rina. She just couldn't bring herself to do it. Even if she did think she could be still and quiet enough that Lua wouldn't figure out what she was doing, she just couldn't do it with Lua right there, awake and able to see her. Rina silently pulled her hands out of her pajamas, rolled further toward the wall, and tried to go to sleep.   ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^   Rina must have been tireder than she thought, because she couldn't remember being awake for very long after Lua came to bed. She did remember a couple of dreams, though. She couldn't remember all of any of them, but she was quite sure that all of them involved Jeongyeon. She felt even more frustrated than she had before she went to bed, if such a thing was possible. Looking around, she realized all of her roommates were still asleep. Moving silently, she grabbed her clothes for the day and headed for the shower.   After some time in the shower, she felt much calmer and head
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brithistorian
I'm going to be trying to update this fic plus "I Don't Like Your Girlfriend," and "Second Winter at Fire Lodge" simultaneously - I've never successfully updated 3 ongoing fics at once before, but I feel like I've got a handle on it this time.

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Mustafina
1157 streak #1
Chapter 43: Not the effect being hard enough to make someone turn in their straight card 🤣
sinb-fan-01 #2
Chapter 23: dateing is so hard for them. i was hope that suyeons idea was going to wrok, but it sounds liek its bad. 17 weeks is long!
poor elly has such hrad time talkng with kwill
sinb-fan-01 #3
Chapter 22: poor suyeon, five months such long tiem for fake dateing, and poor elly havng to see it
so diffcult for group now!
sinb-fan-01 #4
Chapter 21: that was soem drama there, i didnt know suyeon wuld get that mad. i hav to see how media if they give porblem to sei and lucy now