It was close to midnight, and Baekhyun was still playing with Yeolbae on the couch in front of the TV, that was displaying baby cartoons. The night baby show called   "Play with Pororo", was Yeolbae's favourite, yet the toddler was no longer paying attention and the cartoon was long forgotten, how? Well because he was busy playing and giggling with his new babysitter aka Baekhyun. Chanyeol, who came from a small urgent meeting with his friends, entered the house to be surprised by the beautiful sight of his son giggling with his new life partner, he softened at the amount of cutness and affection displayed before him, and he had that feeling of how it is like having a complete family. Family means warmth, sacrifice, unconditional love, patience, protection from the ugly world and its side effects such as depression, delinquency and suicide. Making a family means assuming responsibilities, being independant, mature and taking hold of everything in the house! It also means going for grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning, doing economies and taking care of the entire household. Chanyeol felt at this very moment that he was never responsible of his own house before!! He always had everything done by other people. For example, it was Mr.Kang, his assistant and personal driver who does all the grocery shopping for him, and he has a personal Chef who cooks for him, three mades who come twice a week to clean the house, and above all that, he can't even take care of his own child, as he hires a babysitter for Yeolbae for four years now!

*What a shame!! I was never responsible of my life! Not of my house! Nor of my son!! How can I call myself a father if I never bought my son food or baby needs before?? I know nothing about raising a child ! All I do is play with him and buy him toys! I don't even know his shoe size right now ! He must have grown up since the last time I saw him and his shoe size must've been changed!! Right? Yet I don't keep an update about that! I don't cook for him! Not even for myself!! I'm dependant to many people! I'm dependant to Mr.Kang, to my Chef, to the maids! To my parents!! Am I a grown up man as I assume or just an immatre teenager?? All I do is club around, mess around with my single friends, get drunk and come back home to recover from the hangover and have a terrible headache the next morning if not with awful vomiting sessions! All I do is waste my money on drinks and troublesome friends! But..when Baekhyun came to my life..I ..I feel...diffrent! He made me more responsible I guess? At least I stopped drinking outside! And seeing him with my son, like that, having fun and giggling around together,..made me feel..like..I need to protect them! Like I need to be the head of this...family! ...MY FAMILY..my new family!! Am I finally building a family as my parents always hoped?? Now I know why they always felt ashamed of me and wanted me to construct a family the sooner possible! I mean..they had a point, and somehow they were right!! I mean...before..I was never acting my age, always goofing around, partying all night long and getting drunk and regretting it the next morning! I was never doing my job properly at the company becuz I hated it and I hated the people I work with, and I had my parents paying off all the mess I create. I was all the time depressed, once I go back home, I start crying and drinking or clubbing outside to forget! I was like a teenager in his twenties, I was stupid, immature, suicidal and incomplete. I always felt lonely and that I always lack a lot and never do my best, I always felt like no matter how hard I work, it's never enough for people around me, as they always keep on judging me and saying that I still lack experience and many other stuff! They're never satisfied! I was thinking of suicide many times becuz..becuz..I never had something to occupy me at home, at night..when I'm back from the ugly world outside! I never had someone I can rely on, a shoulder I can lean my head on and tell all my worries and insecurities, I never had  a reason to comeback home at night after a long day of work, becuz, I felt lonely and scared! And I always hated comeing back to my hostile house, becuz once I'm alone I start thinking of my flaws and what I lack, and then I start hating on myself and having suicidal thoughts! To escape from this, I was clubbing out with friends, drinking till I no longer feel my senses, just so that when I'm back home, my mind would be busy and I won't think of how lonely, incomplete and ed up I am. But now...I feel like I no longer need to do that! Instead, I was longing to comeback home tonight, yes! I went out with my co-workers becuz it was urgent and they wanted to speak about our next project, but I felt myself uncomfortable and I was counting minutes to comeback home, to my son, to my..Baekhyun! To my house! Before, I use to enjoy my freinds' company, now I wanted to go back home as quickly as possible! I even refused to have a drink with them! I even refused to have dinner with them, becuz I knew if I stay for business dinner, I'll be late for my FAMILY! I felt like something in my heart was forcing me and pulling me to go back home! Becuz I finally have someone or literally "someones" to whom I'm coming back, someone who will love me unconditionally and will never judge me or call me flawful ! Yes both Baekhyun and Yeolbae love me to the extent, and they're the only ones who will never hurt me or hate me for my flaws, they both accept me as I am and this is such a bless, a bless of having a family of your own! Now I knew why my mom always told me that there's no one who would love me more than my family! She once told me " Family will never hate you for who you are, family will accept you and love you unconditionnaly without you giving something in return, unlike friends and co-workers, they won't love you until you give them something and once they find a flaw in you, they won't hesitate to judge you and criticize you, and even hate you" and she was right! This is exactly what I'm living with people outside my private life, everyone wants a piece of my wealth, no one is loving me for who truly I am, but just for my money and reputation! But once everything is gone, one day, they won't hesitate to turn their backs and trash on me, and at this point, I would only have my family who would take my back and support me. Yes! I'm sure Baekhyun, Yeolbae, mom and dad, Jongin,Sehun and kyungsoo whom are not my friends but my non-biological brothers, will never turn their backs on me. Now I know the blessing of a family! * Chanyeol was sinking in his wirlpool of thoughts, not noticing that he has been standing by the door frame for quite a while, until Baekhyun nudged him by the elbow to earn his attention.

" Eheum eheum! You're back so quickly. Is everything alright? Are you gonna stand there forever?" Baekhyun said before giggling, and Chanyeol's heart softened at the awaiting smile he adores the most.

" Oh! Nah..everything's fine..haha!" Chanyeol noticed he was still by the door, he then scratched the back of his head out of embarassement and decided to go take a seat on the couch and play with his son. As he does so, he held Yeolbae to the air and showered him with dozens of tender kisses and warm hugs, Baekhyun couldn't help but soften at the sight and decided to throw a remark.

" He kept asking abou you, and he said he misses you! Right Yeolbae-yah?" Baekhyun said turning his gaze to the little toddler.

" Ya ya! Grrrrrrrrr...dadadaaa ..hahah.." Yeolbae was now saying incoherent words out of excitement.

"He doesn't wanna talk now, becuz he is excited to see you, haha" Baekhyun informed and Chanyeol's eyes couldn't help but widen, the latter is learning things about his sonway too fast, he only stayed with him for few hours, yet he is already giving remarks about Yeolbae's habits and behavior!! *This shorty is a genius!* Chanyeol thought to himself!

" You're learning so fast!! How's that??" Chanyeol didn't want to say that, but his thoughts have slipped from his lips, with no permission, into a soft whisper instead of the actual question he asked in his mind.

" What do mean?" Baekhyun who was heading upstairs to leave the father and his son have their privacy, turned at the sudden question Chanyeol asked him.

" I mean..about Yeolbae! You're learning a lot of things about him, and so fast!! It took me ages to know when he was hungry or when he was thirsty or when he wanted to be lifted or when he wanted to play or when he wanted to sleep or when he was excited!!?? Yet, you've just met him, less than a day, and you already could tell that when he is excited he doesnt like to talk and instead starts saying incoherent words! Wow! You're each day, surprising me! You're so smart! You're really a thing Baekhyun-ah! You never fail to amaze me! You're really a thing!" Chanyeol informed astonishment and curiosity clear on his face.

" Nah! You're just overracting about it! Haha! There's nothing special about me, I'm just as normal as you are and it's just that...maybe ..becuz I've worked as a babysitter for quite a while, that I developped this sense of knowing what kids want and when they want it, those 2 years and few months as a babysitter really helped me in understanding children and knowing a lot of things about them! I mean..Chanyeol...all the kids around the world are similar, I mean..they have the same behavior, the same needs, the same cravings, the same reasons to cry or to laugh, so it's easy for me to tell things about your son becuz I've raised maybe 13 to 20 toddlers in that period, so yeah..of course I'd have more experience than you do! Especially that you only have one son, and you've been always busy with work, being the boss, I know it's hard to keep up with your son's daily activities and I think you even missed seeing him grow up everyday! So yeah don't feel like I'm doing something magical or that you lack something or that you're a terrible father! It's Okay if you weren't able to know things about your son very quicly! It's okay if you couldn't understand his behavior or his cries, it's okay if you weren't able to soothe his pain when he was ill or uncomfortable, it's okay if you didn't know when he wanted to eat or when he wanted to sleep! It's hard to tell, it's hard to know things like these when you were just 19 y.o when you had him, you were still young and single and lonely and busy with studies and now with hectic work and huge responsibilities, especially when you're taking the hold of the biggest company in Korea and trying your best to preserve and conserve a reputation! It's so hard to be able to do all that and still above that be able to build a house and take care of your son! I know that you gave him all you rest time just to be with him and to love him and take care of him, in the time you were supposed to sleep! Being a single father, with huge responsibilities and a reputation and a legacy to protect, with all those paparazzi around, and you protecting your son and private life from them, is so hard to do Chanyeol! Yet, you managed to do it! You're keeping a huge secret from the media just to protect your son from the ugly world! And this is so difficult to do and you're so brave to be able to achieve it alone! It's you who amaze me Chanyeol, it's you who are a thing not me! You're more than enough Chanyeol-ah and you lack nothing! You're doing an amazing job at work and at home and as a father too!" Baekhyun said wholeheartedly, not knowing that he has lifted a huge weigh of guilt and self-blame from above Chanyeol's heart.

" Wow!....really! Oooff..uhm..you know I'm on the verge of crying! You don't know what these words mean to me Baekhyun-ah! All what you said!! Is all what I wanted to hear...my entire life! You have no idea what you have lifted upon my heart! Such a huge weight of guilt and self-blame I had for myself! I've always felt that I never did my best! That I must work harder! That no matter what, I'm never enough and that I always lack! And that I'm a loser who will always keep on lacking things! Everyone around me tells me that I'm never enough! That I don't satisfy them! They always criticize me, my parents were the first ones, then some people I thought were my friends, then my teachers, then my co-workers..then the whole world was blaming me! Even Suzane!! She always blames me when Yeolbae gets sick! She says I'm never there for him, that