"There's someone that i like" he confessed , his eyes never leaving mine.

I had mixed feelings. i went from thinking positive to thinking negative in seconds. My heart says 'its you that he liked' but my mind says 'you fool , its definitely not you'.

"Someone?" i asked him. and right then my mind went to somin , its definitely her.

"Somin." He said, literally reading my thoughts, and then looked away, i could feel the hurt.

I could feel my face burning , my eyes suddenly started twitching , my mouth was completely dry and my heart skiped a beat. I knew it all along and i could feel the pain because it was coming from him , because he said to me , to my face.

I looked away as i could feel my eyes tearing, he must've noticed it already. 

"Are you fine?" he asked appearing to be worried. I made sure i wont cry and took in a deep breath before turning to face him.

"Does she know?" i managed to ask although i sounded like a child choking.

"I think she does but then again i think she doesn't" he said. i've never saw him looking this gloomy. "That's why i thought of talking to you" he said while looking down at his empty bown of chicken soup.

"W-what do you want me to do?" i asked him and somehow i feared his answer, probably because i feel like i know where this conversation is going.

"Do you possible know if she's back with Woojin?" he asked , embarressed.

"Maybe!" i said "Or maybe not" i added. I somehow felt like i wanted to hurt him. I wanted to lie to him and say that 'yes they're back together and they're freakin so in love" i wanted to tell him that he can never have her and that her heart is set on only woojin and will always be that way. i wanted to hurt him so bad that maybe  my hurt could go away.

He looked so down. Like he knew he didnt have a chance with her but he is still willing to try and give it his all. Isn't this what love is ?.

"I dont know! Maybe you should ask her" i said. i was tearing from inside but through all this hurt i still managed to take out words from my mouth. I wasn't even thinking straight.

"I was actually thinking... maybe , juuust maybe , if you could help me" these words left his mouth and felt weak in all means. Why is this even happening to me. why do i deserve al of this. 

I wanted to laugh. Literally laugh like the joker. Laugh at myself. 'He is so not asking me to help him get with somin' i thought to myself. if he did , im losing it all,

"Maybe you could help me as her out ?" he said and literally chuckled sarcastically in his face and i didnt care about it. I was hurt.

"Maybe" i managed to mumbled but felt like i was being mean. " I will try." i added. why do i have to still be so kind. why cant i change and be strong and bold.

"Youu would ? really?" his eyes were full of hope. He still looked so bold and manly but i could tell from inside he was happy and excited that i was going to help him. I wish i was him. or maybe the lucky Somin!'

*End of Flash Back*

That's how i ended up here. All sad and hurt. Alone between these four walls of our practise room in university campus. I've been dancing for 2 continous hours. Trying to forget everything that happened hours ago. But my mind can't cant get rid of any single word tha taehyung told me.

I had no idea what i was going to do anymore. I mind just tells me to ignore everything that happened and not help him but my heart, oh my heart, can't just let go of it easily. I know i will help him anyway but i also know that if i do im gonna get hurt real bad and probaly be deperessed. 

Should i just confess to him and just tell him that i honestly really like him. Probably even love him. What is love?

I should or i Shouldn't. My Mind and Heart were going crazy and mad so i decided to just quit dacing for now and go take a warm shower and just go to bed and hope for a better day tomorrow. Hopefully i'll be able to get some sleep after i cry another river!

Thank you for reading ^^

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Xo love, Paula ^^