*Kyurin’s POV*

What I’m feeling these past few days becomes worst. I look like and feel like a fool right now for I am missing Kyuhyun so much! Yes, admit that I really miss that damn boy. And these past days, I’ve been thinking about him more and more. He’s running inside my head 24 hours! I’m crazy! I even dreamt of him for 3 consecutive nights.

“Aigoo Kyurin…what is happening to you? Why are you being like this? What kind of spell did that damn boy cast on you? I asked myself over and over again while I’m lying on my bed covering my face with my pillow.

Right now I can see Kyuhyun’s smiling face inside my head. What’s so wrong with me? Why am I being like this? Why, why and why? There are so many ‘whys’ in my head right now that I can’t answer. I sighed. I’m really going crazy right now.

 I reached for my phone. I opened it and stared at a certain picture again, like what I did for the past few nights. I smiled to myself. This picture that I’m staring right now is the only remembrance that the officer-in-charge at the marriage booth gave to us.

“Aigoo!! Even though Kibum oppa is there…” I sighed.

“I feel like Kyuhyun and I were the only one in the room and my heart beats are the only sound I can hear.” I said, talking to myself.

“I’m nervous at that time. Besides Kibum-oppa will be the one to officiate our fake marriage. I’m really nervous because Kyuhyun will be my ‘groom’ and because he was standing so near me that I’m afraid he can hear my wild heart beats.” I said as I continue to stare at the photo.

“Standing beside the smiling Kyuhyun here, all I can say is…” I paused then blushed.

“He’s really handsome.” I blurted out then blushed harder.

“Aigoo Kyurin! What are you doing to yourself? All those things about him. All those moments you remember about him. All those ‘racing heart beats’ and ‘butterflies in my stomach’ thing-y when you’re with him. It all ends up in one conclusion right?” I told myself. I closed my phone and throw it somewhere on my bed. Then I place my right hand over my left chest where my heart is located.

“I can’t be right?” I asked myself.

“I can’t be in love with Kyuhyun.” I said.

“I can’t be because I like Kibum-oppa right? I also can’t because my best friend likes Kyuhyun.” I told myself, contradicting the thoughts that I am in love with Cho Kyuhyun.

“I can’t be…I can’t!” I convinced myself as I slowly drifted to my dreamland.

Life is harsher than I thought

A/N: hello? How are you guys? (; ♥