Yongsun's POV

Hve you ever felt so happy seeing the person you want to see again but remembering the sufferings that you've gone through makes that happiness crumpled? cause I'm feeling that right now. 

It's been a week since I flew here and I thought that I'm doing better. But as the day goes by, not seeing her, not hearing her voice, not having someone to tease me, not feeling her hug makes me long for her more, makes me want to go back to Korea and just confess everything to her. But because I'm a coward and I'm afraid to be rejected, I just stayed here and let myself suffer more. I still cry every night when I think about her, I can't leave a message or even call her because I will just breakdown if I hear her also suffer...She's suffering because her best friend is not by her side. For the first time in years that we're together, always by each other sides we got separated. It's not like that I like this idea, but it's the best thing to do, I'll save my heart this way and she can do anything she wants without me nagging her or scaring other girls that tries to be near her. Yep, It's better. Me, Kim Yongsun is trying  to move on and bury the special feelings that I'm feeling for my best friend. Yes, I'm doing good. 

Not until she showed up. 

I've never thought that I will see her again. 

I missed her so much

and realizations hit me 

that no matter how hard I tried to forget about her, 

she'll still find a way to get through my brain 

that the efforts I exerted in forgetting my feelings were useless 

that in the end of the day, it's still her 

that I'm still waiting for her to return the feelings

that she is really a special person for me 

and that 

I'm still in love with her

But must resist 

 seeing her also made my heart hurts

remembering the awful and painful feelings that I've felt whenever she introduces new girls to me 

the sad nights and her ugly crying when those girls break her heart 

the happy smile when Eun Ae came back 

how she invited her to the dinner with her family and friends 

how she allowed Eun Ae to kiss her 

the moment that she accepted Eun Ae in her life again. 

How she easily said her good bye to me at the airport 

and the times that she was dense

the times that she didn't read the signs that I gave

how she didn't noticed my feelings

I should hate her 

I should not let my feelings control me 

I should be strong 

show her that I'm not happy to see her 

I must resist 

But what is she doing here? 

 I stood still, just looking at her, masking the surprised expression from her sudden appearance. "Don't let her see through you, Yongsun" I reminded myself and calmed myself as I still kept my eyes on her, it looked like she wants to go near me but she also just stood in her place. "you're doing good" I nodded inside my head as I kept a poker face and started walking passed her. 

"Yongsun!" she called my name and gosh how I missed her voice calling for me. I just want to run and hug her but I should keep a distance from her now. I glanced at her and  she looked confused, her eye brows furrowed while her eyes were locked on me. Nodding a little, I let out a small smile to greet her before making my way to the elevator. 

3rd Pov 

Byulyi blinked in confusion as she watched Yongsun's figure getting out of her sight. She was c