"princess.. eat up.. " naeun tried to shove in a spoonful of porridge but i rejected it.

"princess~~ it's been 2 days that you only drinked water.. it's not good for your health" naeun nagged as she tried to open my mouth

i pulled in the blanket up to my head and try to sleep. my body is way too weak and if i eat i might really puke.

it's been 2 days since he didn't show up.

"what a jerk.. he didn't say anything until today" i whispered to myself.

"princess.. did you know that today your mom will leave for korea?" naeun said slowly

i looked at her "no.. till when..?" naeun counted with her fingers... "till next month... "

"your mom is worried sick about you.. you should eat!" she tried to offer me a spoonful of porridge and i tried to gulped in..

slowly.. slowly... then i coughed. naeun bring the me water and i drink a whole glass it.

"you looked so stressed princess.." naeun bit her lip "i am." 

a sudden knock on the door gave the both of us a little shock.

"oh it must be the new body guards" naeun smiled

"come in!" she half screamed.

"what bodyguard?" i whispered "your mom hired them."

"well as long as the bodyguards are girls---------" i stopped. looking to the figure of two men entering the room.

i looked at them from top to bottom. "naeun.." i slowly whispered to her

"yes?" naeun eyed the bodyguard like they were some kind of angels

"i thought mom knows about my phobia.." i pinched her "ouch! i don't know.. but hell i don't care these guys are pretty cute" she giggled

great. here comes.. Trouble.

"who are you guys?" i asked coldly, a little bit mad as i gtared at them. naeun poked me

"sorry, she's just a bit tempered.." naeun smiled, looking angelic. I almost thought i'd puke seeing her like that.

"what--?" i gave her a 'what the hell are you talking about' face.

"so.. introduce yourself please" naeun cutted me off.

the two guys looked at me and poked each other "you said it.." the taller one poked the shorter one

"uhm.. " i looked at them confusely. what are they doing? "are you going to speak or not? if not i'll go back to sleep"

"yeah.. we.. we're the new body guards hired by the queen to protect you while she's gone" the other one shrugged as he explained in a soft voice

"hyung.. introduce yourself" he continued. he let out a sigh. "my name's Sunggyu. the other one here is Woohyun" they bowed

i looked at them for a while. they smiled and stand still waiting for orders.

the phone rang. "i'll get it" naeun ran outside the room in a flash.

i looked back at them and smirked

"i don't like men in my room" i shook my head as i ordered them to leave. well, not directly but if they understand human language, they'd leave.

"but the queen said we should be guarding you eventhough you didn't want to" sunggyu said calmly as he took out a small note from his pocket.

ughh... i'm not feeling well! just leave! ----- i really wanted to say that but it didn't came out. instead i just sighed.

"sorry princess.. we'll leave for now.." woohyun dragged his hyung out the room.

phew~ at least of one them understands. i looked at the clock my my visions are quite blurry.

i shrugged as i pulled off the blanket to the side and tried to stand.

when i'm touching the wooden floor, i shivered a little. the coldness of the floor gave me a little goosebumb.

i tried to hold on the table when i stand. my body felt weak and everything just... not perfect.

I walked out to the hallway. Slowly and trembled once in a while... My visions are fading

i felt the reality is backing away.

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this scent... this warmness..

where did i get this kind of feeling before?

the rythmic sound of shoes tapping slowly on the wooden floor feels like music to me.

i opened my eyes a little, letting in the light hit my newly opened eyes.

"princess.. are you allright?" i focused my eyes but it didn't work.

this presence felt like myungsoo's...

"myungsoo...?" i opened my mouth slowly as i still looking towards him.

the view told differently. his walking pace is accelerated as he held grip of me. he opened the door to my room and walked slowly inside

"princess? are you allright? are you awake?" a soft voice echoed in my ear for another second before i realized he wasn't myungsoo.

it was woohyun. tears start to fall. drop by drop. as he looked at me not knowing what to do.

"myungsoo? who's myungsoo?" he lay me slowly on my bed and watched me cry.

i didn't know what to do at that time i just know his hands were brushing my hair with the same kind of warmness myungsoo had.

"what happened?" he asked slowly when i have stopped crying hard. he offered me a cup of water but i refused.

the tense silence appeared before us.

i opened my mouth slowly and a drop of tear run down my cheek "i hate men.." he looked at me confused and tensed.

"i wouldn't asked though..." he said as he tried to make me a little comfortable.

"my dad... he left me. he left the kingdom and ran away with another woman.." i sobbed.

he opened his mouth and then he closed it again. not knowing what to say he only gulped in his unspoken words.

" i hated men since then. the moment you needed them the most, they'd gone missing and go breaking hearts"

i grabbed my pillow and wiped my tears against it. i didn't dare to tell him about myungsoo.

woohyun sat beside me and closed my eyes with his hand.

"what.. what are you doing?" i'm scared of his touch. my body trembled. but i didn't do anything.

"now calm down. close your eyes and open your heart. 'one sees well only with the heart. The essential is invisible to the eyes' "

his calm voice brings in more nostalgic moments. that quote... myungsoo would also said that.

"you locked yourself in the past prison you created, all you need to do is count to ten... think about all the good things you had with him."

he started to count slow enought for my brain to think. "one.... two....."

tears has once again flowed. i think about my dad.

the times he spent with me.. running around the hallway.. playing hide and seek and his storry telling, the best i've ever known.

then i think about myungsoo.. the dream i had would never be erased. ever. and his smile, his flawless smile... as if the world would stop when he does...

his husky voice... the way he say my name... that was probably the best feeling in the world. and also his blue ornament necklace i still kept...

the memories would brought along whispers of the past, thick with nostalgia and memories that i didn't dare to forget.

"ten..." woohyun released his hand. he smiled softly. "do you get it now?" he erased the tears in my eyes.

when he decided to back away, i quickly pulled him into a hug.

i don't know what's gotten into me but i wished this time would stop.

Woohyun... how do you read my heart? how do you manage to break through my barriers of insecurities?

but through all the regrets, i felt grateful "woohyun, thankyou"