{WOOHYUN's POV}

when i open my eyes, the light crashed into my eyes and it's getting hard to see clearly.

"good morning woohyun" i saw a figure of an angel in white. she opened the curtains in my room and smiled

i smiled back "good morning, princess.."

despite the smile she put on her face, her eyes were red. the result of her overflowing tears yesterday.

i sighed a little. "what's wrong woohyun? does it still hurt?" she came closer and held my hand, brushing against the scars softly

"no.. i'm allright.." i lied. she eyed the scars on my right hand and looked sad.

"it's not your fault" i patted her head. but she didn't looked happy

"it's my fault.. if only i paid more attention----" i put my finger in her lips to stop her.

she was quite surprised. "i said it wasn't!" i smiled and she pouted. in some ways, she's just too beautiful.

"do you miss myungsoo?" i asked her wanted to know her answer. i knew she really loved him just as much as i loved her

i can see the blank expression in her face. she stopped her actions and faked a smile

"what are you saying.." she laughed a little. those little laughs gave me a slight guilt

"you still love him, don't you?" i mumbled. but then she hugged me

"will you please stop that? right now i'm determined to be with you, i'll take care of you"

i don't know how to feel right now.. i know i should be happy that now she is with me

but.. it still feels sad knowing that she didn't mean every words she is saying right now

"do you want to go home and get some food?" i asked her while releasing the hug. she hasn't eaten anything since last night. she must've been hungry

she shook her head a little "i'll accompany you. i'm not hungry anyway!" she grinned

of course she was lying. just when she said that, her stomach grumbled. i raised one of my eyebrow and her face becomes red.

yes it's red. red like an apple. "uhh.." she turned around as i laughed hard

"come on.. just get some eat, eo?" i poked her back.

"araeso.. i'll be back!" she kissed my cheek and left quickly

uh wait. she kissed my cheek? she kissed me? what happened to her?

i could feel my heart has once again beats faster.

yahh nam woohyun! calm yourself!

then i heard a knock on the door

the nurse came in bringing a set of meal "time for breakfast, nam woohyun"

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{MY POV}

i walked outside the hospital trying to buy some food and suddenly bumped into someone

i fell into the hard street while he trembled.

"ouch.." i rubbed my elbow which got hit pretty hard. he offered his hand

i took his hand. "sorry princess.." it was sunggyu

"oh hey sunggyu!" i smiled as i stood up. he gave me a napkin to clean some dirt on my clothes.

"umm.. thankyou"

"uhm.. princess.. how's woohyun?" his emotion turns stiff. my smile dissapeared

he's waiting for an answer "he was okay, i guess..." i tried to smile a bit

"but i seems his injuries are still severe.." i bit my lips and i can see that sunggyu felt worried as well

"i see.. " he let out a sigh and looked away.

"what about myungsoo.. is he.. allright?" i tried not to look so worried but yeah. i failed

since last night, all i can think about is myungsoo. i've.. hurted him as well..

"he was uncontrollable. last night he was drunk and knocked out. he seemed to have nightmares as well.. it's just.."

he stopped and shrugged. i knew it..

he moved closer and whispered in my ear "i think you need to talk to myungsoo he's in the castle.. "

i raised my eyebrow almost agreeing.. but then again i can't

"i.. i'm with woohyun now.. i can't see him in this condition"

i made that decision. i musn't regret that choice. sunggyu phoned dongwoo

for another minute sunggyu poked my back

the car arrived. sunggyu opened the door and pushed me lightly inside the car.

"listen to your heart, princess. i know you're just forcing everything. just be strong, okay?" he was about to shut the door

i pushed the door open slightly "but what about woohyun?"

"i will accompany him, i will tell him that you're tired and will rest for a bit" he closed the door and smiled

i didnt fight back, i didn't knew why.. but i felt grateful. i am.

the car starts moving along the roads of the city

"dongwoo" i called in as the traffic light turned red.

"yes princess?" he turned around and smiled. oh dongwoo.. i wished i could be that lively.

i smiled "have you ever fell in love?" i asked bluntly

"of course i have princess! why the sudden love question?" he giggled

"have you ever liked 2 girls in the same time" i could see him choked.

oh yeah dongwoo.. you must have done that. don't lie..  i raised my eyebrow and he nod admitting.

"what do you do about that feeling?" i asked him again, i wanted to know his reaction

"just date both of them!" he laughed. "bwoh?!" i screamed

he laughed even harder "just joking, princess. in the end you have to listen to your heart, just like sunggyu hyung said"

he smiled. i looked at him then the cars behind us start to press their horns

"it's green already" i pointed and dongwoo looked at the front and start to drive away.

listen to your heart, huh? it seemed so easy yet so hard.

if only my heart can talk  it out and so it would make everything easier right now..

the autumn leaves fell on the pavements and now the trees are standing alone with their branches.

once in a while the wind will blow the leaves away bringing them to some unknown place,

sometimes i think love is just like seasons, sometimes love will be tested and will be taken away from us like the wind blown off the leaves in fall.

sometimes it will grow just like the flowers in spring.

sometimes you get attached to it like the long summer holidays.

and sometimes love just break down everything in your life, bringing it to a new start just like plain white snow in winter.

love is just unpredictable.

"we've arrived" dongwoo went out from the car and opened the door for me "thankyou, dongwoo"

he smiled and lead me inside.

there stood naeun who hugged me just when i opened the door "princess! are you allright? did you got hurt?!" she screamed

believe me. that scream could've make me deaf. like seriously.

"no.. i'm allright... uhm.. where's myungsoo?" i looked around the lobby but couldn't see him.

naeun tried to remember again and then she smiled "oh yeah that guy.. he's in the garden. he didn't want to talk a bit since this morning"

naeun pouted as she talked about him. "he didnt eat either!" naeun added.

i walked to the kitchen and take out some food. i walked to the garden and saw myungsoo sitting alone

it's true that it was pure silence. not a single word is said. i sighed as i sat beside him.

the same expressionless myungsoo.. my heart ached. i am not ready for this.. i didn't knew what to say

"uhm.. myungsoo?" i tried to start. he didn't respond. "i know you're mad at me.. but will you at least eat?" still no respond

i sighed. i put the food tray beside him and about to leave.

"wait.." myungsoo opened his mouth slowly. his face looked so sad and somehow fragile.

i turned around slowly facing him. he walked towards me.

"are you guys really dating.." he asked slowly, uneasy.

 i stopped at that question. my heart ached and i felt lost. i should say yes but nothing came out.

he sighed knowing my answer. he came closer and hugged me with his hands wrapping me tightly.

myungsoo.. you're mean.. you can't do this..

i could hear him whispered in my ear "i love you.. i really loved you. i will do anything for you.. i will.."

he let go of the hug and slowly lifting my chin. his eyes locked to mine as i stared into his soft eyes.

the inches between us become smaller and slowly but sure he pressed his lips into mine.

i could feel his hands brushing into my hair and that split second felt like forever.

a warm water fell from his cheek just then i realized he was crying.

the overflowing feeling of love, melancholy and sadness mixed as we shared the kiss.

the feeling of guilt but then again i didn't want to let go.. i wan't to be in this moment forever.

just then, a flash of woohyun came into my mind and i stopped the kiss right away. pushing him away from me

we're both empty with feelings that can't be expressed with words.

"i can't.. i promised woohyun.." i started to cry as i walked away from him.

myungsoo ran and hugged me from the back

"please.. once again, would you look into my eyes? these pair of eyes that only looked at you. this one heart that only loves you. will you?'

his tears fell onto me. i was stiffen. how to act? what to say?

this is like a game. choosing between 2 guys who loved you.

that one guy who cried for you.. longed for you and loved you..

but that other one guy who you've promised.. the one who risked his life for you.. and suffered in your place

i knew this was wrong but i feel like killing myself right now.

for that again, i've let my emotion took control of me, like the leaves that brings you to places you didn't know.

once again. i felt like choosing between what's right and what's wrong.

choosing between life and death.