( 1 week after Beijing trip - classy bar - 12:00 a.m - present )    " like for real ! do you have a schedule tomorrow ? cause if you don't , i do have !! " lee joon said irritated as he found me sitting on the serving bar ..    " why are you being noisy !! " i replied irritated as i drank my drink    " it's 12:00 a.m , yonghwa !!! i have a life too .. anyway what's wrong with you , it's my fate to end up as being your friend " he ordered a drink too    " remember when i told you about the girl that i have crush on .. " i started talking    " yes , what's up with her ?"    " she's dating now " i said with a heavy heart    " of course she would end up dating , it's been 4 years with you and your pathetic crush " he said    " she loves the man she's dating too " i curved my mouth in depression   " of course she would love the man she chose to date , yaaah yonghwa are you drunk already " he mocked    " can you stop mocking my every single word " i shouted as i got irritated    " ok sorry , when did she start dating ! " he asked    " last year .. "    " i'm really crazy for being here listening to you , while i have an early morning schedule tomorrow , i'm leaving " he said as he stood    " i've hurt her once , i really hurt her badly , and she hated me like no one ever did , later i was thankful she moved on when she found her happiness again , but .. the thing is ... i'm still deeply in love with her , i really love her "    lee joon sat again as he heard my misery , and i drank like i never did before , i think later i rode a taxi to go home  

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  ( seohyun's villa 2:00 a.m )    my door bell rang multiple times , i woke up worried , i looked at the phone to check what time is it , and it was 2:00 past midnight !! could it be a stalker ! my heart raced in fear and i went to the bathroom and held a broom stick in my hand tightly as i went to open my door    i looked at the security monitor and it was yonghwa !! why is he here at this hour i wondered    i opened the door for him , and once he saw me he said " i'm really in love with you , juhyun "    what ! is he talking about ?! i looked at him again and he looked unsteady , resting his hand on the wall and his head falling down multiple times ! wait .. is he Drunk ??    " oppa !! are you drunk ? " i asked him as i lowered my face to look at his    " i'm not !! i'm so sober ! it's the truth that i reallyyy love youuu , and i want youuu " he said raising his head and looking intensely into my eyes ! my body trembled for those words but he's really drunk for sure , as i checked him out his state was miserable , he's supporting himself to stand up too , i curved my mouth wondering what should i do    " and now , can you stop wasting time already .. " he said frowning and moving a step toward me    " wasting time for what ? " i asked wondering    " let's DO it ... tonight , i'll make you fall in love too " he said huskily as his fingers found their way to his shirt button , does he really think that he's talking to a night girl !!!    " you bastard " i shouted as my blood boiled in my head , he's worse when he's drunk but still he's the same bastard , i pushed him out and closed the door .. my heart was racing as i was a little curious how would it feel ... to make me fall in love !!    i shook my head in disbelief , really i have gone crazy already .. i went to my room and laid on the bed to sleep , i closed my eyes for a moment then opened them wide the next , i need to sleep as i have an early schedule tomorrow ..    after minutes i couldn't stay still on bed , i went to the entrance again and looked through the security monitor , yonghwa was just there sitting on the floor looking like a beggar ! my heart ached for him a little , if i leave him on the floor he'll sleep there till the morning , his body will ache and maybe he has schedules too ...    i thought about calling jungshin to come and take him , but jungshin will end up hell angry that yonghwa was that careless coming to my villa late at night .. lee joon ? but i'm not sure what does he know exactly about our story , maybe yonghwa never told him or maybe he doesn't know that it was me SNSD seohyun ..    i looked again at the monitor , yonghwa wasn't moving , just resting his head on his knee .. i took a deep breath then opened my door ..    i went to him setting on my knees , " oppa ... let's go inside "    he raised his head slowly looking at me , his eyes weren't drunk though , they looked steady talking to my eyes things i never understood    my hand trembled as i extended it to his back " oppa , stand up please and let's go "    he nodded and i started to support his body to stand , i took his arm around my neck , i gave all my strength for him to stand up , it was a mess and he was so heavy , i started sweating too , we stood up going to my villa .. he buried his nose in my hair as we walked , he started inhaling my scent soundly and that gave me goose pumps across my body ..    " you're really delicious , hyun~ah " he said huskily in my hair , god what a nightmare !!    " i swear i'll kill you if i knew that you're acting " i threatened as i got irritated as we took a slow heavy steps to my bedroom ..   " of course i'm acting .. you didn't watch my dramas ?!!! " he seriously protested , i think he's really drunk since he's proud of his acting projects    we were walking in the corridor toward my room , when he suddenly used his arm to surround my waist , while his other arm was already around my neck , so i was totally into his tight embrace the next moment ..   he trapped my movement using his body weight rather than his embrace , i started to get dizzy and tired , it was hard to wriggle and escape his heaviness    " yonghwa please , don't make me regret helping you " i murmured with exhusated tone    " you'll not regret , believe me " he said confidently as he walked a step with me being between his arms toward the wall , to trap my body between him and the wall , he then loosed the arm that was surrounding my waist , and held my gaze for a moment .. my breathing hitched up and my heart raced crazily for his eyes , i was afraid i would surrender easily for him to do whatever he wants as my head spin , totally tired to defense my self ..    his hand went to pull one of the threads of the knot of my pajama pants , and the knot turned out loose in his hand , he was looking at his hand down but suddenly he moved his glance into my eyes " are you ready ? " he asked with a smirk    my body shivered in response , up till now i had my mind believing that this just a nightmare that will end once the morning comes , but this is new and real !!    he came closer to my face , angled his face to seal our cheeks together , then he traced his nose tip into mine passionately to end up at my other cheek , it felt like he's kissing me passionately without even our lips  touching , it was crazy , and i panted hardly for no logical reason !!  his head was heavy so he rested it on my shoulder for a moment then he traced his nose on my neck line , intoxicated with his gentle touch i was already weak in my knees , his warm hand went under my shirt to rest on my cold belly , i gulped nervously and my body ached for a bastard so i was irritated , i shut my eyes nervously as my whole body trembled roughly .. i want him too .. that what i thought !!!    his fingers under my shirt drew an imaginary circles on my belly , i was losing the rest of my mind as i was fully aware of his every single touch , as his hand started moving from my belly it went downward rather than toward my ribs ! i got a shock at his experienced - jumping to the important part directly - moves !!!!     as i was frozen by the sudden seriousness of the events,  i felt a warmness spot on my neck line as he it .. that sent electrity across my body and i pushed him away .. he held my gaze with sad eyes , i was going to make him pay for it but i found him covering his mouth with his palm in sickness !!!    is he going to .. puke !! no not on the floor , how would i clean this mess later !!    " the bathroom is from here " i told him as i took his hand quickly guiding him , thankfully we reached it the right moment ..    he started throwing up and coughing and i sat beside him caressing his back , i can't manage the idea of seeing yonghwa sick !! my heart ached as i saw him weak and helpless ..     i supported him to the sink and washed his face with running water , then i guided him all the way to the bedroom , he was quiet and dizzy , barely supporting his head .. i laid him on the bed and noticed that his clothes got dirty from puking earlier , what did i do wrong in my life to have yonghwa in my bedroom !    i brought a warm scented water and a towel , at least i'll take off his shirt that what i thought .. i started ing his shirt buttons one at a time , he was peeking at me through his long eyelashes , grinning widely ! GOD help me ..    i ed the last button , and supported him to raise his body a little to take it off .. his hands directly went to h