i stood by seohyun's doorstep staring at the passcode with deep thoughts .. 
somewhere within my heart i believed in this place as my only home , the only place that whelmed me with security and happiness , there was no place nor anything i wished to be or do aside from being here with them .. 

 
however it wasn't my home nor my place , i was just a guest who rang the door bell and hopefully waited for answer

seohyun opened the door for me , and i rushed into the villa to greet yonghyun 

" hyun~aaaah " i called for yonghyun attention as i walked in

the only advantage i got from knocking the door as a stranger was seohyun's being there answering the door for me , it had always been my one and only chance to take a quick glimpse of her , with every passing day - i grew more fonder of that second we spent for each other 

for today , seohyun's brown hair  was shorter for a few inches , with a lighter shade than usual ! 
she wore a black pajama that made her fair skin glow , a red nail polish that complimented that glowing aura with a thrilling taste ..
she smelled the same as usual - vanilla lotion scent , except for the fruity twist for tonight , must be the fruits flavored face mask i noticed in the fridge days ago while making yonghyun's breakfast .. 

" hyun~aaaah !! appa is here " i exclaimed once my eyes fell on my yonghyun ..

i had to follow seohyun's rules obediently so she would stay here close to me and never leave me again ..
ignoring her , giving her space or whatever , it was all getting easier as time passed

our feelings , pain and eventually memories together were all fading ,as a color shade getting fainter with time , with each brush or tears .. it was all getting fainter by now ..

" i recommend you to keep your distance if you're willing to save your white shirt " seohyun warned calmly as she closed the door ..

after taking a closer look , yonghyun's tiny palms were both dipped in a thick red and yellow paints as she sat on the floor painting on a huge white board 

" it's okay , it's not even my favorite shirt " i replied nonchalantly as i opened my arms wide to receive yonghyun .. yonghyun stared at me for a moment confirming my offer , she stood up and came smiling toward me 

" no way " 

seohyun out of nowhere caught yonghyun into her arms instead , carrying her away from me !!

i gritted my teeth in irritation at her signature selfish move , it was her profession by now to steal yonghyun's affection from me as if she belonged only to her 

" no , i'll not allow you to mess such an expensive shirt " seohyun said with a full determination looking directly at me and hugging yonghyun 

i looked at her in confusion , well .. i don't even remember the last time i understood her point but surely it was several years ago 

" mommy ... dirt ! " yonghyun murmured in shame

" it's okay hyun~ah , mommy will wash it all clean " she assured yonghyun as she put her down again 

she threw me a mysterious glance before she went toward her room .. as she left the room , i crawled toward yonghyun who got busy painting again .. 

i yonghyun's hair " how have you been , pretty ? " 

she gave me a smile as she busily brushed her tiny fingers along the white board ..

" so , what are you painting ? " i rolled up my sleeves unconsciously .. i stared at what i'm doing in confusion and stubbornly released my sleeves down again ..

i was alarmed by the sound of seohyun room being unlocked again so i went to her ..
i met her in the corridor , she had changed her pajama shirt into another clean shirt 

" and why are you the only one whose allowed to mess up their clothes ? " i crossed my arms arguing her logic

" it's just a pajama " she commented calmly as she walked into the bathroom and i followed her with a knotted brows 

" well , surely that pajama is more expensive than my shirt " i  challenged her unconvinced and she let out a soft giggle ! 

" simply .. your white shirt will never stand a chance if it got stained by those paints , while my BLACK pajama surely , certainly , without doubt , will have a 100% survival chance , YONG ... CHODING " 

i froze stunned and looking at her in disbelief , not for the way she reasoned things turning me into a noisy fool , but for that charming bright smile on her face , those sparkling stars that were certainly there in her eyes 

" got it ? " she asked for my cooperation pointing a finger at me , i almost nodded whole heartedly like a fool but held back ..

" still , it was my decision to get rid of that shirt anyway " i shifted my glance away to keep the professional angry face 

" arggh " she growled in pain giving up on me and turned to face the sink , manually washing her shirt , she continued with a cold tone " well , you still got the painting plate at the living room , do whatever you like " 

" why aren't you using the washing machine instead ? " i asked clueless 

" you better deal with the stains individually as a first step .. i think that way works better " she explained 

" you sound like my mom ! " i threw the words tinged with a bored sigh , i wandered my glance across the familiar bathroom , it didn't change a bit , actually nothing changed about this place .. 
~~~~~~
~ flashback ~ 

" hey , are you going to spend the night here " i nagged her as i walked into the bathroom

" i'm done " she assured me , her face immersed into the pool of water within her palms 

" seriously how many times did you wash your face , it has been like a 15 minutes or nearly forever " 

she laughed loudly as her hand blindly reached for the towel rack 

i pulled the towel away before she could reach for it and she sighed in pain " yong choding "  

" answer me first , how many times did you wash your face " 

" give it back or i'm going to use your shirt as my towel " she threatened and i giggled 

" call " i approved whole heartedly

" three times ! " she replied in defeat and i widened my eyes in a shock

" you still got some skin left on your face though ! ottokee " i mocked her and she snatched the towel from my hand drying her face .. 

she made sure she dried every single water drop on her face before she put the towel back on the wall rack , then she watched her reflection in the mirror before she slaps her cheeks feeling fresh and clean with a satisfied smile , i smiled too looking at her reflection 

she slid her arm into mine affectionately , keeping me close as we both watched each other reflection 

" lately , i'm getting this feeling .. " she started talking seriously with a wide smile , " we're getting more and more alike , just like a two faces of a the same seashell "  

" i'm sure i'm still taller though " i said frowning and she laughed hard 

" let's go , you aren't helping " she said with a depressed twisted lip as she intended to go 

i wrapped my arms around her waist fixing her in place " i'll behave " i promised her with a serious tone 

she took a soft deep breath as she gazed at my eyes through the mirror
 " whenever i look at myself in the mirror , i see you in me .. everything about me , reminds me of you " 

hearing her words my heart skipped a beat and my arms pulled her closer to my front , my gaze never escaped hers through the mirror 

she continued with a soft tone " so i thought maybe we're getting similar , if you think about it , our eyes looks more and more alike , right ? "

i gulped to clear my fool emotional tone " is it ? i'm not sure " i said solemnly 

she twisted her lips " but i really thought .. " 

i rested my head on her shoulder getting our faces closer " you are right " i approved softly as i watched our reflection 

she smiled " our noses too ? " she pointed at our noses cutely 

" our noses too " i admitted peacefully , my jaw bumping into her shoulder with each word , she giggled sweetly speculating how bored am i , although i wasn't bored a bit .. i was just thankful i got to be loved that much by such a sweet angel ..

" what else ... our lips too " she said with a rosy embarrassed cheeks 

" are they ? shall we compare ? " 

she bit her lip holding a smile as she wriggled to escape my grip " forget it " 

" it was getting interesting just now " i whined 

she rolled her eyes in disbelief " try again " 

" i think i know why you're getting this feeling of being alike  " 

she smirked mischievously " because we love each other ? " 

i shook my head denying and her eyes sparkled in curiosity as she turned over looking at me 
" because my soul loves yours so much , so stubbornly it keeps on hovering around yours leaving my body soulless , that's why i really need you close to me , your skin on mine , your gaze into mine , so i would breath my soul back to me , without you .. i can't really think about anything but coming back to wherever you were , over and over .. cause my soul exists right where you are " 

i brushed my thumb along her cheek bone and her deep brown eyes gazed right through me " what if your soul goes around following other girls later ! " 

" no way ! my soul is forever watching over you " i smiled brightly at her 

she acted unconvinced " let's say your soul loves me , what about your heart , mind .. etc , it would be a hassle if those go love other girls " 

" they all love you too , i swear " i tried to convince her

" i'm not sure yonghwa-ssi , you seem so out of control over your .. things ? " she said teasing and ended up with a ringing loud laugh

" now that you know about my dark personality conflicts , you have to help " i announced as i placed my hands under her hips and lifted her to sit on the sink edge , her shocked screams and y giggles didn't stop me but invited me over to provoke her more .. 

" what kind of help , baby ? " i changed my tone into a girly one taking seohyun role for instant 

" HEY !!! i said no thing !! " she shouted denying in embarrassment 

" well , i'll have to say it boldly since you asked , my love~ " i replied to myself , giving seohyun a naughty smirk 

" are you even listening to me ? " she wondered in loss acting clueless , however the enthusiasm in her breathing , the faint smirk on the corner of her lips and the slightly raised brow , told me everything and she was just looking forward for it as much as me 

i printed a kiss on her cheek and went from there to her ear whispering " we need to take things slowly tonight " 

she slid her hands on my back hugging me tightly " sounds like  a good plan to me " 

i shut my eyes to calm down my rushing excited heart as i pulled her closer for a kiss and she immediately responded as if patiently waiting for it , i climbed her lips over and over spending my builded up warm feelings into each brush , and mould , my body warmed with a thundering loving heat just and only for her ..

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~ present ~ 

that time i thought it was alright for her to fall completely for me , as it was alright for me to fall completely for her , i thought forever exists , i thought i'll never disappoint her .. 

" you're welcome " i heard the words between her gritted teeth that woke me up from such a reckless memory ..

my body was still fully heated with the fading thought , her warmth was still lingering at my finger tips , her taste within my mouth and scent .... i used my hand to fan over my red congested face .. since summer is already here , it's expected for bathrooms to be suffocating and warm i admitted 

my glance fell on her reflection and she was seriously immersed into washing that shirt .. i retreated my glance back leaving her reflection , however it fell on her hair next that was directly under my sight level 

" your hair .. " i murmured as my hand eventually reached and touched her hair 

" caught some paints from earlier " i explained with a low tone gazing at those brown glowing strands tinged with a red and yellow paint slashes 

" ah .. really ! " she wondered with a muffled tone 

" hmm " i nodded as i rolled her hair strands between my index and thumb pulling the paint away gently , i worked on the neighboring strands one by one , her silky straight hair made my job easier as my fingers slid effortlessly through it , i climbed her hair again and buried my fingers deeper for stability .. 

" hyun~ah " i called for her attention as my hands worked delicately on her hair 

" mmm ? " 

" why did you cut your hair shorter ? it's such a waste " 

" the hairstylist recommended , and it's just 2 inches .. i can't believe you noticed " she said casually 

curious about what does her gorgeous hair smells like when mixed with paint , i lowered my nose closer to her hair and breathed into it , the sweet evolution scent igniting my nostrils was addicing 

" of course i would notice , i'm always watching over you " 

i heard her magnified gulp clearly so i shifted my lustful gaze to our reflection in the mirror and caught her shocked gaze , a violent bang woke up my heart as it started bounding sharply ! 

just like cars rear view mirrors quote - our reflection looked much closer than what reality is ... as close as lovers !

seohyun turned over abruptly and pushed me out vigrously " i'll just wash my hair , i mean a bath ! i'll take a bath .. take care of yonghyun "  

" wait!  .. yaah " literally i was thrown out so suddenly before she shuts the bathroom door forcefully

what was that !! my body stiffened in confusion staring at the plain door for several minutes , i didn't do something wrong , did i ? i was just clearing her hair from paint and then i checked out the paint smell and then i met her gaze and then .. my heart raced ? 

my feet eventually walked me to the living room again 

" appa ~ " yonghyun called for me and i nodded at her , i thought i walked toward her spot but i realized i never did when she called for me again 
 " appa ? " 

" oh hyun~ah , i'm coming " i tried to break my stoned lips into a warm smile and went to sit beside her 

" appa ~ look " she asked for my attention again showing me her cute palm prints with various colors 

" waaaaaah !! you're really talented ! just like your appa " i her hair as a reward and she smiled

" should we draw a butterfly together ? " i asked her as i dipped my index in the red paint , she nodded vigorously with a sparkling eyes 

i giggled at her cuteness and started drawing " first we draw the body , wings ... antenna ... " 

my index drew while my mind thought and thought , i glanced the corridor again .. i wonder what kind of event would make seohyun rush out from the bathroom half ? 

" should we break a plate or two , hyun~ah ? " i asked yonghyun and she looked at me confused 

" or .. shall i shut the door loudly so she would think i left you all alone suddenly ? i bet she'll come out running  " i asked yonghyun and she shook her head in disapproval 

" yeah , it's a bad idea after all " i dropped my shoulders giving up on those wild thoughts and concentrated on drawing 

i continued seriously while i drew " then we draw the eyes like this .. "  

" do you usually bath with her ?" my mind kept drifting somewhere else 

" bath ? bubble game ? " yonghyun innocently asked and i palmed my face in pain , what am i doing to my innocent baby 

" hyun~ ah ! let's concentrate on the butterfly ok ? you should always do your best on whatever you work on , even drawing shouldn't be taken lightly , you need your mind , heart and hands while drawing , you never know who might notice your work and fall in love with it and eventually fall in love with you too .. then he'll have a hard time to take you off his mind .. you should be thankful you were born as a girl hyun~ah , it's really hard to be a guy , they suffer a lot .. i mean look at me .. i'm going crazy here acting like a teenager and for what ? i'm not even sure .. yes her hair smelled fabulous but i had good intentions , her shocked gaze was so y but it was just bad timing , i met her gaze by accident .. you know what i mean right ? i never planned anything " 

i looked at the quiet yonghyun and she was already busy drawing her own butterfly copying mine , i let out a heavy sigh 

" oooh ~ that's a really nice butterfly " i complimented her work as i got a hold of my mind

" yellow butterfly " she sounded extra cute as she proudly pointed at her work 

" shall we draw a flower next ? " i asked excited

" butterfly " she demanded and i giggled 

" what about a bunny , goes to ki to ki " i gestured my hands into a cute jumping bunny , she shook her head stubbornly 

" cat , meow meow ! " 

" butterfly " she insisted 

" you really like butterflies , huh " 

she nodded 

" let's make a butterfly with palm prints then " i announced and she gave me her whole attention , i dipped my palm in the yellow paint and started drawing

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 seohyun POV 

after a quick shower , i wore a shirt and jeans and tied my hair into a bun .. i took a cautious step outside the bathroom , checking out the corridor , right and left for a glimpse of any intruder .. he wasn't anywhere near the corridor so i calmed down taking a controlled breaths .. 

i took a sneaky lightning steps taking the wall as my cover , i leaned my head slightly spying on yonghyun and yonghwa who were busily drawing on the living room floor.. 

yonghwa laughed out loud talking with yonghyun and she rose her glance smiling at him widely .. 

" mommy !!!! " she shouted once she saw my glimpse behind the corner and i had a mini heart attack when yonghwa turned around confirming that i was really there ..

i knew i couldn't hide forever , so i walked a step into the room sticking my back to the wall for protection 

" juhyun~ah , come here " yonghwa suspiciously called for me

" wae ? " i asked him narrowing my eyes  

he gave me a clueless innocent gaze before he gesture for me to come
 " we need your help here " he said seriously and ended up giggling 

suspicious , suspicious , suspicious , i couldn't shook off the suspicious feels after what happened earlier at the bathroom .. i'm not sure whose fault was it back there , was i extra sensitive or was he the weird one !

" mommy come ~ " yonghyun called for me , copying yonghwa's gesture and tone ..

i took a slow cautious steps toward them , while yonghwa stared at me boldly as if it was our first meeting ! no doubt he had some kind of sick plan and i'll never fall for it

" what is it , hyun~ah ? " i asked with a muffled tone as i gazed at the drawing board for distraction 

yonghwa explained " we just made a family prints portrait , with yonghyun's palm print and mine , now we need yours too and we could frame it somewhere in her future room " 

i looked at the approximately 30x40 cm size portrait , which got yonghyun's cute yellow palm print and a bigger blue palm print belonged to yonghwa , there was a white vacant spot for my palm print too ! 

" waaahaaa ~ that's really cute !! i love the idea " i clapped my hands in excitement as i admired the warm family portrait , something was really sweet and beautiful about this simple portrait .. 

" hurry up and give us your signature too " yonghwa sounded really excited so i sat down beside him immediately and pulled the red paint closer to me , i sensed yonghwa's gaze penetrating right through me ! 

but i had to ignore him , the guy has always walked around with a pair of eyes ! so it must be me whose suddenly conscious to them .. i stretched my hand ready to dip it into the paint .. 

" i think i'll just do it from yonghyun's side , since i'm using my right hand " i exclaimed as i stood up abruptly and went to sit on ther other side next to yonghyun  ! 

" i guess so " yonghwa murmured with a clueless tone and i let out a heavy sigh .. i blamed him for such an awkward atmosphere 

i dipped my hand into the thick red paint and got ready to imprint my palm 

" wait ! " yonghwa shouted and caught my wrist stopping me , he explained " if the color too thick , it'll overshadow your palm details " 

" you're right " i nodded approving , clearly both of them practiced a thousand time to make such a flawless portrait 

" ok " i said 

" i understand " i said 

" i'll really do what you suggested , so could you let go of my hand please ! " i ended up saying boldly when yonghwa somehow forgot about restricting my wrist into his tight grip for a while now 

yonghwa awkwardly let go my hand and i practiced a print before i finally imprint my palm on the portrait .. 

later we rolled the white board and washed our hands from the paint , then we sat on the dining table , ready with our notebooks and pens to discuss the serious topic ~ yonghyun birthday ~ dividing our tasks since we got two days before the party .. 
while yonghyun sat on the table holding a paper and pen too mimicking us 

yonghwa gave me his full attention and i started with the task management 

" i'll buy the party supplies , decorations , the birthday cake , cupcakes , drinks and prepare the snacks and a quick dinner " i said and wrote it down in my note book immediately 

i continued as i shifted my gaze to yonghwa " and you ... " 

yonghwa got excited and spin his pen once eager to write his list too 

" i guess that's all " i remarked casually ending the discussion and he rolled his eyes letting out a heavy sigh

" seriously ? " he said with a hardly controlled tone checking out m