E&C studio ~ 7:30 p.m yonghwa POV    i arrived the studio and entered the storage room waiting for her arrival , the minutes passed by as years or longer .. i walked in circles nervously , the door was opened and she came in , talking on the phone as she waved cutely greeting me    " yes unnie , i'm still in the building i have something to do , just five minutes and i'll be back , ok thanks " she talked on the phone and ended the call    " oppa , what happened ? " she asked worried as she gave me her attention    and i thought how should i start the topic , how should i ask about her feelings for me for the past 4 years in just 5 minutes , suddenly i felt stupid rushing to meet her amidst her busy schedule ..   " yonghwa are you okay ? " she asked with a warm tone getting closer to me , i froze and my blood got drained from my face looking at her warm eyes , her hand reached for my cheek .. and i wondered about her warmth is it out of love ? , but it could be sympathy , friendship too it could be anything !!    " i'm not okay " i said as i held her gaze and she was shocked , i continued " i'm lost , confused and insecure "    she frowned confused , i held her hand on my cheek and said " you can easily touch me , you know where are you standing exactly and you got all the answers , i told you my feelings honestly but i never got to understand you , who am i in your life or how i should treat you "    her hand trembled as she pulled it back , she looked away " i don't understand what got you , but i'm busy right now "    " the damn 5 minutes didn't even end yet , so don't RUN AWAY ! " i shouted angry and she froze shocked    she turned around looking at me with teary eyes " what do you want to hear ?" she asked with a breakable tone    " i want to know the truth " i said with a suffocated tone    " i don't know wh..." she tried to say , " stop lying " i demanded    she started talking weakly " forget about this miserable connection we have , forget about it and live your life , look for your happiness away from me "   " and you just decided for my own happiness to be away from you ? "    " it should be "    " stop being selfish already , why would you decide my happiness for me !!! " i shouted    she shut her eyes and her tears rolled quietly over he cheeks as she said " i don't want you to waste your life satisfying me out of guilt and pity , you deserve to live happily too , loving someone truly and being happy just around her , but me ... every time you'll see me you'll just be reminded of your worst mistakes , i can't give you happiness i'll just give you sorrow and nightmares , it's the best if you just give up on me"     " i already know what is my happiness juhyun~ !! i'm adult and sane enough to decide for my self , that YOU are my happiness "    " stop please .. " she said with a faded tone    " it's me who should beg you to stop torturing both of us with your lies !! say it , say the already crystal clear truth " i begged her seriously , i can't believe how much time we have wasted while lying about our feelings ..    " say it please already " i begged her again as i got tired , i'm really tired thinking about it for years , having this kind of unrequited love with someone i broke so hard that i couldn't even try to ask for her forgiveness , let aside asking for her heart     i looked at her and she just stared back at me , did she ever love me ! has she ever forgiven me ?! i wonder if it's all my delusions , what if she really wanted to escape this miserable connection and i'm just holding her back ! she gave me sympathy and i mistook it for love ? my eyes got blurred with tears as i gave up ..    " it's alright , i got it .. " i said with sorrow  i really gave up , i'm already tired , my heart is broken and i just want to get drunk till i pass out , i sighed heavily as i wiped my miserable face , holding the door knob and ready to escape this suffocating room    " you're my happiness too " i heard her saying as she caught my hand !!    my heart throbbed loudly in my ears as i turned around to look at her    she continued as her voice trembled " i love you , i really do "    my heart stopped beating for a moment , and i thought that this is the second time i got to die in this life time and the first was 4 years ago when she collapsed outside her dorm ..    i didn't know what should i say and i've never imagined this moment before , i got dreams with her hating words but never got to dream about her saying i love you ..    her phone rang endlessly ! and we were just lost in our own thoughts , she reached for her phone as she fixed her glance on me , she canceled the call and pressed her lips together .. she opened the door and went out quietly and i was just frozen watching her leave ..    as i got aware late , i hurried out of the room and called for her " juhyun ! "    she stopped and glanced me    " i'll wait for you, to drive you back " i shouted excited    she nodded in agreement solemnly   ---------------------------------------------- ~ 9: 00 a.m ~ seohyun pov   i finished the photoshoot earlier but i just sat in some corner wasting time ..   i was nervous about meeting him , the last time we exchanged love lines was 4 years ago and A LOT of things happened since then .. i almost forgot about seohyun from that time , when i was happily in love with him , saying cheesy lines and losing my self in his arms ..    as i was thinking i received a message on my phone    (( come out already , i'm not going to eat you .... )) from : yonghwa    what the ...!!! how did he know ! is he watching over me ? i looked around startled but i didn't find anyone anyway    i went to the garage and found his car , i breathed in and out , i thought about all the possible ways to avoid him until i calm my heart down , i ended up repeating the word in my mind - seatbelt , seatbelt , seatbelt - !! i have to remember to put on the seatbelt  so he wouldn't get the chance to trap me .. i kept on repeating the secret word till i opened his car door    i entered solemnly and i got hell nervous    " you have worked hard " he said and i nodded keeping my glance on my lap    " your cast already made their way to home 15 minutes earlier so i got worried about you " he said    " sorry you've waited for too long " i said    " yeah , i've waited for way too long actually " he said seriously with a low tone staring at me , i pouted my lips ignoring him    " your seat b... " he was saying ! oh god i forgot anyway    " i'll do it myself " i shouted nervously   " i didn't even move !! " he said seriously and i got embarrassed !! argh i'm just so stupid , he stared at me for a moment and then he started laughing hysterically    " what's so funny ?" i asked frowning    " why are you so nervous ? " he asked grinning    " it's because you are a ert ! so i have to be cautious " i said challenging him      " i'm not sure who's the real ert here though " he said with a smirk    " what do you mean ? "    he looked at me confidently and i got a bad feeling about it , however he started talking " earlier i just kept thinking about all our encounters the past months , and i have to say you weren't that innocent after all "    " are you really asking for me to just get off this car and take a taxi instead ? " i said frowning irritated    he started the car and drove " those times you weren't cute either "    " that's my pleasure " i replied instantly irritated    " but i loved you anyway " he continued seriously and i fell silent .. i almost forgot about it , he's aware now that i'm in love with him , he's aware that i'll love his every love line even if i acted sulky and uninterested    -------------------------------------------------- yonghwa POV   

i arrived her villa garage and parked the car , i took a deep breath as i shifted my glance on her , she was frozen staring at her hands on her lap as she has done the whole ride ..

  " mmm we are here already " i said to get her attention and she abruptly glanced me giving me an extra attention so i got nervous suddenly    " ah .. " she nodded as she shifted her glance away    " good .. night " i said regretting as i knew it means ending our meeting for tonight but i think we got a lot of next opportunities , maybe she needs time to calm down tonight ..    " good night " she said as she held the door knob    " wait !! " i shouted and she looked at me    my heart raced as i glance her lips , if we are in love with each other , then it's alright to ...    " mmm .. can we .. i mean is it okay to ... " i said stuttering words i didn't understand them my self , i got more nervous as i was thinking of giving up on the reckless suggestion     she gulped nervously and nodded slightly directing her face toward me and shut her eyes , literally she gave me the chance to !! i went closer printing a wet gentle kiss on her lips to give her my taste ..    i retreated my lips and went back to my seat , she opened her eyes and got aware of her moistened lips so she every bit of her lips while still gazing at me .. my body shivered in desire as i coaxed my self to let it pass tonight as we didn't even talk probably yet    she gulped soundly as her hand reached for the door knob again and went out " bye .." with a fake smile as she closed the door    i watched over her steps as she went inside the building ..    she left already ! .. i got off the car and took a quick steps to catch up with her , i entered the building and stood beside her waiting for the elevator too   " i have to make sure you made it to your villa safely " i said as i got aware of her confused stare    " as a gentle man ? " she chuckled and glanced my hand to hold onto , i interlaced our fingers holding hands probably    the elevator door slid open so we went in quietly , it was so quiet we almost forgot that we are together except for our hands molded together , our crazy racing heartbeat too   we arrived her villa's floor , she entered the villa passcode quietly and opened the door and went in still holding my hand ..    i froze outside the door and she got aware when her arm extended to compensate for our growing distance , she turned around to stare at me ..   and i stared back at her , now that i got to know that she loves me too i was scared from being in the same closed place as her , i questioned her with my eyes - if she's really okay letting me in with my burning body, reckless mind and intoxicated heart  ..    she looked at me as she gulped , and glanced our hands thinking about it .. then she looked at me again " would you like to .... " she was saying with a cautious tone    that's when i rushed inside closing the door behind me and went to her lips    " drink somethi...." she was saying before i brush my lips on hers passionately    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ seohyun pov   he didn't step inside my home still holding my hand , i wondered what's wrong as i held his gaze , he said it wordlessly that i have to take the responsibility for my decision later , letting him in - was left for me to decide    i gulped and my heart raced as i knew that i'm inviting him over , to love me the way he craved for since god only knows how many years ..   " would you like to dri......" i didn't finish my invitation and found his lips brushed on my lips passionately !    however he pulled his lips away lazily glancing my eyes as he angled his face for another gentle kiss , i got weak in my knees and my breathing hitched up , i replied to his kisses unconsciously , he kept it slow and gentle and i was losing the tension in my body , getting unstable and dizzy , it was delicate and i got his every little lip graze , taste and softness .. he rested his hand on my neck taking his time to intoxicate me lazily , it was totally different than MBC event night , and i wondered how could he be the same person ..    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  i kissed her gently and sweetly , i let go of her hand and surrounded an arm along her waist pulling her closer , to feel her warmth , grinding our bodies to each other and my heart raced harder , my body burned in need , i coaxed her to open entangling our tongues and she just proved her passion , her hand slid on my neck massaging it sensually and she would never imagine how her every touch drives my body to the edge