Reason to Reconsider #1: Confusion
☠x The Noona Hater x☠
For cousin Rica! Haha. You know who you are! ♥
I laid my head on my desk, bored.
I wish Prof would arrive already.
I wish this day would enddd~.
This is soooo...
Hmm...
Banana milk. ♥
Banana milk day today!
Hmm...wait. I forgot. It's Monday today.
It's supposed to be Strawberry milk day!
I smiled sleepily to myself as I thought about this very important matter.
Monday:Strawberry Milk
Tuesday:Banana Milk
Wednesday:Mango Milk
Thursday:Sacrifice Day--Water.
Friday:Choco Milk
Speaking of Choco milks...
I almost smirked when she came to my mind again.
Seriously. Poor girl.
She's totally not thinking straight anymore.
I laughed hollowly to myself.
It was almost funny when she suddenly kissed him like that.
ALMOST. ALMOST FUNNY.
Do you know why it's only ALMOST funny to me?
Oh, right. BECAUSE IT WASN'T FUNNY AT ALL!!!
NO. I DID NOT EVEN FIND IT EVEN A LITTLE BIT AMUSING!
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HOW DARE SHE KISS HIM LIKE THAT—
Oh. *pants* I'm sorry for abusing the caps lock like that in my head.
It's just that...
How could she suddenly kiss someone like that?!
She's a girl for goodness sakes!
Wasn't she taught proper decorum and all those stuff?
I totally do not appreciate how she just suddenly grabbed—
"You totally deserve it!! You jerk!"
My head snapped up in surprise at the words, and I cannot explain it, but it felt like I was kicked in the chest when I heard them.
So very much like the feeling I got when Minho hyung suddenly threw the ball at me that one time he was drunk.
Although I was suspecting that he really wasn't drunk at that moment like he was claiming, given that he hadn't consumed any alcohol in the first place!
Yeah, yeah. It was totally out of anger because I beat him in basketball. Pfft. What a sore loser.
Okay, it hurts just like that.
Except that this one...
seemed to have an extra kick added to it.
I looked at my seatmate who had been the one to utter the words and I was left shocked.
"Onew hyung? O:"
"Yeah?" He was holding up a book.
I looked at him in confusion, wondering why he had said those words.
He only looked back at me in confusion as well.
"Uh..." He blinked.
"Er..." I mumbled.
"Hmm..." He continued to blink.
"Uhm..." I crossed my arms.
"Fuuuuuu..." He shrugged.
I sighed and decided to speak up, or else we will be left doing these strange sounds all day.
"Why did you...suddenly say that? Are you mad at me or something?" I asked timidly.
"Eh?" He looked at me blankly.
"Me? Why would I be mad?"
"You just suddenly yelled out those words..." I mumbled.
"Oh. That! I was reading off a book! Hehe. Sorry. Did I read it too loud?"
"A little..." I sighed in relief.
"Ah. Sorry about that Minnie. This book was just so..." He raised the book up so that I could get a better look.
I nodded, not really caring anymore.
Whew. I totally thought those words were aimed at me or something.
"Yeah! Really sorry about that! This book is just so...funny!" He smiled and almost smashed the book in my face.
"Don't you want to know why it's funny, Taemin?"
I leaned my head back.
"Not really."
"Oh come on!" He said in an unusually loud voice.
"Of course you do!"
I looked at him incredulously, realizing that he really wasn't going to stop until I give in.
"Alright. What book is that?" I asked bored.
He grinned triumphantly.
"Oh, just something Yuna lent me! It's really good! I feel like I understand girls more now!" He looked at me meaningfully.
"I mean, you know, this book contains situations and how girls would normally react. See here?" He pointed at the page he was reading.
"In this situation, the guy doesn't show up for a date with the girl and..."
I cleared my throat, my face reddening.
Surely, Onew hyung didn't know what happened, right?
"And?" I asked nonchalantly.
"And the one I read earlier, that was the reaction of the girl. Here," He handed me the book.
"You'll act as the boy and I'm the girl."
"Eh?!"I stared at him. Onew hyung is being weirder than usual.
"Okay, let's pretend that we suddenly saw each other the next day after you ditched me the night before in our scheduled date."
I continued to stare at him, my mouth gaping open.
"Go on. Read the line."
He urged me.
I blinked rapidly.
"Oh...uh...okay." I cleared my throat again.
"Uh...hey, insert name of girl here..." I looked at Onew hyung questioningly.
"Good, good. Continue." He nodded.
"Uh, but...what name should I call you?"
"Name?" He looked at me blankly.
"Yeah. It says here insert name of girl--"
"Oh right. Well, why don't you just call me..." His eyes travelled around the room.
"Yu...Gyu...Nah...Ah! I know!" He looked at me meaningfully again then smiled.
"Aya! Call me Aya!"
I looked at him in disbelief.
"Is this a freaking joke?!"
"No. Now do it! Hurry!" He panicked.
Out of all the names...
"Fine." I grunted and read off the book again.
"Hey, uh...A...ya.." I shifted my look to the book, my hands sweating.
"What's...up?"
"Hmpf." Onew hyung crossed his arms in accordance to acting within his character.
"Uh..." This is so awkward!
"So I...failed the test today. How about you?"
I made a face as I read this line.
This book is such BS! Who the hell wrote it?!
"You totally deserve it!! You jerk!"Onew hyung suddenly shouted his line out loud, complete with a slap on my cheek, garnering the stares of all the students in the room.
Ow!I rubbed my cheek.
"What the hell...Hyung! That hurts!"
"Sorry." Onew hyung looked mortified.
"It says here to slap the way you would slap a jerky, heartless, cold person."
I winced. "That book is stupid."
"Let's do the next scene now!" Onew hyung looked excited.
I immediately felt embarrassed.
"Uh...I don't think we should do this anymore." I gave him the book back awkwardly.
"But why?!" He whined.
"Don't you want to do the next part? The corrective action?" He suggested pleadingly.
"No." I mumbled and stared ahead.
"Oh come on~" Onew hyung continued to beg but I ignored him.
How could I do that part?
It was simply ridiculous.
After all, the words under the corrective action method were:
Apologize to the girl. With all your heart. Make sure you mean it.
--
ONEW'S POV
"So, how did our plan go?" Yuna whispered to me.
"Terrible." I sighed and crossed out GUILT BOOK in our list.
"I think I slapped him too hard..." I said worriedly.
"Yeah...his left cheek seems reddish."
I sighed. "I'm afraid that even if I knock him out with multiple slaps, he won't get it. He won't apologize to Aya."
Yuna shook her head.
"What should we do then?"
"I don't know. Something more drastic? What if we lock them in a room together?"
She made a face and shook her head.
"Throw eggs at him from the rooftop?"
She stared at me. "Huh?"
"Rocks. How about rocks then?" I suggested.
"How is...throwing something at him going to make any difference in the situation?" She seemed dubious about my genius plans.
"I don't know..." I shrugged.
"He'll probably think, Oh no! The heavens are punishing me because I've been such a bad person! Or something like that, right?"
Yuna still seemed doubtful about my brilliant plan.
"Okay, how about this," I spread out my hands.
"We take away his banana milk supply!"
I nodded importantly. Genius idea, Onew. Genius!
"How will that make him apologize to Aya?" Yuna raised a brow.
"I told you! We need to make him realize that the heavens are punishing him!"
Yuna sighed. "I'm not sure that will really work..."
"You're right." I sighed as well.
"Taemin can always buy banana milk outside." I pouted.
"Uh-huh..."
"What if we just hire a hit man to threaten Taemin. Kind of like, HEY YOU JERK! APOLOGIZE TO AYA OR ELSE WE'LL STONE YOU TO DEATH, YO!" I threw my hands around for a dramatic effect, feeling so proud and hyper.
I've always been good at making up threat messages!
"Oh wait, and he has to have a knife pointed to Taemin's neck while saying this. So that it'll be more effective." I nodded importantly again.
Yuna looked scared and I felt kind of bad.
"Don't worry, Yuna." I patted her hand comfortingly.
"He won't really hurt Taemin. I swear."
"Do you..." She swallowed.
"Always think that way?" She whispered, her eyes widening.
"Well...no. Most of the time, I'll just go with the throwing of eggs trick. But this is a desperate situation, yes? Desperate measures must be taken! Besides we need to make sure that he realizes that the heavens are pu--"
"Okay, okay." She held up a hand, laughing.
"But I think that the heavens would have a different way of punishing people, Onew. Anyway, I'm not sure this is a good idea. How will Aya forget about Taemin if we do these things?"
"Aya needs to hear Taemin's apology. Otherwise, she'll always be hurt once she thinks about him."
"You're right." She sighed.
"It's just that...that boy. Seriously!" She fisted her hands.
I looked at her unhappily.
"I'm sorry. I think I should take responsibility. I might have given Aya a nudge in the wrong direction."
Her eyes widened.
"Of course not! It's not your fault Taemin is a total jerk, bastard, stupid, scumbag who should--"
"Well, I think you should give me your number." I took out my cellphone with a flourish.
"E-Eh?" She blushed.
Wait. Why is she blushing?
"Uh..." I suddenly felt embarrassed.
"Just so you know...if we have any more ideas...we can contact each other."
"Ah..." She nodded slowly, blushing more.
"O-Okay then."
"Heh...Yuna...you're blushing." I smiled teasingly.
"I-I am??" She blushed even more. So cute.
"Yeah. It's really cu--"
"That's only because I have ALLERGIES! THAT'S ALL!" She suddenly said in a loud voice and I blinked.
"Really? What are you allergic to then?"
"Uh..." She looked away.
"Is it me?" I said sadly.
"You're allergic to me, aren't you?" I felt strangely unhappy.
Is it because of my strange plans that's why she suddenly became allergic to me?
Maybe the heavens are punishing me! For coming up with such devious plans against my friend. D:
"Of course not!" She said hastily.
"I'm allergic to...to..uh..butterflies. That's all."
"Butterflies?" I asked wonderingly.
"But there's no butterfly around..."
"Never mind that!" She shook her head and took my phone in a hurry.
"Here's my number, okay?" Then she stood up quickly while I looked at her contact in my phone.
"Wait!" I halted her.
"What?" She looked nervous.
"Won't you sit beside me?" I gave her my best smile.
"You can be my sidekick! Oh! Wait! No! I mean..." I thought hard.
"How about...you just be my partner? In the Operation: Make Aya and Taemin Friends Again! With a sub-mission of Making Taemin Sorry for Being a Jerk!" I grinned, hoping I didn't sound or look dorky.
Her face brightened.
"Really? You want to be partners? With me?"
"Of course! There's no one else!" I placed a hand on my heart and took out one of my hands to her.
"So, partners?"
She smiled and I gulped at how my heart seemed to beat fast at that sight.
"Partners." She sat back down and shook my hand.
Well,I thought as I didn't let go of her hand quickly,
this would definitely be a mission to look forward to.
--
TAEMIN'S POV
I stared in front blankly, apparently, my seatmate had left me.
Onew hyung was now sitting at the other side, beside Yuna noona.
Oh well. Better her being forced to read all those weird situations instead of me!
I drummed my fingernails against the desk, waiting for the bell to ring.
I wanna go home sooo bad.
Suddenly, a figure emerged, opening the room's front door.
I straightened up, thinking it was Prof Yunho...except that it's not.
She paused for a second or two when she opened the door and I was the first one she saw.
I stared back at her, my lips unknowingly curving into a small smirk once again.
I half expected her to throw me that pained look again, but no.
Nope. This time, she only took a deep breath, looked at me straight in the eye, held a blank face (probably mirroring mine) and took off for her seat at the back.
It felt weird.
Today marks the first day that she went to class again after that cafe incident.
Today was also not the first time that she didn't greet me "Good Morning!" and smiled at me widely which usually annoys the hell out of me.
I stared ahead as well, not daring to look back at her.
So what if she's throwing around a cold aura at me?
I didn't care then and I don't care now.
--
Tuesday; Banana Milk Day—
I arrived in class, setting my backpack on the seat beside me since Onew hyung was over at Yuna noona's place again.
Some of my classmates were huddled together, trying to solve the problems that were given as an assignment. I sighed in relief, thank goodness I had finished all of that yesterday.
I do not understand why they have a hard time with it, it's fairly easy.
I see Yoseob sunbae waving his empty paper around, offering free pizza in exchange for doing his assignment.
I laughed, what a lame offer.
Pizza? He could have just offered steak or whatever, and I'll do it for him in no time.
Once again, I rested my head on my desk and took out my iPod to soundtrip.
The door opened hurriedly and I lifted my head up.
I immediately felt weird once again.
"Good--" She stopped short and pursed her lips.
She paused at the door, her hand on the handle, when I was the first person she saw at her line of sight.
Except that I'm not really in her line of sight, out of habit I guess, that's why her eyes automatically rests on me whenever she comes in for class.
I stared back at her, almost willing her to explain to me that the kiss I witnessed two days ago was nothing but an impulse, a second thought, something so random.
But she didn't say anything.
However, I didn't mind this, I was only a teeny tiny bit glad that she still seemed to flinch from my presence.
I know, it's mean. But that's not exactly my fault.
--
At lunch time, I had seen Onew hyung trying to bring Aya noona to our table and I almost groaned inwardly.
But Yuna noona came to take her away, glaring at me the whole while and even had a private talk with Onew hyung for a minute or two, I briefly heard Onew hyung apologizing for being 'insensitive to Aya's situation', what he was being insensitive about, I have no idea.
The last thing I saw was Onew hyung giving his usual small thermos of green tea to Yuna noona who had blushed and took it almost shyly.
I also saw Aya noona's looks on me, I felt it.
I felt her sadness too, but I tried my best to ignore it.
"Puzzled yet?" I heard Key hyung asked Minho hyung over at the lunch table.
The question wasn't directed to me, but I felt the urge to answer it inside.
"What's there to be puzzled about?" I mumbled as I stared at her as she struggled to keep a blank face.
I didn't give another thought to her for the rest of the day.
Wednesday; Mango Milk Day--
I was early for class today as well.
Aya and Yuna noona came in moments later.
Once again, no Good Mornings came out of .
Yuna noona glared at me again, I have no idea why she's mad at me.
Did I do something wrong?
Nevertheless, I continued to soundtrip while Onew hyung took his usual seat next to me, throwing me meaningful looks the whole time.
"What?!"I finally exploded, taking off my headphones, when I caught him staring at me yet again.
"How can you sleep at night, Taemin?" He shook his head.
"What are you talking about?!"
He only gave me a sorrowful look.
"I thought I had raised you better than this. Where did I go wrong?!"
I gaped at him in confusion.
"It's fine." He sighed heavily.
"I will just punish myself later."
I literally facepalmed. What has gotten into him?
--
After the day was over, I walked over to the front gate alone, I had to stay behind to finish my English paper and had asked all of my friends to go home without me.
As I was nearing the field towards the gates, I felt a strong whack on the front of my face.
I fell down and groaned at the pain.
Uggghh. Ow.
"OH MY GOSH! YOU HIT HIM!" I heard someone say and I struggled to open my eyes.
Five seniors crouched and surrounded me, looking concerned.
"Are you okay?" I recognized her as Hara sunbae, this really pretty senior that Minho Hyung seems to like.
"Yeah." I groaned.
"Ugh. Nasty. His nose is bleeding!" Bom sunbae wrinkled her nose.
"Oh my god..." I turned my head at the tiny gasp and found Aya noona--I mean, sunbae--biting her lips and seemed to be in confusion as to what she should do.
I saw her immediately took out a tissue and I almost took my hand out to get it from her but she hesitated and pulled her hand back.
I looked into her eyes, wondering what she was hesitating about.
She held my gaze for a second longer before turning away and standing up, dusting herself off and placed the tissue pack inside her bag.
"Come on girls, it's time for practice. We have a game for next week." She said in a neutral voice.
“But team captain...this kid...” Jiyeon sunbae looked at me in concern.
Aya sunbae looked at for a second, her gaze quickly flicking from concern to blankness.
"He can take care of himself. He's a junior, not a middle school kid." She said coldly and I saw her hands , crumpling the tissue she was supposed to give me underneath it.
"W-what?" I tried to sit up properly; I was puzzled by her indifference, why wasn't she rushing to take care of me?
She gave me a formal bow.
"I'm apologizing in behalf of my team mate for her recklessness resulting to your bleeding nose, and I dare hope not, a concussion."
I gaped at her and her honorifics.
Is this truly Aya noona?
"Get back to practice!" She ordered and the girls dispersed to head over to the field.
"I suggest holding your head up and sticking a tissue or a nose tampon up there." She mumbled and jogged away.
I stared at her in awe and disappointment.
She didn't even ask me if I was okay.
I don't know how long I was there sitting, still dumbfounded, by the field as I try to process all of this, all I know was that I felt a hard whack on my head yet again.
"OH NO!"I heard their chorused shouts of horror and the next thing I knew, everything went black.
--
I groaned and opened my eyes.
The first thing I saw were white walls, a girl in a nurse outfit--oh wait, that's our school nurse, I quickly turned my head away.
Our school nurse was always trying to look y and hot, but she looks like a freaking dude. It's disgusting!
I also saw Jiyeon and Bom sunbae.
"Oh, he's awake!" Bom sunbae looked excited.
"Thank goodness. Are you okay?" Jiyeon sunbae looked at me worriedly.
I was about to answer when suddenly, there was this hoard of girls entering the clinic.
I stared at them, surprised.
The girls’ volleyball team is here.
"Hey, what are you guys doing here?" Jiyeon sunbae looked surprised.
"Captain cut the practice short. She kept on missing the serves."
"Really?" Bom sunbae looked surprised.
"Yeah. We rushed here immediately."
"Is he okay?"
"Poor thing."
"What's his name again?"
I ignored their questions and the water and the painkillers that they were offering to me.
"Uh...sunbae, is the whole volleyball team here?" I asked meekly and they nodded dismissively.
"Sure...sure."
"We wanted to make sure you're okay..."
Everyone's here?
No. Not everyone...
She's not here.
I realized with a heavy heart as I scanned their faces one by one again and again.
She didn't even come to see me.
Thursday; Sacrifice Day: Water--
I came to class early, strangely though, I was the only one there. Usually, there are about 5-6 people in the room before I arrive.
Oh well, I guess I'm extra early or something.
--
It was 8:00AM and still, no one but me was on the room.
I panicked, have I missed an announcement about today's class or something??
WHERE IS EVERYONE?!
I grabbed my phone and proceeded to call Ontokki hyung but he wasn't answering.
Weird. He always answers his phone.
The only other person in my contacts that's also my classmate in this subject is--
"I'm HERE! PROF! I'M SO SORRY! TRAFFIC WAS--"
I stopped short in fiddling with my phone to find Aya noo--SUNBAE! WHY THE HELL DO I KEEP ON FORGETTING THAT!!--by the door, panting.
She sobered up immediately when she noticed that the room was empty except for me.
"What the?!" She said in disbelief.
I stood up. "Noo--Sunbae..."
She quickly turned around for the door in a panic when she saw me.
"! !" She rattled the doorknob continuously in a hurried way.
I felt like a freaking ghost or something and she was running away from me...
Well, that hurts.
I crossed my arms and watched her struggle for awhile.
"Ugh! Come on! OPEN UP!! WHY ARE YOU EVEN LOCKED IN THE FIRST PLACE?!" She shouted to the poor door and I sighed, finally giving in.
I put my hand on the handle and she froze.
"Here, let me." I mumbled. She immediately took her hands away and stepped back.
I fiddled with the handle, it was turning but it wasn't opening.
That's odd.
I decided to slam my weight but it wouldn't even budge.
I gave up after five tries.
"It's no use." I muttered helplessly.
"Oh no." She groaned.
I made a face, she didn't need to let me know so much that she didn't like being stuck in a room with me.
"Don't we have calculus today?" I asked quietly.
She gave me a look.
"Do you honestly think I know? If we didn't have one, I wouldn't even be rushing here."
I flinched, cold much?
"Why are you so mad at me?" I asked, unable to help myself.
She laughed in disbelief.
"Are you seriously asking me that?!"
"Why not?" I scoffed.
"You were the one who went around KISSING SOMEONE!"
"You jerk! You were the one who kept on flirting and not showing up and--" She paused and I saw her taking a deep breath.
“You were the one who kept on smiling that way and intentionally hurting me! You were the one who refused to go--” She bit her lip as a sob escaped her lips.
"You were the one who broke my heart again and again...With no warnings. No second thoughts. Nothing." She murmured and I saw a teardrop escape her eyes.
My heart tightened and I automatically moved to comfort her but she stepped back more.
"Please Taemin. No more. Please. I've had enough. I can only take so much." She sobbed.
"Noona..." I felt so guilty.
Did I really hurt her that much?
"Noona, I'm so..." I bit my lip, trying to say the words out loud but I was having difficulty with it.
"It's sunbae. Not noona. I'm still your senior." She sniffed and grabbed her bag.
"Wait! Noona! Where are you--"
She went to the back and yanked the door.
Surprisingly, it opened.
Woah. Why didn't I think of that before?!
I hurried after her only to find Yuna sunbae and Onew hyung outside, looking crestfallen.
"How could you?!" Aya n--sunbae looked betrayed.
"You knew I was trying so hard to get over him! You guys are freaking crazy and heartless!" She said angrily and stalked away.
"Wait! Aya! I’m sorry!!"Yuna sunbae hurried after her.
"Well, that . I knew the 'locking in room idea' wouldn't work." Onew hyung muttered in defeat.
"Hyung. Why'd you do that?" I was upset, mainly because she's upset.
Which is a surprise.
What's happening to me?
"I was trying to help, okay?" Onew hyung sighed.
"Help?" I snorted and he glared at me.
"You could have at least taken advantage of the opportunity."
"What?" I stared at him.
"You could have done the corrective action, Taemin." He mumbled and took his things and Yuna noona's which was left scattered on the floor.
"I have to go...see if Yuna needs help." He sighed and walked away.
I stared after them, feeling confused and guilty and sad.
Sad.
I felt sad.
"It's not that easy, okay?" I replied to his statement even though I was alone now.
"She was a noona. A noona. What was I supposed to do? Have a sudden change of heart?"
I knew I'm the jerk in this story.
But why can't they at least try to see my side--my situation, for a change? :(
Reason to Reconsider #1: Confusion
Reason to Reconsider #1: Confusions Hurt.
you have (1) HATE MAIL
I know. I didn't say here who got kissed.
It's on the next chapter. I promise.
At least...I think so. Haha. Kidding. It's really on the next chapter.
Oh, and if you missed my non-chapter update last time, I just mentioned that this thing would have no color codings anymore. :D
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