Niel's P.O.V

At first I didn't realize what was happening. I needed at least ten seconds to notice the touch generally. My first intention was that I was dreaming anyway. As the feeling didn't subside I slowly opened my eyes widening them even more. It was... real?

I slowly moved my lips not really knowing what to do. It wasn't as if you were kissed out of the blue everyday. My brain didn't function at all, which was why I didn't question his doings that moment. Only directed by instinct my hands softly placed themselves onto his torso, creeping upwards slowly.

Then I felt something wet poking against my lower lip and I willingly obliged opening my mouth. The dusted clouds in my mind made their way downwards. First into my throat, (letting me feel a big lumb), over to my chest and then they slowed their pace in my stomach area swirling around. It caused several sensations. Many colorful butterflies came to life filling me out and warming me. As soon as that happens the rest of my body noticed the situation eventually. I got goosebumps like everywhere and I shivered when Minsoo over my bottom lip. The moment I pulled him closer, something changed and he backed away, raising a hand to his lips.

I crawled after him, but was stopped from the edge of the couch. I used puppy eyes instinctively to tell him to come back and continue. Minsoo... you can't leave me like that. I tried to put into the gaze.

The guy just stood there and shook his head. No Minsoo, no! Come here again!

One of C.A.P's fingers traveled along his lips, shaking his head constantly. This was everything but good. I would have pleaded if I only was allowed to speak, but I was not. So I was left on the couch, huddled.

I heard footsteps becoming quieter. He had to have left the room. And I was left alone. Without him. Only then I jumped to my feet and widened my eyes. I. HAD. BEEN. KISSED. From Minsoo, at that. The guy I admired had kissed me and … hell. I sighed as a shiver remembered me of the feeling I had have only seconds ago. There were questions appearing in my mind like not-removable pop ups. Why did he left me? How should I act around him now? And last but not least: Why did he even started kissing me? I had no answers to none of the questions. All I knew was that I wanted to feel C.A.P's lips again.

I closed my eyes and put two finger onto my lips. Imaginations of what could have been, overwhelmed me and made my knees shake. Damn it! Damn it, Damn it! I sighed and sat down onto the couch again. What was I supposed to do now? I mean I could just go and leave him, but why should I? The thing was he was the one that initiated the kiss, but he also was the one to stop it at the most romantic moment. I couldn't figure why he was acting like that. It didn't make sense for me.

Suddenly the door rang and I winced as it scared me. I took the blanket that had fallen off of me and hid beneath. I wasn't there. If you can't see it, it is not there either.

I could hear Minsoo opening the door. When the guy, who was standing outside began to talk I remembered. He had ordered pizza. Minsoo payed without saying much. Actually, Minsoo was the exact opposite of me when it comes to talking. If we just had met in another way than we had, I would be the one talking none-stop, but like it happened I was basically the one not to talk at all. If he just knew. If I just could go and tell him what I was thinking. That I was thankful that he literally adopted me. But it wasn't like that. No... it seemed to have another reason. He hadn't adopted me. He had given a stranger a roof above his head. There had to have been some mental disfunction that made him somehow caring about me.

“Nemo?”, Minsoo called coming into the room. “Oh no... you're not really again under that stupid cover...” He pulled it away and had his usual caring yet alluring smile on his lips as if nothing had happened. As I didn't react, he knelt down next to me and began my head softly. He didn't say anything, probably again thinking I couldn't hear it anyway. Then he lifted me up and carried me into the kitchen, placing me onto one of the chairs. “Look the pizza arrived.”, he said showing me the paper boxes. I just blinked. I felt like frozen when looking at him. How was he able to act normal? He was lying to himself when he pretended the last 10 minutes hadn't happened.

C.A.P threw me a worried look, as I didn't react to the pizza he showed me. “You must be hungry...”, he said to himself. He swallowed and put one piece onto a plate after cutting the pizza. He situated it in front of me and turned his expression into a smiling and kind one, which he usually did when he didn't know what to do anymore. I kept sitting and made no signs that I would move the following minutes. “Nemo, you have to eat...”, Minsoo tried, but it was useless. I couldn't just eat. The elder turned away, hiding his face in his palms.

I wanted to cry. I really wanted. What was his problem now? Minsoo, here I am, here the music plays! Here has to be your attention. I shoved the plate away from me, crossing my legs and arms. I had to look like some offended little kid. I don't get what I want, you're not paying attention, so I'd just sit there doing nothing and refusing to eat. Right!

“Nemo... you're gonna starve acting like this...”, Minsoo said, voice again calm and soothing. God knows how this guy can have a mental breakdown one second and the next one can act like a professional psychotherapist. I looked up and unconsciously raised my hand to cover my lips. The boy watched me extensively and sighed. He opened his mouth as if to say something, but shook his head after doing so. “You can't understand me...”, he stated. “It does not want into my brain... I can't accept you being disabled. I do not want to...”, he stopped biting his lip. “But... otherwise I'd feel like using you.”

I just blinked as I took in his words. He was talking crap. He was in no way using me. He gave me board and lodge, even more than I could've dreamed of. He even seemed to care about my well-being. Who exactly was the one using who? All I wanted from him was to see me the way I was... To see me as someone equivalent. But how was I doing that without shedding my disguise? Arrgh! Was it really that difficult to just kiss me again?

I pressed the other hand onto my mouth as well, eyes widening in shock. Bless god I hadn't spoken in weeks, so that I didn't say that aloud. I wanted to hit my head to the table in front of me. Hard! Niel why are you just so stupid?

I felt my hands being lifted off of my mouth. Minsoo had cut my pizza into small pieces and forked up one of them. He blew it cool and held a hand under it making sure not to dirty the table. “Nemo say Ah~”, he whispered acting like I was some 5-year-old. I had the urge to shake my head, but stopped on time. I opened my mouth and let the elder stuff the food inside it. Chewing lightly I smiled without me doing something about it. The pizza was delicate. I was sure I hadn't eaten something comparable in ages.

But I wasn't hungry so I shook my head when Minsoo showed me the next piece.

“What's the problem now?”, Minsoo asked confused nearly at the end of his strengths. I knew better than to react in any way. Deaf means I cannot hear him. I saw him shaking his head. “You know what? Maybe you just don't like pizza... I never met a person not loving it, but okay...” His shake turned into a nod. “It's okay...”, he said near to tears. “But it doesn't matter... you... I have to make sure that you eat enough.”

C.A.P's P.O.V

The problem was not exactly that I thought Nemo was too light. Actually he just had gained weight, which was the exact reason why I didn't want not eating to become a habit. I had seen him all bony and fragile and, if he was sure of one thing, he never wanted to witness that ever again. I know, if I wanted him to eat tonight, I needed some freaking good idea to convince him.

If I tried it by coaxing him or persuading I wouldn't succeed, since with Nemo this whole thing got to a totally different level. I was sure that I needed to impress him with something visual or smelling since Nemo wasn't aware of anything audible.

Without thinking about how much that would cost I took my phone dialing the number of the city's most classy restaurant, with other words the best in whole Korea. Having gotten a table for two in half an hour I sighed in relief. Of course, the stupid telephone woman wanted some extra tip for the reservation, because I had phoned so late, but that's what the world was like. I had to deal with it and I mean it wasn't that I couldn't make it.

I waved to a maid and told her that my car had to be ready in less than ten minutes. This time I took to explain another maid that she should clean the kitchen. I made Nemo stand up and he followed me. Well, he only followed me after five minutes of helpless gesturing by me, slowly but surely making him even more uncomfortable and even horrified. I wasn't content with the situation, but at least he was following me.

Niel's P.O.V

Sitting down in his car, Minsoo had fastened our seat belts hastily and began to drive in an inhuman speed. I pondered where we are going to, why he had trashed the pizza and why did we leave so suddenly. He constantly watched the clock while driving, scaring me as he didn't pay much attention to the street and what was going on there. Who would've been thinking of me ending in a car accident?

We arrived in the center of Seoul, where I knew most of the streets, because of my past. Minsoo had stopped in front of a posh-looking skyscraper, where a huge bodyguard-like porter stopped all the cars. C.A.P threw the man his keys and took my hand, dragging me through a side door inside the enormous building. What kind of society was it that I had slid into? All these way too big houses...

We walked through never ending black and white colored hallways, before entering an expensive-looking restaurant. What the fùck? What did we want here now?

We were welcomed by a sullen-looking man, that showed us where to sit. It was a bit apart from the other tables, making me wonder if it usually stood there... Or was Minsoo that kind of guy who got an extra table, just because it was him?

I watched Minsoo looking through the menu. I didn't even wonder in my mind. Of course... he wasn't in any way able to tell me what I could order. In Minsoo's opinion I was just some stupid guy, not knowing anything. And I even didn't want to eat the damn pizza... Guess I should eat the food, he would be ordering for me. I sighed. He shouldn't have payed for anything.

A beautiful woman in the mid-twenties came to take our orders. As Minsoo dictated her what we would be eating, I didn't have any clue what the foreign-sounding words meant, so I looked around the room. People of every age sat around having their unfamiliar dishes. I shivered as I noticed the similarity that all of these people shared. They wore overly high-priced clothing. I wasn't aware that I did as well. Let's say: I felt a bit out of place.

Suddenly I felt someone taking my head and lifted my gaze to see that it was actually only Minsoo. Only... how could I say that... Remember Niel... he just kissed you. I stared at the black-haired swallowing hard. I wanted to kiss him again. I wanted to feel these lips onto mine again.

The latter handed me a glass wanting me to drink something. I smelled at the liquid, noting it was without alcohol so I could drink it without hesitation. Slowly I nipped at it. It wasn't bad actually. Seemed to be some non-alcoholic cocktail. Tough, I thought about all these rich people around. They were looking at me, right? They knew I was different. I felt a big lump in my throat. I should just tell him I couldn't stay with him and leave...

“I... *cough*”

But all I was able to do were some rough noises, not near to a proper word. Minsoo stood up and went to my back to pat it. He seemed to think I had choked. Feeling Minsoo that near I stiffened and bit my lower lip. He was right behind me. Almost touching me...

Then I felt him bump against the backrest of my chair. That caused me to hold my breath. Could I hide myself by pretending I wasn't there? Whatever, it was worth a try. I closed my eyes and expected him to do something. But he didn't.

I heard him inhaling deeply. But he didn't move at all. He didn't back away, but he also didn't touch me. Why the hell couldn't he just turn me 'round and kiss me?

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So... this is the next chappie xD So after N.A.P had kissed things turn awkward... Niel wants to kiss Minsoo again... while Minsoo kinda avoids any type of skinship.

Question: How do they want to fix this? And can they even live like that?

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