✎Lesson 23: Lessons Learned
✎♥The Dating Subject♥✎
MAKI'S POV
I walked in the school grounds absently and eventually ended up in the school garden.
I sat on the benches, feeling sad again.
Frankly, I am surprised that Onew has this huge effect on me, how our fight had made me so--
I sat on the benches, feeling sad again.
Frankly, I am surprised that Onew has this huge effect on me, how our fight had made me so--
"Maki?"
I glanced up.
"Ms. Boa?" I was surprised.
She smiled and sat next to me.
"What are you doing here?"
Contemplating on why my life .
"Uhm...just enjoying the flowers."
She stared at me for a moment.
"I see."
We both didn't say anything for a while and once again, my thoughts drifted to Onew.
"You know...you look sick."
Ms. Boa commented.
I blinked as her words registered in my brain.
"I do?"
Well, to be honest, I do feel sick these days. I don't have much energy to do anything and--
"Yes. But not really physically. More like...your heart is the one that's sick."
I gaped at her. How the hell does she know?
Did they study heartbreaks in med school too?!
"Maybe.." I responded quietly.
"I'm sorry." She patted my head.
"Is there a cure?" I asked suddenly, almost willing her to say that yes, there is.
A dose of paracetamol?
Or maybe happy pills?
"There is." She said seriously.
My heart almost jumped.
"What? What is it?!" I sounded desperate.
"A dose of you're-forgiven tablets and maybe some common sense syrup. Which you'll need to take three times a day." She was still being serious.
I sighed. Even the school nurse thinks I'm clueless.
"Listen, Maki. I've only seen it once. In the clinic. When On--he--brought you there. I saw his concern, the concern that goes well beyond of being just friends." She looked at me meaningfully.
"Remember what I whispered to you before?"
I nodded, blushing.
"And you know, Onew is one of the most predictable guys I've seen. One encounter with him and already, you'll know what kind of guy he is."
"Really?" What kind of guy is Onew?
A heartbreaker? A cold, heartless--
"He's a keeper."
Her words hit me with such unexpectedness as I realize the truth.
And how I was late for it now.
I look at Ms. Boa sadly.
"He's not mine for me to keep anymore."
"He's not mine for me to keep anymore."
--
I went to my room and quickly shut the door and locked it.
I walked to my desk and buried my head in it.
Why?! Why am I being like this?
I lifted my head up and the very first thing I saw were my flowers.
The roses that Onew gave me.
And they were wilting.
I hastily checked the copper coin I placed on the bottom since copper prolongs the life of flowers, it was still there.
But my flowers were dying.
I stood up quickly and went to the different parts of my room.
The tulips by my study desk,
they were wilting too.
The sunflowers by my window,
they don't seem to worship the sun anymore.
The white roses don't seem as pure as they were before.
I walked to my bedstand.
My callalilies...My precious callalilies.
They too, were wilting.
Just like my friendship with Onew.
The only one that survived were the artificial flowers that Onew gave me on our date.
But what good are they?
They're not real. Not even a petal out of them is real.
I sat on my bed sadly and began to think.
Maybe that was Onew's way of telling me that he'll never like me as more than a friend.
Those were the last flowers he gave me.
And they were artificial.
Is it really over?
I shook my head. Why am I thinking this way? It's not like Onew and I are inlove!
I blinked.
In love?
In love?
Am I...In love with him?
With Onew?
With Lee Jinki?
I remembered my sister's quiz results, Mika's conclusion, Key's accusation, and add that all up
to how I feel whenever I'm with Onew.
And my heart breaking over and over again these days.
Is this...what I think it is?
class notes
FINALLY. A REAL UPDATE FOR YOU GUYS! :DD
CLARIFICATIONS:
I don't HATE Jessica Jung of SNSD.
I used her here as a mean girl because she seems to fit the role.
Seeing as she's the ice princess, right?
No offense intended to the SONEs and GORJESS SPAZZERS out there. I am terribly sorry.
Let's be friends, ne? :D
[The Dating Subject] OMG! You guys are still subbing even though it's finished?! CAN I GIVE YOU ALL A HUG? I love you! :)
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