[18]
My Soulmate
You woke up on teddy bear’s legs. This huge teddy bear is really soft and comfortable just like what chanyeol ever said to you. The best thing that you woke up with no sadness wrapping on you. You felt better, much to be truth. You lazily walking to chanyeol’s –used to be- bed then took your phone. Swapping the lcd to unlock the phone and there your selca with chanyeol always shown as wallpaper. You formed a smile on your face slowly. Your heart suddenly filled with warmth feeling while looking at chanyeol best derp expression. You amazed at how could he pose like that when you tried your best to look – at least – fine. You lay your body on bed while your hands still playing with your phone. You haven’t said thanks yet to chanyeol for everything – well, you didn’t forget that you have told him many times but you still think that those words aren’t enough. You typed some before finally you sent the text. You giggled at how you could feel much better after doing all the things he ever asked you to do back then. When you just closed your eyes, you got your phone vibrated on your hand. You quickly peek the phone caller, Chanyeol. You hurriedly sat on the bed then swap the screen so you can hear his voice. You found it strange that he suddenly call you after you sent him message. It’s not something that he has to reply with call you guess.
“ Jinhee, what happened ?? “ his voice shows you that he is really worried about you across the phone.
You giggled since you don’t think a thanks message should be replied with a call.
“ why are you giggling now ? what’s happening seriously ?? “ he asked in a desperate frustrated tone.
“ nothing ! I just wanna say thanks for telling me things to do when I felt sad “ you smiled as if you really looking at his messy expressions.
“ really ?? “
You nodded. Ah ! you forgot that you are on the phone.
“ yeah! “ you are smiling as you scolding yourself.
Kinda a long time before silence wrapped between you and chanyeol .
“ chanyeol ? “
You repeated his name many times then decided to look at your screen then finally realized that your phone is out of battery.
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Chanyeol is on his car now. His mom was going to tell him that the meeting with his wife to be family is canceled but he is just running out of his room while trying to put his jacket on. He didn’t even listen that his mom shouted his name and tried to explain as he was running. His mind is somewhere else, you. He called you this morning after you thanked him that he let you know all things that can make yourself better. Thing that caught by his mind once he read your text that… something must be happened to you yesterday. Something must have happened. He cant forget your teary eyes, he wants to wipe it as fast as possible. He wants to be someone who can make you happy all the time. He forgot that you aren’t his responsibility anymore since the time you both decided to call the fake couple relationship off. He just cant let you cried alone. He is driving as fast as possible to the apartment where he used to live with you back then. He tried to unlock the door and you didn’t change the password yet that he can easily let himself in. He searched for you but he didn’t find you anywhere. Kitchen, Room, Bathroom. Anywhere. He worried about you because you didn’t answer him at the last minute of your call, instead hanging it off then he tried to call you many times and your phone is off. He is so confused now like a lost puppy. He called many numbers as he walked to his car again. He called anyone he can call. He drove to collage then rushed to your class but didn’t find you there as well. Usually, you have class this morning. But you aren’t there. He placed his hands on his messy hair and messed it even more. He walked to xiumin’s class. He knows that xiumin is in the middle of class when he suddenly barge in to his class then his eyes searched for xiumin. Once he got him, he walked closer to him.
He looked at him with a keen gaze he could give , “ we need to talk, NOW “
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The place felt so tensed. Chanyeol felt bad for taking xiumin out of his class but there’s thing he need to confirm with him. Xiumin felt annoyed by chanyeol’s strange behavior. He could see chanyeol’s furious eyes when he barged in to his class. He just needs to listen to what chanyeol was trying to say then he can complain things, optional.
“ what did you say to Jin Hee yesterday, hyung ? “ Chanyeol is being so straight forward. He didn’t want to waste xiumin time and the ability to meet you faster as well.
Xiumin surprised that Chanyeol seems so furious before and now he asked him this question made him think even harder. Chanyeol’s question is like a hint for him that something’s happened to you.
“ what happened to Jin Hee ? “ rather than answering chanyeol question, he more concerned about your condition.
“ just answer me first, hyung. “ chanyeol strictly commanding.
Xiumin got annoyed as well this time, but he believed that his anger wont solve anything so he choose to recall some memories yesterday. Thing that couldn’t get out of his mind is yesterday chanyeol and jin hee revealed to everyone they broke up.
“ I said… 5 years isn’t a short time.. hmm.. “ he tried to recall another line once again while chanyeol keep on thinking that jin hee wouldn’t feel sad because of that line.
“ are you sure nothing else, hyung ? “ he raised one of his eye brow, tried to catch xiumin’s eyes which still wandering around thinking whether any other lines he said beside those one. Xiumin widened his eyes once he found another line he said but he hesitantly told chanyeol what’s on his mind. Since he didn’t think those words mean anything.
“ I … “ he titled his head “ don’t think I said any other lines beside that “ he smiled. Awkward enough to be easily noticed by chanyeol that he is lying.
“ hyung, .. “ chanyeol formed hands fisted, he tried to hold himself from trembling while saying the words. He hate the fact that xiumin is trying to fool him. “ jin hee didn’t answer me when I asked her was she really alright or not then I tried to call her and her phone is off, I even came to her morning class only to find her wasn’t there. “ he gritted his teeth while his head folding down, didn’t want to directly facing xiumin in this condition.
Xiumin hesitantly moving his lips that his words barely heard by Chanyeol. “ I said… I will propose to hye min once I graduated “ he rub his nape. Chanyeol free his hands, his shoulder deflated. He was like.. why xiumin suddenly told you that thing? He was wondering what’s on xiumin’s mind that time ?? why suddenly he told you thing which can break your heart into some pieces ???
“ w – why ? suddenly ? “ he strangely stammered his words. He felt like his heart also broken into some pieces. Thinking about how you passed a rough times alone, without him. Suddenly he felt like his body is slightly wavering.
“ are you okay chan ? “ xiumin is trying to catch chanyeol’s body while the giant body in front of him, held a pole beside him tightly.
“ why hyung ? “ he managed his body to properly stand again.
“ I just.. “
Xiumin has this thought from a long time ago. When suddenly he met his childhood friend again 5 years ago. It’s not like he has no idea that the girl who has been friend with him since child times likes him. He knows it but he cant help but stay away from those like love topics with her since he cant return her feelings. He always tried his best to avoid those topics to be truth. He is glad that one day there’s a public confession that Chanyeol and that friend of him is couple. He is glad that the girl can get over her but when she told her that she broke up with chanyeol and she clearly stated that she didn’t think she really likes chanyeol, he started to think that she still has that left feelings to him. Seriously 5 years relationship is something special which he could never imagine before since his relationship with some girls never work smoothly that way. He started to think that all the 5 relationship she had with chanyeol might be all act. Yeah. That girl is you.
“ you knew it, hyung ? “ chanyeol asked to xiumin hesitantly. Somehow, he felt that xiumin knows his question meaning well. Xiumin answered nothing which made him sure that the older guy in front of him said those words to you, purposely.
“ why ? “ chanyeol asked in desperate tone. He felt his heart dropped when xiumin remains silent. Xiumin told chanyeol what’s on his mind. He doesn’t have the thought of keeping what’s on his mind tho.. he just confused on how he should explain on it so chanyeol wont get misunderstood toward his act. Xiumin finished his explanation left chanyeol in his mixed feelings. The fact that xiumin left no chance for jin hee made him felt worse than evil but when he thought back that you must be awesomely messed up yesterday broke his heart into some pieces. He has to save you. That’s what on his mind. He kinda sure that no one else can hold you right like he does.
“ what should I do to help you now chanyeol? Should I dissed the class then go with you to search jin hee ? “ xiumin asked. His tone shows him that xiumin worried about him. He felt like he was somewhere outside the world, xiumin voice turned him back to the now reality.
“ no hyung, just attend your class.. I have spread her photos to some of my friends in some districts and asked them to call me if they found her… “ chanyeol spread his weak yet sincere smile.
“ she will be okay, chanyeol.. “ xiumin keep assuring him that you will be okay. Chanyeol just nodded then saw xiumin left him alone.
[131013 18thchap 06.45pm KST]
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