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"Will you be alright in here?" Top asked when he dropped me off at YG building.
 

"Yeah, I'll just call my manager if he's not here..." I replied with a shrug.
 

"You can also call me alright, baby girl?" Top said with an arched eyebrow.
 

"You've done a lot for me today Seunghyun-ah... Go home and rest. I'll be okay. And thank you for being my 'oppa' today..." I smiled genuinely making him grin from ear to ear. "Yah! That's just for today! I'm still a few months older than you!" I scolded and pushed him back to the car.

 

"Arasso, arasso... I'll go now! Good night noona! Enjoy!" Top teased making me giggle. We waved goodbyes at each other as his car drove to the drive way.

 

Clutching the lapels of my jacket, I entered the really posh building with the hopes of finding Youngbae in there. I started at Teddy's studio because Bae said that he will be working with him. But Teddy said that Bae went to the practice room to finish a song. Now I'm having doubts of I still should look for him or not. But I really wanted to see him and know if he's okay, besides the fact that I know he's probably upset right now with the news.

 

Walking to a hallway of practice rooms, I could hear a faint sound of a piano playing. Following the sound, I found a well lighted practice room with musical instruments inside. The door was left ajar and as I peaked in, I saw a familiar figure sitting by the piano and doing what he does best. I fished my phone from my purse and took a video of him. I couldn't help but smile and marvel with how he plays. Carefully, I let myself in without making any noise so I won’t disturb him and just listen to the rhythm that he's playing. He finished his piece and started to write something on his music sheets and then started to play again. I then stopped recording and approached him trying to be quiet as much as possible, but my heels sounded on the wooden floor making him look over his shoulder. Youngbae didn't stop playing but he scooted a bit on the piano bench, giving me some space. The moment I sat that's when he opened his lips and started singing.

 

Haruedo myeot beonssik neol bomyeo useo nan
Su baek beon malhaetjanha you're the love of my life
Geojitdoen sesang sok buranhan nae mamsok
Ojik na mitneun geon neo hana ppunirago
Gakkeum nae mam byeonhalkka bwa buranhaehal ttaemyeon
Useumyeo malhaetjanha geureol il eopdago
Kkeuteomneun banghwang sok teong bin nae gaseumsok
Naega gidael goseun neo hanappun ijiman
Gakkeumssik heundeullineun nae jasini miwo
Oneuldo nan isesange hwipsseullyeo salmyeosi neol jiwo

Naega baram pyeodo neoneun jeoldae pijima baby
Naneun neoreul ijeodo neon nareul itjima lady
Gakkeum naega yeollagi eopgo sureul masyeodo
Hoksi naega dareun eotteon yeojawa
Jamsi nuneul matchwodo neon naman barabwa
 

Naman Barabwa / Only Look At Me (English Translation)

I've been telling you everyday
I smile when I see you.
I've told you so many times
You're the love of my life.
In this world full of lies, in my nervous heart
The one thing I believe in is you.
When you get nervous thinking that my feelings may change
Remember I laughed when I told you that would never happen.
A direction with no end,
My completely empty heart
The only place I can lean on is you.
And I hate that my heart sometimes wavers
Even today I get carried away by the world
And you get erased

Even if I cheat
Don't you ever cheat, baby
Even if I forget you
Don't you ever forget me, lady
If once in a while I don't contact you
And I go out to drink
Even if I ever meet another girl's gaze
Look only at me.

Youngbae sang and on the last line of the chorus he looked at me. His eyes didn't sparkle like what he used to have, it was somewhat sad but still hoping. My jaw started to shake and there's an invisible lump on my throat. My eyes also started to heat up and tears started to well up in my eyes. Before my eyes could betray me I rested my forehead on the edge of his shoulder. I just couldn't look at him like that. I had hurt him this time and I just couldn't take the look in his eyes.
 

"I'm sorry Bae..." I sniffed un-lady like. Soon a pair of arms s around me. Damn, I miss him so much!
 

"Hey..." He finally said, hushing me and rocking me and kissing my hair.

 

"I'm really sorry..." I said again and I'm starting to hiccup.

 

"Baby look at me..." Bae said gently lifting my face to meet his eyes again. "I love you and I support everything you do okay? I too am sorry. But here's a promise, I'll never let go as long as you won't...okay?" He searched my eyes and I could only give him a nod because I can't talk in between my hiccups. Bae then smiled and dried my cheeks with his hands. "Even if crying you still looked adorable... C'mon let's get you some water..."

 

In Youngbae's studio, he gave me water to calm down while patting my back. When I said that I was okay, he started to fix his things and get ready to head home. To be honest, I still don't want to go home. I just want to spend some more time with Youngbae.

 

"I still don't want to go home..." I said with my pleading eyes and finally breaking the silence. "Babe, can we take a walk?"

 

"With your heels?" Bae asked with an arched eyebrow. But this time, with a hint of smile on his lips.

 

"I'm gonna have to change of course..." I said and stood up from his couch. "Wait for me, I'm gonna go and change..."

I washed off the heavy make-up on my face and replaced it with just a lighter one. After a crying fit earlier, my face has gotten a little puffed and I want to look nice in front of my boyfriend.
 

It was a pretty windy night or midnight rather with a good chance of raining. But that didn't bother me at all, as long as I'm spending it with Youngbae.
 

We were walking in silence just around our apartment complex side by side; our arms bumping each other and our hands brushing from time to time. This ! I'm with my boyfriend and I couldn't even hold his hand in public, even though we're practically the only people in the street right now. I up all the courage I had and took a hold of his arm, slid my arm down to his hands before intertwining my fingers to his. Bae looked at me a bit shocked with my sudden gesture.
 

"I don't care anymore..." I said smiling at him, making him smile too that reached his eyes. With his free hand, he touched my chin, pulling closer to him. With our lips just a few inches away, a huge rain drop landed on my nose, which made me twitch away from him. Then another drop fell on Bae's forehead. Soon, the rain drops kept falling. I started to drag Bae's hand for us to find shelter. But Bae didn't move an inch from where we're standing. Instead, he smiled widely and pulled me closer to his, wrapping his arms around my waist.

 

"Bae, we're getting drenched!" I yelled under the strong rain.
 

But Bae's smile just got wider. "I too don't care anymore..." He said in almost a whisper but enough for me to hear. I blinked at him in surprise. His eyes sparkled with happiness and love that I know is only for me; and I too felt the same for him.

 

Already drenched under the rain, Youngbae once again touched my chin and inched closer his lips to mine. I could feel his heated breath on my skin because of the rain. The moment his lips touched mine, my eyes fluttered close. Involuntarily, my arms flew up to his shoulders, savoring our closeness, savoring the sweet kiss. Just then, a lightning broke out into the clouds almost startling me; making us pull out from our kiss. I was almost out of breath and so was Bae. But I couldn't help but smile and so did he.

 

"C'mon..." Bae smiled before grabbing my hand and ran while we both giggled like teenagers.

 

We ran our way to their dorms -the Big Bang  dorms, to be exact because we were closer to theirs- drenched and dripping wet, but we're both laughing and giggling without any reason at all. I guess we're just both happy that we have each other.

 

My teeth are almost chattering the moment we got inside their dorms. Daesung, who was watching tv, was a bit surprised to see us drenched and in cold.

 

"Wah?! What happened to you both?" Dae asked.

 

"We were walking and then it started to rain..." I said while hugging myself to keep me warm. Just then, a running Seungri came in to our view.

 

"Oh, noona you're here!" Seungri said. "Aren't you supposed to be at the party?"

 

"My chaperone, a.k.a. TOP, drove me home earlier...Isn't he supposed to be here too?" I said and blew my hands for warmth.

 

"I'm here..." TOP said and came to our view, still wearing his party clothes.

 

"Guys can you please hand us some towels before we froze to death?" Youngbae finally said. Daesung then ran to the bathroom and gathered some towels.
 

"Here noona, these are newly washed." Dae said as he handed me some towels which I immediately wrapped around myself.
 

"Thanks Dae..." I said.

 

"C'mon, I'll show you the bathroom...You should shower off or you might get sick." Bae said.

 

"W-Wait!" I almost exclaimed with my eyes wide and getting everyone's attention. "I...I have a problem..."

 

"What is it?" Bae asked worriedly.

 

"I-I don't have change clothes and undies with me..." I said in almost a whisper.

 

"No worries!" Seungri exclaimed excitedly. Overhearing my dilemma, he ran back to his room, and in a flash he came back with a signature pink Victoria Secret box and handed it to me.

 

"What is this?" I asked with an arched eyebrow even though I think I already know what's inside.

 

"Open it!" Seungri grinned. I was almost reluctant of opening the box with the boys looking, but I still did what I was told. And lo and behold, a lacy pair of black and bra flashed before my eyes.

 

"Where did you get these?!" I exclaimed.

 

"From a fan..." Seungri simply said, still with an evil grin plastered on his face. TOP was holding in a laugh, Dae kept looking away from the open box and Bae was looking at Seungri inquisitively.

 

"Why would a fan give this to you? Are these even new?" I asked.

 

"I checked, the tags are still on..." Seungri said while trying to peek at the box which made me swat him away. I sighed. I don't really have a choice but to wear the black-lacy-underwear which subtly covers my most private parts. Youngbae then got me one of his sweatshirts and sweatpants.

 

Going out of their bathroom after taking a shower, I saw Youngbae coming out of his room. He was halfway getting his shirt on, his real defined abs exposed. Damn! I'm one lucky girl!

 

"Close your mouth little miss..." A deep voice interrupted and startled me. I hissed at Top and rolled my eyes off him. I settled myself at their dining table, making Youngbae sit beside me.
 

"Do you want anything to eat or drink?" Youngbae asked me, trying to ignore Top.
 

"We have chocolate abs...oh! I mean, chocolate cake in the fridge. It's mouth watering..." Top butted in and teased as he wiggled his eyebrows.
 

"Aish..." I hissed once more at him, this time with a death glare.

 

"If you need anything, I'll be right in my room..." Top said and sprinted to his room in a flash. I heard Youngbae chuckle.

 

"You've been checking me out a lot lately you know..." Bae smirked at me, earning a hit from me on his arm. "Aw!" He pretended to be hurt.

 

"Served you well, huh?" I said and placed a hand on my hip. "It's a wish come true. Don't you think, 'Naman Barabwa'?" I teased with a slight smirk on my lips and squinted my eyes at him which earned a smile from Youngbae. I remember seeing the title of the song on his music sheets he played earlier, which also reminded me of the video of him that I recorded earlier.

 

"Here..." I got my phone and showed him the video.

 

"It's official, you're not only checking me out, but you're also stalking me..." Bae smirked some more as he watched the short video.

 

"Shut up..." I jokingly rolled my eyes off him. "I like the song..." I smiled at him.

 

"It was just a brain fart..."  Bae shrugged.

 

"That brain fart didn't stink, it smelled good." We both chuckled. "I love it..." I added.

 

"Even if it hurt you?" Bae asked with full concern. I suddenly remembered our fan meeting performance.

 

"Does anyone own this right now?" I asked, ignoring his question. Me, being hurt by his song is not really an issue, but for him to compose a song like that is a cause of me hurting him by my own fault.
 

"Me...? I'm thinking of pitching this to Ji...I don’t know really…" Bae said with a shrug again.

 

"What if I say I want to sing it?" I suggested. "Well, there's a 2NE1 fan meeting that'll happen soon and we're asked to do a solo perf. I want to sing this as my solo perf. Well that's if you want me to..."
 

"Are you sure?" Youngbae asked.

"I'm more than sure..." I smiled widely. I suddenly heard Ji's voice inside my head saying 'Yeah, a surprise for the fans would be nice...' And it gave me a brilliant idea. Actually, I'm planning for something more, something big, something for Youngbae...

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Hello lovies and dearies! I'm back with a new chapter :)

I don't really know how to describe this chapter though I know there are some cheesy parts here and there ^^

With that said I really wanted to hear from you guys! :)

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Lexi